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"You'll never know how much that 'someone' meant to you until you lose them"

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Caleb

Every step felt like a bomb of spikes exploding in my right foot. When I lifted my foot off the ground, the soreness would fade away for a second. Another step and the throbbing would spurt up my right leg again.

I hissed in pain and instantly lifted my right foot off the ground, leaning on the nearby wall for support while I was standing on my left foot.

They did this to me, I thought as I grasped the serrated rocks embedded into the wall.

I glanced up at the night sky; breathing in the cool air that carried a hint of dampness and lacked the pollution of the day traffic.

The stars, wrapped up in the thick blanket of darkness, seemed to look down at me - laughing at my condition.

"You've lost everything" they seemed to say "What happened to your ego? What happened to your attitude? What happened to your love?"

My head hung down in failure. I couldn't fight for Harley. I couldn't save her. They took her away and I lay there like a defenceless and feeble combatant.

Tears started to form under my closed eyelids.

No...I can't cry. I'm Caleb Parker. I never cry!

I tried to thrust the tears back but then came a wave of emotions; such morose and terrible emotions that they overpowered my strength and I ended up breaking down into sobs.

A few minutes of limping down the dark pavement and it suddenly lit up with white light emanating from behind me.

I turned to look back. A car was zooming toward me; its intense white headlights burning my retinas. I shielded my eyes and backed away to make room for the car on the narrow street.

Unexpectedly, the car ceased to a stop beside me and the window was winded down. It revealed a familiar face with a stern and aggravated expression.

It took me no time to realise it was none other but my twin brother, Connor.

"Get in" Connor demanded, without making eye contact, and shut the engines down.

I pulled the doors open and hopped in.

Almost immediately, a blast of cold air hit my face. It was refreshing and soothing and I wanted to place my face on the car's AC vent all night. But of course, that'd be awkward and it looked like Connor had something really important to discuss about as he sat there without starting the car.

I leaned my back on the comfy seat of our BMW and squeezed my eyes shut.

"How'd you find me?" I half-whispered to Connor.

His reply was instant and contained a hint of anger "I asked your friends to whom you actually told exactly where you were going instead of telling your family"

Did he just mock me? ME?

My head snapped in his direction. I looked at him dubiously but the look in his eyes said that he didn't want to look at me.

I had to reply something, anything. I blurted out "If I told my family where I was headed, they'd come and ruin my date and-"

I gagged.

I just said 'date'

I was definitely dead meat.

"Date?" Connor repeated and started to giggle "You call it a date? Look at your turnout and don't make me ask you what happened back there in your 'date' that caused you to limp down on an empty street in the middle of the night"

I stared at him wide-eyed. I expected Connor to get all shocked and gloomy but instead...he was laughing!

"I...I..." I didn't know what to say. It felt like Connor already knew everything.

"Yeah go ahead" he eyed me angrily finally making eye contact "tell me that you've been dating Harley for past month and you didn't bother to let me and Gina know about it"

He knew it. But how?

Fury took over me and I banged my fist on the car door "I started dating her just a few days ago and I didn't tell you guys because you'll be fucking heartbroken!"

"If you really cared about our hearts..." he yelled back "...you never would've dated Harley in the first place!"

"This is my life Connor!" I yelled even louder "You don't need to tell me what to do!"

"So you think living your life happily while you go around breaking everyone's hearts is a right thing?" he furrowed his eyebrows "Caleb...I'm not mad that you've been dating Harley. You guys like each-other and deserve each other, I knew it from day one. But the fact that you never told me is what is hurting me right now..."

I became silent for a while...

Connor started the car engine and began driving away.

I scrutinized my actions and I realized - I should've at least told him. Maybe hiding it from him was really cruel because we loved Harley equally. I started to feel guilty and I replied "We're not dating anymore"

"What?" he asked as the car picked up speed.

"Eric made us break up" I gulped "and then he took Harley away"

There was sharp hiss of the tyres on the smooth tarmac road as Connor screeched the car to a stop. I clutched the sides of the seat so my head doesn't bang against the airbag case. Thanks to the seat belt that was strapped on my chest.

"The hell do you mean by 'they took her away'? And who the fuck is Eric?" Connor was screaming at me.

I still breathed hard at the sudden stop of the car and barely any sound came out of my throat.

Connor gripped my collar "Caleb!" he yelled "What happened to Harley?"

"Calm down!" I shrugged his hands off me "She's okay, let me explain"

Connor calmed down, his shoulders slumped and he sat back on his seat. His eyes scanned my face intently, demanding an answer.

I took a deep breath and started "I took Harley to the...abandoned park on the outskirts of the town..."

"Why would-"

"Just shut up and let me talk!" I cut him off "I thought it was beautiful place and Harley would love it there but there was this guy - Eric. He claimed to be Harley's boyfriend"

Connor opened his mouth to say something but stopped.

"I had a fight with him" I rubbed my temple, endeavouring to kill the slight pain in my head "He had a mob of friends...they beat me"

Connor's lips parted. His eyes portrayed dread and asked for more information at the same time.

"Harley tried to stop the fight" I sniffed. That immense wave of emotions was headed towards my heart one more time. I didn't want to cry again, not in front of Connor "Eric made a deal with her that if she breaks up with me, they'll let me go and then he took Harley with him"

Connor shook his head in disgust "How can you assure that Harley is safe with them?"

"She said she'll be fine" I rubbed my eyes.

"You'll call her as soon as we reach home" he started the car engine again "I don't care that you guys broke up but you have to make sure she's okay"

I nodded.

I switched the AC off, winded the window half-way down and rested my head against the glass pane.

The wind howled as it rushed past my ears. A forceful gust of gale came crashing against my face as if craving to push me back into the car.

Even nature hates me now.

Connor abruptly spoke up "Don't think that this changes anything between us"

The tone of his statement was commanding, like it was challenging me to take action. His voice was rough, raging "I wasn't the one who wanted to come looking for you. It was mom and dad who forced me because they were worried"

"But..." I kept my voice low "I thought you don't like Harley anymore. We can forgive each other now..."

For sometime the only sound that rung in our ears was the rustling of wind and roar of the engine.

And then he said "I gave up on Harley because you were too stubborn. I tried to control my emotions just so you don't take this too far. But you...you hurt me Caleb. You fucking fought with me over a girl"

Guilt lingered in the air. I felt sorrier for my actions than I ever did.

"Do you think I can forgive you for that?" he questioned me "You made me feel horrible about being me. You made my life a misery. You hurt me for real and I don't think I can ever forgive you for what you've done. I'm sorry Caleb but I think it's time I start to care about myself and walk my own way"

"What-What do you mean?" I stuttered.

"You see..." he gave me a nervous smile "We're old enough to live separately in our very own apartments now"

I wished I hadn't heard that. I wished I had a time machine and I could go back and stop myself for asking what he meant.

There were moments when I felt guilty about my actions. But this...this was something else.

I felt like I lost a big part of my life. My world had tumbled down the hill and I was the one to push it.

Amongst the hustle-bustle, I had tried to maintain my image. I had tried to make sure everyone looked up at me and respected me for who I was. I was so in love with my ego that I forgot about what I left behind.

I left my brothers heart behind.

And now it's gone forever.

The stars were right - I lost everything.

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