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Chapter 11: Left Alone

Tsuki POV
Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep.

I wake up to a blinding light, I put on the pair of glasses on the table beside me to help readjust my vision because of the sun hitting the white walls make it difficult to see. I sit up slowly and groggily, I wince in pain as I move so sudden.

Then everything comes back to me like a wave of pain.

The fight. And with Gaara. I new I had no chance of winning, especially what I saw what he did to Lee. Now both Lee and I are stuck in this bed ridden hospital. I mean I'm not complaining, the bed is comfortable, but it gets boring especially when you have no visitors. Anyways now I'm stuck here thanks to a certain Sand ninja. A hot Sand ninja.

DAMN IT!!! I'm pathetic, liking a boy who tried to kill me and has no interest besides killing. Plus!! He doesn't even like me.

I sigh as a cloud of depression surrounds me. No one ever likes me. I should've just ignored this stupid feeling in my heart, I knew he was just here for the chunin exams. He came here to participate, nothing more nothing less. I should back out before it gets too late and I start to feel something more. I don't want to become a sobbing mess like my sister because he didn't like me or notice me. I should keep living this life alone, or until I'm older. I'm too young to start liking anyone especially going into a relationship with a boy who I barely know.

I lay back into the pillow and sigh as I look up to the ceiling. I look to my arm and find it wrapped in several bandages making it look similar to a cast. I try to move it, but a burning sharp pain runs up my hand.

Tick tock. Tick tock. Tick tock. Ti-

I throw my pillow harshly at the ticking clock, annoyed at the constant noise that never ceases. My pillow makes the clock crash to the floor, breaking it to a dozen pieces. I sigh in satisfaction finally accomplishing the peaceful quiet I aimed for. Well that was until a sultry blonde nurse came into my room, caked with make up. I mentally shudder at the sight.

"Well hello, I see that you're finally awake" her voice pierces the air making me wish I was deaf.

"Well how long was I here for" I ask not looking at the revolting blonde.

"Hmm? Well you were here for sixteen days" she informs. I stay quiet letting the information soak my mind.

SIXTEEN DAYS!!! THAT'S TWO WEEKS.

I mentally shout in my head as my eyes are open wide enough to make them fall out. My mouth gapes like a fish out of water.

"Um are you okay, Miss Tsuki" she asks oblivious to the reason of my current state.

I nod, "well am I ready to be checked out, or is there a problem" I ask.

I watch as she nods with a slight frown, "yes you're ready to be checked out, but I need to tell you about your arm" the blonde informs.

I sigh nodding my approval so she can continue.

"You see you're arm is beyond repair. The muscles surrounding your arm are teared and ripped severely. The bones that support your arm are broken in several pieces they also have cracks surrounding them. We were able to heal your cuts and abrasions on your skin, but you'll have multiple scars adorning you skin. I'll also inform you this because your a ninja and this may effect your career. The problem in your arm is that you're unable to wield chakra in your left arm. Since the fight you had dangerously injured your arm it cut the chakra points making them useless. It can't be healed, not even by the best medical ninjutsu across the nations. That is all. I'm sorry we couldn't help you recover your arm and best of luck, you may go now" she informs me while smiling sympathetically at the end.

I look down at my encased arm with a sad frown. So I can't use my right arm, but I still have a chance of being a ninja. Well all I have to do is learn how to make hand signs with one arm with all my jutsus. No big deal, right. I mean I could still fight with Taijutsu and weapons. Speaking about weapons, I need to exchange my twin fans for a large single fan since I can't transfer chakra into my left fan anymore.

I won't give up, no matter what. I don't care how big the obstacle is, I still go through it.

I quickly wipe the frown off my face and change into my clothes. The sweater is clean as if nothing ever happened to it. I slip it on along with my shorts. I take my boots and slip them on after I placed the socks on. I grab the bag that has all my extra stuff and run through the halls and out the front entrance of this horrid place. I run, but I being the idiot I am, I crash to a person making us stumble to the floor. Well more like, 'get hit with a sand wall and fall on my ass' fall.

I look up and meet teal eyes piercing through my fuchsia colored eyes. I unconsciously clench my arm and get up from the dirt road. I find myself looking two other sets of eyes. I look at the people around me. The Sand Siblings.

"Temari, Gaara, Kankuro" I greet through gritted teeth.

They glare and Temari scoffs, "well looky here if it isn't Tsuki. How's your arm? Does it hurt" she says asking me with fake concern.

I glare at her, "Why do you care, huh, it doesn't concern you or need your fucking attention, you whore" I say as I walk passed her and leave the three siblings in the dust.

Who they think they are, acting all high and mighty? I just want them to leave so I don't have to deal with them.

I sigh and walk towards my house where I live with my family. Which I dread. I see the door to the entrance of the house in my view and I could feel myself tense up. I don't like being here, but I haven't been here in a while. I open the door warily and close it behind me, suddenly I feel a shiver crawl up my spine. I turn around and I'm met with my two scowling parents. I gulp in slight fear.

"Where were you for the past two weeks. Why can't you be like your sister? Is it so hard to be like her? You can't do anything right, you're always getting hurt, always in the way, always making us waste money on your stupid injuries! WHY ARE YOU SUCH A WEAK LITTLE BRAT!!!" my father sneers.

I flinch at his tone, but I should be used to it by now. I always get yelled at for something. I mean if I do something, 'I do it wrong' at least that's what they say.

"Why can't you be like Sakura, she's the one who's actually strong. She's not a weakling like you" my mother snarls. I scoff.

Really she's the strong one? She spends her free time chasing a boy who obviously has no interest in her, or the female population. And what's with today is it 'be especially mean to Tsuki day'.

"Well if Sakura is so strong, then why did I have to help her. I got hurt protecting her. SHE'S THE WEAK ONE, NOT ME!!!" I shout in their face tired of their attitude.

SLAP!!!

My head turns to the left as a burning feeling stings across my cheek. I turn back to my mother and glare. I clench my fists as I bite my lip to stop a string of curses I want to yell at her.

I sigh, "you know if you don't love me, tolerate me, or even want me, why don't you just kick me out. It'll be better for all of us, I don't want to see you, you don't want to see me. It's the best card to play. I mean you only care about your little Cherry Blossom and you neglect your Moon" I say referring to Sakura and I.

"You know what, I might even do that. I can't stand looking at you anymore, you're an annoyance, a nuisance, and a burden!!" my father snarls, "no one will ever like you, no one will love you, everyone hates you, and WE WISH THAT YOU WERE NEVER BORN!!!" my father finishes.

I stumble back in full shock. I gasp in horror at the realization. My eyes start to tear up, and my father's eyes widen with the words he spoke. My mother gasps in shock that her husband revealed the secret they've been hiding. My father looks like he wants to apologize, but why, it's not going to mean anything. I know he meant what he said.

"Tsu-"

"No, I don't want to hear it. I know you meant what you said so why take it back. I just hope you're happy when I'm gone" I say with my voice cracking at the end.

I go up the flight of stairs and turn left into my room. I open the door and quickly shut it while locking it. That's when I break down. The dam breaks letting all the tears I've been holding in for years finally fall down my cheeks. I cry and sob harshly as I fall to my knees and hug myself trying to find the little comfort I can, but that all fails when I question myself. Why am I so useless? Why can't I be like her? Why did it always have to be me who got neglected? What did Sakura have that I didn't? Did they always hate me? Did they ever love me? Was I really a burden to them? Did they only want one daughter? Is it because I'm different? Is it because I'm not as ladylike as her? Or is it just my whole existence that they hate? Do they even want me around? I shake violently as my salty tears fall to the floor making a puddle of sadness. I could feel my heart break to pieces that's beyond any kind of repair. I feel my walls of security break and fall to shambles. Then finally I could feel myself break down, knowing that I'll never be the same. I fall to the ground as I quietly sob. All my life I've been living a lie.

I'm sorry I'm not perfect. I'm sorry I can't be like her? I'm sorry I'm not strong. I'm sorry that I can't be the perfect daughter? I'm sorry I'm such a burden to you? I'm sorry useless girl that will never shine in your eyes. I'm sorry I'm such a mess? I'm sorry. I'm sorry! I'M SORRY THAT I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU!

I mentally shout in my head as I slowly drift to sleep while lying broken on the floor.

-_-_-_-

I wake up early in the morning, before dawn even breaks. I slowly sit up from the wooden floor of my room wiping my still wet cheeks dry. I could feel that my eyes are swollen from all the tears I shed. I go to my bathroom and take a quick shower as I lavish my hair with blossom breeze shampoo. I rinse my hair and quickly scrub my body with floral scented soap. After showering I dress in my soft cotton sweater with my pair of black shorts and boots. I tie my headband around my neck and place my glasses on. I leave my hair down, not caring about how I look. After I finish dressing I look around the room, gazing at all the scrolls and informational books I have stacked around the premises. I feel slightly disgusted and sorry that I wasted all my life to these books. I lost my childhood, instead of having fun with friends, I was forced to grow up by locking myself in my room or either going to the training grounds to train til I dropped, because my parents ignored and neglected me.

I sigh, grabbing scrolls along with a few books I throw them inside my bag. I jump out the open window of room and welcome the cold air of the darkened morning. I need to build my self up again and this time it'll be much stronger and much higher than before. I need to distance myself and avoid everyone. I need to go back to my cold and antisocial self. Sadly I need to let go of both Naruto and Sasuke, I can't be friends with anyone anymore.

I go to a weapons shop and step inside as a bell jingles above me making my presence known to the shop owner. I take my twin fans out and walk up the old man who's lounging by the counter tiredly. I don't blame him it is early in the morning. I place my fans on the counter, startling him.

"Hey old man, how much can I get for these two fans" I ask him.

"Hmm" he says.

He takes a fan and studies it. After a few minutes of testing and checking them out he places both the fans on the counter and crosses his hands over his chest.

"I'll give you eighty dollars for both of them. No more and no less. So is it a deal?" he asks as he smiles.

"Fine, it's a deal" I sigh knowing he won't change his mind.

"Excellent. Here you go miss, glad to do business with you" he says as he places four twenties in my hand.

I step back nodding my head in approval. I take my chance to look around the shop, glancing at the walls that show several weapons. Katanas, swords, daggers, staff's, scythes, whips, fuma shurikens, spears, chakra blades, and much more. I stare in wonder looking at all the weapons around me. My heart flutters in admiration. Now this is what I like, weapons and pretty much anything that could hurt someone. This is my dreamland. I look at the weapons in awe, but none capture my interest. Finally I look over to the last wall and see it. I find the weapon I'm searching for.

The fan has a black handle and the fan it self is a light grey almost white. I grab the fan and open it making the dust in the room fly around. The fan reveals three moons in black. The middle moon is a full moon, the one on the left is a waning crescent, then the one on the right is a waxing crescent. A/N: the picture above shows the different moon phases. I smile as I close the fan, this is the one I need.

I walk up to the counter again and find the man sleeping. He probably forgot about me. I sigh and place the large fan on the counter, again startling him.

"Sorry old man, but I just want to purchase this beauty from you, so how much does it cost" I say interrupting his sleep.

He groggily lets out a yawn and groans at my presence, "the fan you have costs at least one hundred and twenty dollars" he informs.

What?! That's a lot of money! Thank Kami I saved my money from all the missions.

I sigh in depression as I make my wallet smaller. I hand him two fifties and a twenty. He nods in appreciation as I grab the fan and strap it to my back. I wave bye to the old shop owner and leave the weapons shop that I quickly grew fond of.

I walk through the roads of Konoha as the sun starts to shine ever so brightly across the village indicating that it's morning. I make my way towards the training grounds and ignore the genins who tried to talk to me. I need to do this if I don't want to get hurt. I need to distance my self.

I make it to the training grounds where me and the rest of team seven first did the bell test. It was the days when I first crawled out of my shell of isolation. The days where I could trust the people around me. The days where I knew nothing about the truth. But here I am trying to crawl back into my shell of loneliness. The times when I stayed up all night studying and training. I could feel all my memories make their way up my brain, but I ignore the nostalgia and push them down, back to the depths of unwanted memories. I despised yet loved those days. Despised the bullying, mental abuse, the neglect, the taunting, all the bad that came my way. I loved the silence of isolation, the knowledge I learned, the Justus I came across. Even if I hated it, those moments made me who I am today, which is no different. I'm still the same cold antisocial girl I was back than.

I throw the bag on the floor besides me and I take a few steps forward and unstrap the large fan. I ignore the thought that I'm similar to Temari. The fans. I push the thought back and open the fan making it reveal the three moons. I pour chakra into my right arm and raise it back to my side.

"Wind Style: Wind Scythe Jutsu" I exclaim as I thrust the fan forwards.

The wind blows harshly, but it still lacks force and the sharpness of the jutsu. Its not as strong as when I used my twin fans. The blow is still to weak. This whole one handed chakra is harder than I thought. I need to use more chakra in my arm just so I make the Jutsu strong. I need to focus more and stop thinking about the negatives. If I want to continue being a ninja, I need to get through this obstacle and move foe forward.

I didn't notice the red head watching me as I trained. I was too focused on being productive. Anyways after hours of training in the hot burning sun I finally managed to use both the Wind Scythe Jutsu and the Wind Vortex. I managed two, but I still need the Slashing Wind Skill, Air Riding, Wind Torpedo, Wind Release: Severing Pressure, Wind Style: Cutting Whirlwind, Low Air Pressure Technique, and Wind Release: Wind Dragon Jutsu. I need those wind jutsus, plus I still need all my Water jutsus and the few Fire jutsus I know. Then after learning that I still need to learn how to use Medical Ninjutsu with one hand.

I pant out of breath, trying to engulf the air around me to relief the burning sensation of my lungs. I strip myself of my sweater since it's so hot and my skin in dressed in sweat. I throw the cloth to the floor and I fall to my back. I let the blades of grass cut me with their cold touch to relax my hot skin. As I lie on the grassy floor I look up at the darkened sky and see the stars shine on different levels. I relax and find the different constellations above me. This would've been a cheesy moment if someone was besides me. But I can't have that. The girl who once searched for love is gone. Now I'm a girl who desires isolation. That's my life now. No family, no friends, no lovers, no one, just me and no one else.

That's what's left of me. A girl who was left alone in the dark depths of loneliness.

Well that was chapter eleven. Thanks for reading and I hoped you enjoyed it. Anyways Comment on your likes, dislikes, opinions, or criticism of the chapter, I take no offence. Also don't forget to

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