It's not allowed
It's not okay
I didn't ask to feel like this
About you
You wormed your way into my heart
And I can't get you out
I hate you for it
I hate me for it
I would walk 10,000 miles
To get rid of these feelings about you

No matter how far away I push you
How high up I put you
No matter how I berate and loathe you
Or how I exault you and glorify your existence
No matter how often I tell myself I am not enough,
Never enough
Or too much
I still crawl to you on my hands and knees
To die at your feet

I'm sick of being hurt,
And crawling to you for healing
When I've done nothing but live

I cant stay away
No matter how hard I try
Because everyone needs air to breathe