Bad boy,
Good lips

"You are gonna hit me?" He asked studying my intentions intently.

I shook my head too spellbound to even speak more than a labored whisper.

He slowly brought his head down looking a little hesitant but his dark eyes knew very well what was going on in my mind.

My hands reached and pulled his face down by the nape of his neck. "Fucking come here already" I tilted my head crashing my lips to his.

Yep, it was explosive like firecrackers. Exploding my veins, my heart my entire system was disarrayed lightened up, heightened up, going all frenzy!

I pulled him down more to me. All along shocking both of us. I wanted him close to feel what I just got a touch of.

Laksh gasped but pretty quickly got a hold on himself, his arm yanked me up by my waist. I wrapped my arms around his neck like an anchor holding him in this swaying moment. I arched upward digging my fingers in his hair. Breathing him in and just feeling the touch this strange yet I am liking it too much- connection, the pressed of his lips against mine. Soft and ardent. He was moving them so gently he was being so slow taking his own time. Gently brushing my cheeks with his fingertips then my eyes as if embedding my image with closed eyes. This gesture was simply tearing my heart apart it was too big and too demanding that my eyes stung I wanted him to lose control not to be so cautious and so soft.

I bit his lower lip, he groaned the vibration felt down to his lower throat. I splayed my hand on it and then I felt him breaking, the hesitancy shattering down that hot mouth knew so much better than sweet kisses. It was scorching it was so hot it was burning me to within. He kissed me, kissed me repeatedly like he was waiting for so long to do so. I was drowning in them, my eyes rolled back nearly light-headed struggling to keep up with him.

We separated.

Our breaths mingled, noses resting against each other. When he opened his eyes found already mine on him, "agai-" my word got swallowed by his mouth.

It felt like I couldn't stop and it felt like he couldn't stop but we did, at some point, some ages or way too soon.

I held onto him, still breathing hard.

We were in a weird kinda embrace. Me still sitting not moved even an inch but the rush in my veins, the little gasp out of breath made it look like I ran a marathon. Laksh head was in my hair, I slightly pushed him away. To breath a little, properly.

"Oh God"I breath out, looking up.

Shit, I can't even feel my lips. I touched them numbly.

I laughed in disbelief then looked back at Laksh he was sat down near me looking at me with a weird adoration that made me feel uncomfortable.

"Holy shit we should try this often!" I said forcing a tight lip smile at him.

Oh what did I do??

What should I do now?

He appeared hurt for a second or was it something I just imagined? I blinked, he shuffled back nodding then turned away getting up.

The atmosphere transcend back to really awkward again and was a little suffocating with some heavy tension in there.

I tried to gather my thoughts to explain to myself my actions and why I behaved so impulsively?

But,

I was at a lost

I just liked it

I liked kissing Laksh I-I

Oh my god! I kissed Laksh!!. The realization hit harder than it should have.

I was jittery mess freaking out my head snapped to Laksh, blood draining off my face, he was stood with his back to me.

Maybe confused like me.

But he kissed me back!

Quite actively...

I gulped blinking my eyes again as if doing that would pull myself out of this weirdly- felt -so- good dream but what just happened played back in my mind and how much I felt like a muddled pool from inside because of it.

I uncertainly got up touching my hair abruptly,
"Hey, Laksh Ummm.."

I don't know what to say?

What could I say in situations like this... "should I go?" I asked him. The very first thing that came to my mind.

Run away!

Just fucking run away from the scene

He wasn't facing me.

Did he hear me?

Was he regretting it?

All of this.?

My heart sank a little thinking so.

I bit my lip then licked it I still have a remnant of the taste of his. Damn. It was so addicting. ..tentatively, I moved towards him still in a daze. Then got better control over myself. I scanned around the room for my things then I realized I didn't bring any.

I looked at the door then at Laksh it didn't appear he was going to reply any time sooner.. so with slow steps I headed towards the door.

I had almost reached it when I found my arm tugged back. I chewed the inside of my cheek anxiously, spinning on my heels coming face to face with Laksh.

I shifted back nervously when I saw he was clearly angry.

His jaw was clenched he was staring down at me with a hard look.

Why so angry??

I glanced at his fingers curled around my arm. I pulled it indicating him to leave it but the hold only tightened on it.

Got it, he won't let go of me, he wanted an explanation, and right now.

"You don't like me right?" I began with the very first reason that came to my mind.

"No" he answered still looking at me with those furious eyes. Though his answer sounded kinda incomplete.

Nevertheless,
I sighed almost relieved. I don't know how will I react if he said otherwise like he suddenly started liking me??!
"You know it was just attraction nothing else, only physically right?" I said hesitantly. It was a clear-out attraction because we hated each other what else it could be?. Don't be stupid and manipulate it into something called love and other bluffs

His eyes strayed away losing their glint. The hold loosened on my arm I unfree it shrugging it off before I got carried away like earlier.

He stepped back with a mixture of clueless and upset expressions.

For which I seemed to be the cause of, I shook myself and brisked out. I didn't like feeling this way as if I did something wrong??

Okay, I did something wrong, I absolutely did.

I shouldn't have pounced on him like that way I scolded myself cursed but where was this logical side at that time?

Where was it? When the moment his lips touched mine.. I stumbled on my steps.
Slapping my hand to my forehead out of embarrassment and getting excited all over again imagining the kiss. I shivered. I shook my head.

I was scrambling ahead with all might to get away as much as possible but the further I went the worse I felt. I should have told him. I liked kissing him and it was nothing else other than that. I should have given a proper explanation but I didn't fucking know it myself!

His upset face flashed in front of my eyes.

It stung badly.

Things have been so rough in my life, all those people I thought would be there for me left me alone. And here Laksh was one of the few who stepped forward to help me, we didn't have some good friendship or anything but still something that I initiated outta impulse I won't let him alone to figure it out. And destroy whatever we had.

And he was my tutor

We can't afford to have complications between us

I turned back retreating my way back to his house much for my sake because I know without solving this issue I won't get any sleep tonight.

I pressed on the doorbell. I waited, no one answered I pressed again and again

The odd brother yanked it open with an annoyed expression he noticed me then narrowed his eyes at me, "what did you do?" He asked angrily.

"I pressed the bell" I pointed my finger at the bell innocently.

"You know what I am talking about!" He glared at me with accusations. Then ran his hand through his hair like his brother, when they were frustrated.

"Anyway, it's not the best time to meet him knowing that you are responsible for his state right now -

I pushed past him getting inside.

"This is illegal this is trespassing! I am calling the police" the odd brother yapped from behind.

I was gone for what I glanced at my wristwatch 30 mins..? Oh yeah, I took the metro then traveled back having second thoughts. But still not so much time since I left his home.

I found a vase broken into several glass pieces, I stepped over it with my shoes. I stopped, wide eyes seeing the condition in the drawing-room where we were sat before. I didn't remember leaving in this form. It was a mess everything disarrayed like thrown angrily across the room to the walls.

Since I knew the way to his room, I hesitantly walked towards it.

I turned the handle getting in.

Well if down was a mess here was havoc.
Havoc of disruption of the entire room. Amidst it, he was stood gripping his head staring down at the fallen shelf.

His body tensed up as if sensing my presence. I hesitated having self doubt of entering or leave him as it's not the best time like the odd brother said, correctly for the first time.

I knew Laksh had a temper anger issues, he used to seldom get into some small fights and arguments but I didn't know it was this serious.

I provoked him to do so..??

He turned with his hand stuck in his hair and lips curled in distaste noticing me, "why are you here?"

I drew in a breath stalling why was I actually here?. All those thoughts on the way now were like a mashed-up ball in my head. And they vanished off leaving nothing behind.

"I want to umm.. study?" I asked slowly, nervous and concerned when my eyes landed on his other hand it was bleeding with busted knuckles.

It spiked anger that he fucking just hurt his hand for some probably stupid reason!

"Why is your hand bleeding!" I marched in forgetting all my inhibitions and hesitations.

My shoes crumbled on some pieces of idk what!!?

"Careful!" he alerted moving over to me raising his hand.

I glanced down at a glass piece stuck in the sole of my shoe I shook it frustratedly while standing on one foot which of course slipped back like a fucking champion, I lost my balance but was saved by an arm wrapped caught me around my waist holding me against his chest.

"I said you to be fucking careful!" Laksh glared at me furiously with specks of worry in his eyes. Oh wow, first time I saw him look so livid. Usually, he used to cover it with his layer of boredom or calmness.

I glared back at him lifting my shoe and was going to pull the glass piece out but he beat me and pulled it out while having me tightly pressed against him. I held his shoulder for support.

It wasn't helping

It fucking wasn't helping the newly discovered attraction

"It's because of you" I poked his stomach shaking my head, my foolish dizzy head.

"Me?" He frowned looking down at me his face not that far away from mine because if I just tilt my head up-

Ahhhhhhhh!!!!!

I huffed looking up at the ceiling... what's happening huh?

"Listen," I said still looking at the fan. My fingers dug in his shoulder I mustered up the courage to continue further, "I don't know what happened before...but I will tell you one thing just one thing that is... I liked it" I said staring at the fan sighing. Here I said it.

How come we always land ourselves in his room and in always so... undescribable position..?

Something was wrong in his whole house
Like,
Literally my skin tingled and warmed where his arm was around my waist. I feared my cardigan would light up in flames. That burning chemistry we had in this house.

He angled my face down by pulling my chin.

"What did you like?" He asked with those burning gold stars.

I looked up again eh... But he pulled my head down with the hand, to look at him when I was talking

I glared at him, "Don't do that ...I will look up and talk and you won't stop me!"

Both of his hands cupped my cheeks trapping them so that I can't turn my head.

I stared back at him shooting daggers while the inside was a different condition, similar to a burning forest. How I kept myself intact?

I deserved a gold medal for it!

"What did you like?" He said his finger stroked my cheek some molecules away from my lower lips.

I slit my eyeballs at it.

Then looked back at him. The way he stared at me was the main cause of my condition, as if I was the most puzzled yet fascinating thing. It was the same expression I saw which made me feel uncomfortable with warmth and something I can't get what it was.

"You want me to spell it out for you?" I said flippantly but overall my flustered and wavering voice spoiled my remark.

His lips tipped finding it entertaining. Which shouldn't be! we were standing between a wreck of his room yet there he was focused on me with that face. With those not so bad lips.

"I- I -I like the-e,-e" fuck! I was stumbling over my words like a pathetic crab.

He smirked arrogantly leaning more enjoying he had that effect on me. My eyes twitched with rage.

I straightened myself. Putting my hands on his that were still placed on my cheeks. Then held one brought it to my lips. I kissed on his palm.

"I like this," I said looking through my lashes at him.

His eyes widened, the grasp on my cheek tightened simultaneously.

He observed me with suspicion and with some excitement huh..?

Oh well..

I brought my finger to the back of his neck slid my fingernail on the flushed skin, smirking as I could feel a shiver down his spine.

"I like this" I whispered smiling.

He shifted back flustered, immediately cursed mumbling along the line," I got. it..."

•

I dabbed the Dettol on his knuckles with cotton. I wiggled back resting my back against the mirror behind me. I was sat on the sink while Laksh was standing in front of me with his hand in my hand while I was nursing it.

I was officially his nurse.

We debated about what are we gonna do from now on since I was hellbound attracted to him actually attracted to his body and same could be said for him. I mean I know I am sexy.

And he did'nt deny against it or said something on it. I frowned why was he so private and quiet about things. I wish I could hear his thoughts.

"This shouldn't affect my studies," he said boring holes on my head.

I pressed the cotton hardly. He didn't react as I expected but yanked my head by my pony.

"Hey!" I exclaimed glaring at him.

He wound his hand around my hair.

And it was so hot.

And also infuriating

Yes of course infuriating!

I kicked his shin for it. Well deserved.

He left my hair repeating, "this shouldn't affect my studies"

"This nerdy side of yours,brings down the bad boy persona"
I snorted looking back at his knuckles. I dipped the cotton in the antiseptic liquid.Which was half left now. The way I was going with the treatment I might burn his skin.

I grinned evilly at the prospect but little good saint fragments of myself dropped that idea rather I picked the white bandage strip. I wound around his fingers. I like his fingers they were long they fit perfectly if I intertwined them with mine. His hands were rough with paper cuts huh...but I like the touch against mine. Ishaan's were soft like babies skin. But Laksh were strong, strong enough to hold mine and-

"Avi..." He said sounding irritated now by my blatant ignoring him

I sighed looking up at him, "look.." I blew off," I will be honest with you I am not going to make this complicated. We are still who we were -

"That is?" He cut me off bossily.

I shot him a look.

"That is Rivals obviously. And as you can see.. " I drawled. "that we have something between us that I.."

I bit my lip, "I can't describe but don't you deny by saying that I am the only one feeling it. And I have heard that sometimes enemies get attracted towards each other " my face flushed with a lie," it is very common" I nodded, my face is giving fumes off, I waved my hand in front of it.

"It is?" He said cocking his head studying me intently.

Geez that full focus look really have me sweating

"Yeah, it is...let's just go with the flow" I fiddled with the collar of his shirt.

He appeared conflicted.

"See it's not new.. I have done this before" I urged him to convince.

His head snapped to me with narrowed eyes my hands halted playing with the collar.

"you have done this? before?" He asked sternly.

"Yeah. .." I shrugged my shoulders feeling uncomfortable under the weight of his scrutiny.
"I have no strings attachment kinda relationships before" I dragged my eyes down at the marble sink

It was before when I was friends with Tanya she told me it's very common a mutual understanding relationship and a mature way of dealing with things by not merging attraction and feelings. It's not necessary that if we are attracted to someone it had to be something because of underlying feelings for them.. nope it could be because of human nature, a proper working of certain functions in your body and blah blah psychological talk.

They were pretty cool and were used to these terms. I felt like an outsider so I was like okay fine I can do so, too. But I didn't like it, I dropped that idea at the very first attempt. Maybe I was old school, I still felt like it was something wrong and going against my parent's teachings.

Oh wait a minute,
I am really prudent like said by Ishaan

But with Laksh this feels right maybe we can have something without involving feelings.

My much rational side screamed I was doing wrong, I was just running away from reality by finding the very first escape but I shut it telling, being cautious didn't help me much either.

Have it?!

A failed loveless relationship? A toxic Friendship?

Yep great going rationality

Besides, If I want to get back on my studies I need to sort this.

Laksh had moved away his eyes turned dark hearing a new piece of information from me.

I rolled my eyes with a little delight at his reaction, as if he was acting jealous. "See this jealousy is unnecessary-

His jaw clenched at my taunting tone, "I am not jealous just surprised to hear about your desperate side"

I stared at him this was the second time he was calling me desperate and it hurt more than the first time.

I bit my lip hardly numbing the strange pain from inside. I jumped off from the sink on my feet.

"You did exactly what I thought, you threw the blame on me even though you had kissed me back!" I yelled, brushing past him out of the bathroom.

He pulled me back by my arm I tried to hit him. With the other hand he grasped my fist encaging it in his hand and brought it down against the door.

I didn't look at him, face the adjacent wall. He had me pinned against the closed door. My escaped way.

Ugh

"You drive me crazy," he said with a frustrated growl. "First you go taking care of me when I was sick then you suddenly kiss me and now you say this means nothing at all and it has always been like this for you. What do you want? What are you trying to say?"

"Are you dumb! Why can't you understand what I am trying to say!" Ugh, I will grate him alive!! I swear he's frustrating me to all extend!

"I don't know! I don't understand what goes on in your mind" his face contorted reaching the last straw of anger.

"Same pinch dude same pinch, you're making it complicated!" I said gritting my teeth.

"Oh believe me it has become very complicating"

I pushed him away but he didn't budge, "Laksh just get outta my way we will talk about it later on, rnI am just one step away from killing you!"

I wiggled to get out from his hold.

"Stop fidgeting" he warned me, my hands still prisoned behind my back.

I glared at him, "I will fidget! I will fidget like a fucking fidget spinner you won't tell me what to do or not" I shook my body against his.

He dropped his hands groaning stepped back
"Ugh... you go just go you're causing a headache since I met you it always has been a headache. Things with you can never go with a normal and simple pace"

What the hell is he talking about??

I don't care!

I turned, leaving kicking his door then walked choosing better to lock him in there in his own bathroom.

I passed down the hallway on the way to get out. The odd brother's neck whipped in my direction from his room. He picked his headphones up and said, "yo all's good?"

"Shut the fuck up!" I shouted.

"This kinda language won't be allowed in my house if you want any further visits you have to-

I kicked his door shut.

Both are so annoying

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