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Should I call him?
What the hell? why will I call him? He should call me and of course cry thanking me.

I will not call him. Whatever happens. I WILL NOT CALL HIM. It should be him it had to be him calling me.
I took care of him going against my morals, took off his shirt ...remembering it my face turned fifty shades of red. Wtf had happened to me?? Like why!!?

why did I do that??

My mind was really fucked up I had to for real sit down and analyze my strange behavior in these past few days. The conclusion had to be more than me being admitted to a mental asylum.

I turned into a boxing pose hitting air imagining it to be Laksh. I hit it while bouncing on the balls of my feet. I and my dad used to do boxing when I was a kid.

He used to train me some self-defense techniques and through it my fascination for hitting and punching things increased. And not to forget, it really helped in calming my nerves down.

God... when would I not get all teary eyes remembering them.

Today, we had a holiday because of some Jayanti that I don't know nor have any desire to go into details.

I was glad school was closed today.

But I wasn't glad that I was left at home racking my brain to do what? Ryan went to his home he got a call from his dad. I wanted to tag along with him but he strictly declined saying, he would hang himself if something happened to me. He didn't let me ask further what he meant by that absurd parting words, just left me behind to solve the riddle. And yeah he also seriously prohibited me from entering my Aunt's room?? if any breaking sound was heard coming from it.

Which made me more confused and curious now.

Tanya called inviting me to a party, actually, her word were like this there's a party and here it's the address. Was it an invitation?
Yes, it had always been like this for me.

Go following around where she goes.

I love parties. I love to lose myself with drinks and loud music. But the next day is the opposite with hangovers and I trying to remember if I didn't do anything stupid while I was drunk. Or some girls didn't take advantage of Ishaan when he was intoxicated or just to nice to say no to them, to make it clear to those leeches that he had a girlfriend and he was a loyal dude and no matter how pretty if a supposed girl was, she was nothing when it comes to his girlfriend.

Ahhhh how I wished he was like that. He was too nice and entitled to step away from his admirers. So it was me who had to make sure and protect our relationship by shoving them and keep them in line.

Oh wow.

My eyes widened and my chest hurt with painful realization, as I saw my old life in a new light.

Tanya never cared about me she just liked having someone fawning over her and doing her dirty deeds.

While Ishaan he was a narcissistic brat he only wanted to use me that's why he got into a relationship with me. I wanted to laugh at the way too logical plan, at his so off charts creativity, but only if I wasn't the part of it.

He could have been little upfront and simply came to me to dish the dirt on Laksh, I would have helped him gladly. I hated Laksh's guts before, and it would have been a piece of cake for me.

Wait a second

I hated Laksh's guts 'before'..????

Before!!!

Say what

Before, what now huh?

Carrying on

Ishaan and I might have some good moments by chance which could be just because of me. Yes, I like a fool put all my efforts, myself, and gave everything so that the relationships in my life worked out. Under the delusion everything was fine everything was going okay when in reality I was losing myself little by little, hoping and building something that's base was only weak.
It was like the staircase of sand.
It would crumbled down eventually. Regardless of how much I tried to hold them in place.

The end was only the dismantling of it. The falling down of everything I built.

And

Maybe it was because of me, something was wrong with me that my destiny and fate shit was screwed up real badly and all the blame was on me now.

I laughed humorlessly, if I wasn't that egoistic I would have self blamed and cried in a corner like a victim.

I will just be careful from now onwards and you know laid back for a while before rushing with things and running into dead ends.

Trust is out of the question in my life now. No more of trusting blindly anyone.

Damn ...Life is so exhausting

I stretched my arm out with the mobile. Debating with myself how to respond to

Tanya's text

A party would be what I needed right now to kill the boredom,

instead, I texted Laksh.

Hey

I deleted immediately why the hell I am being so forward. So what? if he didn't want to call me and say Thank you. Which he should definitely. Like by every possible right in the world!

So what if his odd brother told him about the Shirt incident??. ...But I don't think so he was a gossiping type of boy. I frowned but he was so odd therefore I can't trust him with anything.

Maybe Laksh was just being too shy to call me. He might be blushing and doing all shy people kinda things rather than being upfront and coming up to talk to me.

I will just ask how was he?

I was his nurse, for a moment or something

So I deserve to know

How are you?

Oh, my fucking cat!

I pushed it away that bloody cat decided to torture me now. Usually, it was Ryan and him playing around and keeping their cat and human moments to themselves without getting me involved in it, it was fine with me. It was absolutely fine! It was one of the top ten finest things in the world!

But that looney cat loves troubling me, scratching me making my life hell. Because he wanted to be a part of some misery and mishappenings of my life.

He snarled at me. That's the only thing he knows!

I glared at him deadly," stay away from me Miru if you want to live the rest of your cat life"

I swear he scowled when I called him Miru. Yeah as if I would call him by his name. You gotta mean something to me for that!

I rolled my eyes

I turned having my mobile in the hand, walked away from him.

Looking back at my mobile at what I wrote.

How are you?

seriously?? I frowned at myself this is so not fucking like me.

Finally dead?

I typed, nodding in approval but it stopped when my folly slapped right on my cheek.

I screamed

AHHHHHHHH!!!!

I texted him first!!!

Why did I text him first?

This is our very first text conversation! I shouldn't have initiated it first!!! It should be him first and it's never otherwise!

I swirled and raised my arm covering my face by reflex action when that Miru jumped at me. I swatted it but it tried again and I again swatted it but that son of a cat tried again! I freaking swatted him again!!

"You know what?" I said looking at him breathing hard with all this swatting without the bat shit.

"Let's settle this out" I tossed my mobile over the bean bag. And positioned myself with my hands on my hip"show me what you got Miru the cat" I called him by my index finger.

He drew his paw back dramatically thinking himself like some Lion or bull. Ha! show off!
then he ran with the full speed I withdraw my body to the right at once, smirking I hoped to see that cat banged his brain out to the wall. But when I turned he came at me again. I moved my arm on time, otherwise my face would have scratched off like a tire mark.

"You're not a bad player" I was impressed and disturbed by what was going on.

He tried again lurching at me I raised my fist let's see if he can handle my punches.

He pounced at me I punched with all might he dropped down ...may be injured.

Shit, I didn't mean to...

"I got carried away" I dropped on my knees the ball of white fur now laid lifeless.

Such a wonderful sight

Shut up he might be dead! I scolded myself

I got seriously worried about it. When he didn't respond for like 30 seconds straight
I poked him and

AHHHHHHH!!

He jumped on my head. His legs winded around my forehead I struggled to remove it but he didn't budge.

What the fuck??? Was he going to piss on my head?

"That's a very dirty move" I hissed pushing, him away but he shifted settling back on my head. I glared up at him.

He meowed loudly in triumph.

Bloody arrogant cat.

My phone ringed I reached for it at the same time trying to free the cat's hold on my head by pulling his legs away. He was heavier than he looked. I mean I knew he was a fat cat but his weight told he was fucking sumo wrestler.

Laksh's calling me!

And not only that

Video call?

Oh wow my destiny was really screwed up

Like hell! I would do a video call with a cat on my head.

"Get down! I got it you won! Just get down and celebrate it! " I yelled pulling his fur. I lowered my head freaking gonna drop this psycho cat, I swear I saw my phone with some voice coming from it.

Shit, my finger had pressed accepting the call by mistake.

And it was Laksh's bro

He froze and the same expression he had when he walked into an awkward situation yesterday, at least yesterday could be implied to something but this... Was beyond scope

He always chose the bloody great moments to show up

I tilted my head, "I can explain" I hit my head to the wall purposely and the psycho fucking smart cat left my hair before striking and taking its hit. I crashed my head to the wall.

Ouch ouch

I shut my eyes hissing.

"Sorry I didn't know you were this busy," he said ending the call.

••

After I inspected my head, looked it properly if I got hurt over my injuries which was still recovering. When everything was okay. I kicked Miru out of my room and called Laksh and why the hell his brother was answering and calling me!?

"We should stop meeting like this-

"No just don't, you didn't see anything" I warned him. The odd bro.

Laksh's bro was a bad omen for my life he disrupts the good and normal moments of my life into fucking embarrassing and nonsensical situations that I would never even dream of.

"Ok ...I called because you weren't answering so I video called then I found the most unexplainable thing in my life like it was the second time" he started laughing

I hung up.

What to do? I cursed loudly, "bhsdfhkchkjn jfhkmmmcnucfj"

He called again.

"So first I was like whether I was imagining it-

I hung up.

I will kill him! That's it he's dead!!

He called again

"if you utter anything stupid you're dead you're fucking dead-
He started laughing slowly I joined in because it was damn funny.

"So I gave Laksh some medicine yesterday," he told between his laughs." and he didn't wake up since then"

I stopped laughing.

This wasn't funny

••

"What the fuck did you give him??"I asked the second he opened the door.

"I don't know it was there something in your box it looked like medicine and was blue in color-

"Speak like a literate please" I snapped. He didn't just give whatever medicine look alike he picked from the box

"Where's he by the wa- " My eyes bulged out seeing Laskh coming out from the bathroom I guess .
He was shirtless with only in a towel wrapped around his waist. I whirled, with my hand covering my eyes.

"Don't act like you are seeing him for the first time like this" The odd brother smirked

I glared at him dropping my hand, "you lied to me?"

"Nope I didn't, he wasn't waking up but then I call you he must have"

"What's that supposed to mean?" I gritted my teeth he was really peculiar.

I turned back Laksh must have left to dress up.

I facepalmed oh God what was that.

"Please have a seat consider it as your own home" the odd bro who I didn't want to meet again and then now I had met again!! said with a too-broad smile. I want to smack it off from his face...

What the hell was happening??

My life is like this literally at every point,
What the hell is happening!!

I tentatively sat on the sofa looking around the house which I didn't pay much attention to during my first visit. Not to appear as a creeper staring and describing the house so I left that part. ( Sorry, house description loving ppl😬)

But honestly, it was a nice house, kitschy and too sophisticated for my taste. I love my house cute and homely type.

"You want tea, water, anything you want? you know where's the Kitchen you know where are the appliances.. make something for us too" he said looking like he was leaving.

"Hey, where you going!" I said, alarmed seriously by his behavior.

He smiled, "I don't want to disturb you guys and I am too old for this stuff so yeah you kids enjoy" he left without looking back.

What the hell!??

"By the way" he came back scaring the life out of me.

I should leave maybe it's not safe to be around him.

"Speed up a little I made a bet I have to win!" He winked at someone coming from the front and that was Laksh.

He had clothes on himself, that was better.

I pinched my cheeks to calm down and not to do anything stupid and weird. There was fuzziness in my head and weird tingling felt in my body that was making me self- conscious.

"What bet?" I asked the odd bro too late he was already gone leaving just the two of us.

Laksh was wearing a black hoodie and his hands were in its pockets, he slowly walked over and sat opposite to me all the while looking down.

Why was there so awkwardness in the air?

I don't like awkward situations!!

I mentally facepalm did he remember about that when I had stupidly ... kissed his forehead..you know it was a mistake. A blunder! One should forget it forget it ..never remember! I internally screamed.

"Thanks.." he mumbled, if the room wasn't so quiet I won't have even heard what he said. It was so softly

"Oh yeah ...well" I played with my hair pulling my pony back and just you know twirling it around my finger awkwardly.

So awkward so awkward. Why the hell? My breathing was escalating.

I laughed and it was an awkward laugh even to my own ears it sounded like the screeching of the tires on asphalt.

Laksh looked at me don't know if his cheeks were red due to fever oh yeah -

"Oh so how's your fever?" I asked too loudly.
He stared at me like I asked the most difficult question of the universe. The expression was so like drastically shocked and something more I couldn't put my finger to, but it made me to think over what did I speak.

"Oh yeah it's all.. good" he answered shifting back, some seconds later.

"Oh good!" I nodded too excitedly and even was going to clap then glared at my hands. One more dumb shit you guys do and I am getting new hands. I am so fed up with your silliness! There's a limit to you're foolishness and you guys are crossing all lines and going having your own minds...
I stopped myself before I drag myself to the psychiatrist for talking to my hands.

"So we should study? " I asked.

He frowned

I went on quickly, "if you want to I mean if you're ready to, you are okay?"

"I am okay you y-o-uu "he stuttered.

And that was so cute. I grinned he shot me a weird look noticing it.

I cleared my throat looking away.

He looked away too sighing. "This is so awkward"

"Honestly" I agreed ,still looking at the other side. What was that a garden? oh, nope it was a painting of a garden.

"You acting different," he said, sounding a little sad.

"You too," I said.

"What did you do yesterday?" He asked.

The garden is so green yeah it's green are all Gardens green?

"Avi?" He called out.

Why aren't there any white gardens?

"Avi!"

"Yeah did you say something?" I turned back, acting I didn't hear him.

He observed me trying to figure it out. I struggled to hold a straight face during his speculation.

"Something happened when?-

"No!" I cut him off immediately.

"Okay," he nodded as if making his mind. He looked pretty determined and confident now. He got up. My eyes, my body was reacting to his every movement.

I stared at him, he held my gaze as he sauntered towards me.

I could almost count my own heartbeats. They were so audible , beating against my chest

1..

He stopped right in front of me.

Since I was sat I had to have my head inclined up.

2...

I was afraid to even blink and spoil whatever was holding and had captivated us at that moment.

He bent his head and put the hands on the sides, the arms of the sofa as a result caging my body.

3..

My throat ran dry I had a sudden urge to drink water, tons of water or maybe I need a breather. Just there was something that held me frozen in that state, glued to that goddamn sofa making me anticipate his every move with a strange thrill. Slowly he inched his face towards mine. I almost stop breathing and that scared every little particle of me. I got up so suddenly even I hadn't decided properly so kinda was out of mind movement. As a result, I bumped his head with mine and also our lips.

I blinked frantically, pulling myself away, dropping back on the sofa.

Laksh slso appeared surprised, "Woah..this wasn't what I had planned," he said nervously.

God, I was blushing like a convent nun as if I hadn't been kissed before. But damn I had never felt it so deep like just mere brushed of our lips and yeah I literally exploded.

Damn ..damn.

We had good chemistry. A fucking explosive chemistry.

The one which could turn the world upside down.

And kill me if I lie, saying I wasn't excited to explore it more.

"Look I am sorry.." Laksh was still babbling abashed about the turn of the event and how he didn't mean it to happen and it was completely accidental.

Which I didn't care.

I fucking didn't care

I just watched his lips move in a daze. His hand his fingers running through his hair in frustration. My hands itched to touch them. His eyes landed on me when I remained mute, he stopped in midway having noticed something in my expression I swear I heard his breath hitched.

"You listening, over there-ee?" He drawled, blinking as if shaking himself out of the haze, my eyes glued on his rising and falling chest.

I shook my head dragging them meeting to his.

"Come here" I beckoned him in a light whisper.

"You are gonna hit me?" He asked studying my intentions intently.

I shook my head too spellbound to even speak more than a labored whisper.

He slowly brought his head down looking a little hesitant but his dark eyes knew very well what was going on in my mind.

My hands reached and pulled his face down by the nape of his neck. "Fucking come here already" I tilted my head crashing my lips to his.