|I am not open to many people. I'm usually quiet and I don't really like attention. So if I like you enough to show you the real me, you must be very special.|

Shaking the haze off my mind, I was torn between to pull my hand out of his or just hold it for my life. My curiosity and something that I couldn't again put my finger on, took better of me and I find myself following him with no complaints. Every fibre of my being was in confusion shouting at me what's wrong with you Avi?? Or praising me you're doing exactly the right thing Keep it up!
Both sides sounded pretty ridiculous to me, anyhow.

I looked up observing or in my case staring him. What's up with him? Who was he? If I count on my fingers it had been more than a week, roughly two weeks or something, since the incident where I hit him with a tap accidentally. Not the best way to introduce yourself....but not even the best revenge if Lux had any in his mind for it, by tutoring me. I didn't know him until then.
I mean I knew him before but it was just like from distant. Like knowing, this person also goes to the same school. That way.

I knew him from distant

And yet it's still from distant I don't know anything about him. I didn't take any initiative to know about him. While he knew pretty much a lot about me. My failing grades, my friends, my workplace, my untrustworthy cat Shiru, my number now and moreover he got close to my real me the one I didn't also want to acknowledge and show it to anyone.

He saw my breakdown, know my house kinda, got a glimpse of something I hid behind uncaring cheerful girl mask. He noticed the crack. I touched my cheek remembering.

But never said a thing.

No one ever got to know me this soon at the same time this close when in fact we barely had any proper conversation.

I wasn't good at observing but my memory is pretty good now, concerning the present episodes of my life. That day the very first day I met him in the girls washroom. He had to be near me, behind me to be hit by a tap.

My eyes widened, I blinked when found Lux eyes on me. He knew so much about me and here I didn't even call him by his actual name. Rumors say he was named Lux because Lux soaps were found near the killed victims. Very illogical theory but can't say anything when this was only talked about, around the school.

"Um..Laksh" I tested his name, it feels weird but it did feel in a good weird type... did that make any sense?

His name from my voice was so foreign and also disbelievingly familiar like I knew it before but couldn't pronounce it, couldn't say it out... which is completely senseless

He squeezed my hand and for very unexplainable reason, a strange sensation felt in my stomach.

Butterflies in my stomach!

Oh shoot and here I thought I would never feel those.

That intent look really made me hyper.

Okay shut it calm down!

"I was saying...you know.." I fumbled helplessly. This is embarrassing this is so embarrassing

I don't even know what I was going to say.

Shoot I think I am developing a crush on him and it's very unhealthy.

I wanted to cry

I wanted to dance around

I wanted to hide somewhere

This is so weird

This makes no sense

When I didn't say anything he tugged my hand, continuing the walk to I don't know where.

I tried again but suddenly the part where he held my hand was buzzing, it felt the most sensitive portion of my body. I was so nervous what if my hand started sweating ?

Eeww

But that's normal!

That's one of the most normal thing in the world. I shouldn't fret over it.
But should I pull it back and check but he didn't want to leave or I think so because if he... UGHH!!!? it's just a freaking hand! What the fudge is wrong with me??

I took a deep breath we were just walking; small steps and look at me I was breathing like running cow.
"Laksh why-

His neck flipped to me, he had his jaw clenched.

"Why this sudden change of the name?" He asked sharply.

The tone of the voice really hurt me didn't know why but it did drop my heart.

"I am sorry" I blurted looking away. It was his name nah? What should I call him? Sharukh Khan?

Oh here now I feel complete opposite to what I felt before.

This thing could feel so good at one time and so fucking hurting another.

What was it??

"I didn't say I don't like it either" He said softly, squeezing my hand again in a reassuring manner.

And well hello butterfly here we meet again

He was the most complicated person I ever met, oddly was also the simplest because he talked when there was really required and never indulged himself in useless chatter in which I'd done some masters. But when he listened to me it was like he was really listening, hung up on my every word hung up on what I do and when now I think I know I like his sole attention on me because nothing could explain as to why I didn't say anything this near to stalking and forced tutoring.

"Can I ask you something?" I asked looking around my surrounding. We walked down the market street, it was early morning shops opened with meagre people and everyone seemed to be doing their everyday works.

"When did you need a permission to ask?" Lux I mean Laksh I need to get the hang of it, asked back.

"Good point"I said. My hand still in his.

Forget about the hand

Avi JUST FORGET IT!!

"Why do you want to tutor me? Why are you umm..." How to put it without looking like I am flirting with him.

Wait a second

When did I become so concern over my playful attitude?? I was a natural flirt. I literally flirt with every cute boy, with side note being they have to be single and not to take me seriously. Then it's all good. Like with Ishaan, I know the feeling or the pretend feeling is one sided and not something more would ever come out if it, from both of us.

I continued when the pause prolonged
"Why are you so interested in me..umm.in my life? I know you find me entertaining.. when it's a bit more work than just watch Kapil Sharma Show for your entertainment? Right?" He stopped oh my question hit him. Yeah dude yeah I can surprise you.

Before he could say anything I went on cause why stop there,
"and I want a serious answer here no dodging like you always do"

"And yeah I remember you said you want something from me in return, you said it in my ear you know" unnecessary details

"You were standing close to me like behind me and then ."
very unnecessary details

"Anyway I won't take your vagueness again" I made my point clear actually, a bit too clear.

"I said because I want to tutor you" He said after some seconds I doubted he would even answer.

"Nope try again I am not convinced with that" I shook my head.
Why did you eat my pizza??? Because I want to... It was something like that. Quite straightforward and useless reply.

"I want to help you" he said this time, words weigh more sentiments than they should.

He was looking straight in my eyes the softness in his features stole my breath

"You remind me of someone" he continued. The way he said someone it sounded they were really close and significant like they meant a lot to him.

I drew my eyes away rendered speechless, I caught a glimpse of familiar figure near a shop. Ryan

Oh no!
Oh no!

I withdrew my hand immediately from Laksh. Then I heard familiar voice from front.

"So she said she'll talk to me?" Ishaan!!

I looked back he was coming to this way.

They both haven't noticed me yet but they were turning their heads to where I stood.

Shoot!!!

My life revolves around boys like literally

Where to go now!! Where to hide myself!!! Laksh happened to understand my situation and the moment Ishaan and Ryan's head turned, Laksh pulled my head down burying in his shoulder. A squeal which got muffled in it escaped my mouth.

I snapped my eyes shut, clutched the front of his shirt breathing in his scent.

And

Shockingly

I didn't care if Ishaan or Ryan either of them spotted me

I didn't care we might have got more attention like this

I just thought about Laksh's cologne light but prominent, just like him. Attractive

My head buried in his shoulder

His arm holding it in place

And how I liked every bit of it..

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Can I ??? Anyway a girl can only hope...