except i let them down
every time i say i will
i don't

they call me out
tell me i'm a liar
they're not wrong

maybe i should straighten up
get my act together
maybe then i'd be able to really do something

but then i get distracted
tomorrow's another day until there isn't
today, though, today has the hook-up

psychedelics, drinks and drugs
consumed in them, idolizing
they're so powerful

they took over so easily
and they tell me, they always do
"you need to stop"

but no, no, i can't not now
there's no way i can do it
i went to the hospital because of it

if i stop, i'll go back again
don't you understand?
you have to, you have to