Morning 8:00 am.

Me and Manahil were in room,waiting for Bhaiya to bring our breakfast.Manahil was busy playing with her doll while I was sitting near the window couch,pondering over my life.

Kia zindagi hai meri!Jise chahti hn use chah kar bhi nhi chah sakti!

"Good morning!" Bhaiya's chirpy tone slammed me out of my chain of thoughts.

I stood up from couch while smiling at him, "Good morning Bhaiya!"

"Good molning Mamu!" Manahil too looked up at him,giving him her hundred dollar smile.

"Good molning!"Bhaiya replied cheekily while keeping the tray on bed and Manahil's smile vanished listening her accent being enjoyed by Bhaiya.

She scowled at him and Bhaiya laughed sitting infront of her on bed,pulling her red nose.

"Don't.louch.me!"Manahil slapped his hand while gritting angrily and Bhaiya laughed more.

"Bad manners Manahil!"I showed her my eyes and she immediately made a puppy face while pointing her finger towards Bhaiya.

"Mamu always,always makes fun of me Mama!Hal baal mela mazak ulate hain!"She complained to me while scowling again at laughing Bhaiya and I picked her up in my arms before sitting on bed with her in my laps.

"Kyon Bhaiya?Why do you always make fun of Manahil?"I faked anger while putting a piece of pancake in her mouth and she had it quietly as her whole concentration was on Bhaiya.

"Tou iss mein meri kia galti!She is funny!" Bhaiya again pinched Manahil's nose and Manahil jerked his hand again,now getting extreme angry.

She opened her mouth to say something when I kept another morsel in her mouth making her turn her angry eyes at me.

I smiled sheepishly at her and she jumped off my laps. "Main baba jaani k paas ja lahi hn!" She spoke angrily and stomped out off room before I could even catch her.

"I'll get her back!"I was about to stand up from bed when Bhaiya held my palm. "Let her go!He is her father!"

He looked at me and I averted my eyes.

"Nhi na?Manahil ko Manik k paas bhejne ka dil nhi hota na tera?K kahin Manahil Manik se ziada pyaar na kar le?Aur tughe bhool jaye?" He smiled but I could feel sarcasm in it.

"Manahil loves her father more!"I told him plainly and he closed his eyes before sinking a shallow breath.

"Of course she will!He is her father hagemaru!And after three years she has met him why won't she love him!"Bhaiya stopped as he noticed my face falling.

"But that doesn't mean she doesn't love you!"He pressed my palm asking me to look at him.I did and he frowned seeing tears in my eyes.

"What happened?" He gasped seeing me breaking down in tears.

Pushing the tray which was between us aside,he scooted closer to me and wrapped his arm around my shoulders,taking me into his chest.

"Kia hua hagemaru?" Bhaiya caressed my cheek,lovingly and I cried more while fisting his shirt in my palm.

"Ye nhi samagh rahe Bhaiya!Nhi samagh rahe ye!I knew it once we would meet he won't listen to me!"I sobbed harder and Bhaiya wiped my tears accordingly.

"He is trying to get back to you!Right?"Bhaiya cupped my cheek and I looked up at him amidst this side hug.

I nodded at him while crying and he smiled, "Then what's wrong in it?Kia tu pyaar nhi karti us-se?"

"Pyaar karti hn Bhaiya lekin ab iqraar karne main sharam ati hai mughe!"A loud sob escape my mouth and I hid my face again in his chest,loathing my past,loathing myself.

"Acha!Chor ye sab!Mere haathon se khayegi?"He broke the hug and pulled the tray in between us.

I sniffled and nodded while wiping my rosy nose and cheeks.

He smiled and made me eat a bite of pan cake along with the sip of orange juice.

"Mama!" Manahil came running into the room and I remembered suddenly that she hasn't eaten breakfast.

"Minno!Breakfast kar lo!Aao mama ki goudi main!"I raised my arms towards her but she stepped back.

"Baba jani nhi hain!" A tear trickled down her cheek and Bhaiya immediately picked her up in his arms.

"Arey aapke baba jani shayad morning walk par gaye honge!Bas aate hi honge!"Bhaiya wiped her tear and she smiled in relief, "Main dal gayi thi!"She confessed dramatically while palming her little heart and my lips parted into a soft smile.

"Come on Minno now have your breakfast!"I took Manahil from bhaiya's arms and canoodled her in my laps.

We were eating breakfast when some sounds came from downstairs.

"Melay baba jani aa gaye!"Manahil clapped listening her father's voice from downstairs.The lovely grin which was on her lips,clearly exhibited how much she was loving her father and somewhere this wasn't going good with me.

"Minno bas last bite!Then you can go!"I tried to hold her but she was so happy that she was bouncing in my arms.

"Mughe nhi thana!"She shook her head and removed my arm from her tummy.

"Chalein champion!"Bhaiya picked her up in his arms,kissing her puffy cheeks and they left the room.

I completed my breakfast shooing away the thoughts that she loves her father more.

An unfamiliar giggle reached my ears and I frowned listening to it.Standing up from bed with tray in my hands I came out of my room and went towards stairs,where my feet stopped.

"Manik!Always used to buy me lunch from his pocket money!After all I was his crush!"The unknown girl sitting beside my hubby piped and everyone including Manahil sat glum just my hubby looked so happy.

His eyes caught my sight and I rolled my eyes,descending stairs.Though my heart was burning seeing him sitting so close to her but I,myself had allowed him to have anyone in his life.

"Manik!Im feeling so tired! Mughe aaraam nhi karwaoge tum!"That girl wrapped her arm around my hubby's arm laying her head on his shoulder and winked at him.I stopped on my way to the kitchen.

Manahil who was in her father's laps too frowned.She looked at me and then at that girl.

"Excuse me!Baba jani silf mele aul mama k hain!Dont louch him!"Manahil removed her palm from her father's arm and that girl sat straight,completely embarrassed.

"Flat be-izzati!"
Cabir bhai laughed softly along with others and I too bit my lip,seeing her getting be-izzat.

"Manahil!"I called her and she looked at me.Believe me her angry eyes were so similar to her father.She was really a carbon copy of his habits.

"Come here!"I called her again while glancing at her father who was sitting there with straight,iron face.She climbed down from her father's laps.She looked at her father with angry eyes too,noticing him silent.

She came towards me and I held her palm,again making my way towards kitchen.

"Jenny! I'll show you your room!" I heard my hubby's voice and immediately I kept that tray in kitchen before coming out with Manahil in my arms.She was so gloomy,her father wasn't giving attention to her and this was disheartening a little heart.Sucking her thumb she buried her face in my neck and I caressed her hair.

"But there are no vacant rooms!"Bhaiya spoke firmly,glowering at my hubby who was busy picking her two carryalls.

"She will stay with me,in my room!" My hubby replied back in the same tone and I swallowed.This was itching me.

He looked towards me feeling my eyes over him and I instantly averted my gaze.With Manahil in my arms I climbed stairs before he could do that and went in my room,to hide that soft single tear which was crawling in my eye.

"Minno!Aap colouring karo!Mama ati hain abhi!"I made her sit on bed and fished out her dora colouring book along with her mini colour pencils from the side drawer.

She got busy with her book and I went into washroom,to hide my tears.

Aiyappa!

Holding the washbasin in my palms I cried.

Kia ho raha hai Aiyappa!Kia ho raha hai meri zindagi main!

I raised my head up to stare at myself in the mirror.

Apne Kyon mughe itna bad-soorat bna diya k mere mian ji kisi aur ki talaash main Lag gaye! Aaj wo ek larki ko le aye ghar par!

I palmed my mouth because my blubs were getting loud.

Mughse nhi bardaasht hota Aiyappa!Main kese dekhun inhe kisi aur k sath!Main nhi dekh sakti Aiyappa!Main nhi dekh sakti!

"Mama!" I heard a harsh tap on door.

Wiping my tears hastily I splashed some water on my face.

"Ji minno!"I opened the door to her only to find her standing there with tight crossed legs.

"Kia hua?"I frowned seeing her position and she hissed with squeezed eyes, "Wasloom jaana hai!Mama please!Nital jayegi!"She palmed her already squeezed part and my eyes widened in horror  before I picked her up and pulled down her white shorts,hastily.

"Lets hand-wash!"After she got free from nature's call I picked her up in my arms again and we washed our hands.

As we came out of washroom I found Bhaiya strolling in my room briskly.

"Bhaiya!"I called him softly and he stopped strolling,he looked towards me.His eyes were so sharp.I know why he was here.

"Minno!Aap colouring karo main aapke liye milkshake le kar ati hn!" I made Manahil sit on bed between her sprawled colours and she nodded, "Ok!Mama!"

I moved towards Bhaiya and held his palm walking out of the room.

"May I know what's happening Nandani?"He growled lowly while we were descending down stairs.

"I've given him permission!"I told him nonchalantly yet with a rigid face on the way to kitchen.

"What?Kia permission?Pagal hogayi hai tu?"He clutched my elbow and turned me towards him while I was busy pouring milk into juicer from vessel.

Closing my eyes I sighed and then spoke, "It's fine Bhaiya if he wants to start a new life then I'm no one to stop him!"

"You are his wife damn it!And he can't bring any other girl like that!"Bhaiya trumpeted and a humourless smile broke on my lips.

"But I'm not fulfilling my rights as his wife!Ye bhi tou insaan hain Bhaiya,kab tak bardaasht karenge mughe!Inhe bhi haq hai sukoon se zindagi guzarne ka!" Keeping a heavy rock on my heart I spoke and Bhaiya looked at me with vivid eyes.

"Kia hogaya hai tum donu ko yaar!Why don't you guys just sit and talk!" His anger raised and I gave him a tired look before turning and started making my daughter's milkshake again.

"Fine!Jo karna hai kar lo tum donu!The thing is I'm getting divorce papers ready for you guys!Baar baar khtm karne se behtar hai ek baar sahi se khtm kar do sab!"He spoke angrily and marched out of kitchen.

My grip on the juicer tightened hearing the word divorce.Only the thought of being Miss Murthy from Mrs.Malhotra made my eyes teary and heart collapse.

"Hello!" Upon hearing a cocky tone I turned my teary eyes towards the source.That ugly smile on his face pricked more tears in my eyes and I turned my face on other side,wiping away my tears.

"So?Happy?"I felt his breaths on my neck but nevertheless I poured fresh strawberries into the juicer along with sweetener.

"Yhi chahiye tha na tumhe k main tumhara peecha chor dn!"He nuzzled his nose on my cheek from behind and I closed my eyes,allowing tears to slip on their own accord. 

"Ab tou tum azaad ho!Bohot khush hogi nai?" His breaths turned rough and suddenly he bit my ear lobe making me cry loud out of pain.

Turning back I jerked him and slapped him roughly, "Kuch sharam baqi hai aap main?" I shouted with my tears and his jaws tightened.

"Jise le kar ayein hain uske paas jaiye!Mera aur meri beti ka koi rishta nhi hai aapse!"I barked at him and turned to pour out milkshake from juicer into glass when suddenly he clutched my elbow and pushed me on the fridge beside.

Before I could contemplate he clutched my palms and pinned them beside my head, "Nhi aati mughe sharam tum se mohabbat karne main!Samjhi tum!"He rasped on my face and pressed his lips on mine.I closed my eyes,crying while he continued to kiss my lips shamelessly.I tried struggling but he dug his nails in my knuckles stopping my all struggle.

Being breathless he broke the kiss.I opened my misty eyes feeling his hasty breaths fanning my face.He was breathing like a bull,his eyes were a light shade of crimson.

He stared at me hopelessly till a tear fell from his eye and I turned my face on other side,unable to see those painful,teary eyes of his.

"Tum dard de kar roti hn,main dard le kar rota hn,
Tum dil tor kar roti hn,Main dil de kar rota hn,
Mohabbat tum bhi karti ho,mohabbat main bhi karta hn,
Khalal sirf itna hai darmiyaan tum hijab main karti ho,main sar-e-aam karta hn!"His feeble yet torrid words made me look at him.We stared at each other before he left my palms and shook his head,allowing tears to sprinkle from his eyes.

"I'm tired now!"He whispered raising his teary eyes at me and left the kitchen leaving me more broken.

........

Evening 5:00 pm.

"And the custody of daughter should be given to mother!"I declined the call after telling lawyer the requirements and asking him to get the divorce papers ready as soon as possible. 

"Harsh!I'm still saying rethink!Why are you spoiling their lives!"Sunaina who was sitting on bed,listening my conversation with lawyer spoke.

"No!There is nothing to rethink!Manik samaghta kia hai khud ko!Subah se uss larki k sath gayab hai!Apni beti aur biwi ki koi fikar bhi hai use!Bas!This is limit!Meri behen aur nhi royegi uske liye!"I bellowed,my words firm and determined.

"Tou kyon ro rahi hai Nandani!Jab Manik itna bura hai tou phir kyon roti hai Nandani uske liye!"Sunaina came infront of me and argued. 

I glared at her and she sighed before coming closer to me.

"Nandani loves him Harsh!We can't do injustice with their love!Manik ki mohabbat kitni sachi hai ye tum bhi jante ho,Agar kisi aur k sath hi rehna hota tou chaar saal tak intezaar nhi karta wo Nandani ka!"She caressed my cheek softly,trying to calm me down.

"But..."I was about to say something when she kept her finger on my lips.

"No buts!Its just that they need some aloof time!We've to bring them together Harsh not to make them fall apart!"She completed her words and my eyes went down towards her finger which was resting on my lips.Glancing at me nervously she took her finger back when I held her waist and pulled her closer to me.

"Seems like someone is adamant on winning my heart!"I caressed her cheek with my knuckles and she blushed,lowering her eyes. 

"So...?"She looked up with her shy eyes and I pulled her more closer, "You don't have to win it because you are my heart!"

A wide smile spread on her lips and I bent my face down to kiss her pink cotton-like cheeks.

.......

Me and Manahil were laying on bed,actually she was feeling sleepy while I was all gloomy,as my hubby wasn't at home still.He was out with that girl,his so called first crush.Just the thought of him being out made me cry every time.My eyes were teary again.

"Manahil!"Suddenly Sunaina came squealing into my room along with Cabir bhai,Rahul and Shahid.

Manahil sat on bed with jerk and I wiped my eyes hastily before switching on the side lamp.

"What happened?"I looked at them completely confound while they all grinned at me.

"Actually we were going out to an amusement park!..."Before Sunaina could say something more Manahil stood up on bed.

"Amusement palk?Matlab iscleem,popcoln,loole(jhoole,rides)!" She jumped in excitement and everyone there smiled.

Cabir bhai raised his arms at her, "So you wanna come?"

"Ofcoulse!"She squealed while hopping on bed and Cabir bhai picked her in his arms.

"Main bhi..."Before I could put forth my wish to come Rahul spoke,
"Sorry Bhabhi!We've booked just five tickets!"

My face fell down instantly and they all glanced at each other.

"Phil main bhi nhi ja lahi!"Manahil pouted sadly and tried removing Cabir Bhaiya arms which were wrapped around her little frame.

"Arey no minno!Aap jao,mama ko tou wese bhi bohot neeni aa rahi hai!Tou mama will rest!Aap jao meri jaan!"I smiled at her,trying to convince her but she didn't look convinced.

"Ohk!Bye Nandani!"Sunaina spoke frenziedly gauging Manahil's next step and they all rushed out,giving no time to my daughter to react.

I smiled with a sigh and again laid behind with closed eyes.

Probably Five minutes would've passed and Bhaiya came into the room.

"Hagemaru!"

"Ji Bhaiya!"I sat on bed,switching on the lights once again.

"I'm going out to have a meet with wedding planner!" He told and a line of tension bulged out on my forehead.

Ghar main koi bhi nhi hoga phir agar Bhaiya bhi chale jayenge tou!

"But bhaiya..."Before I could tell him my worry his phone rang.

"Oh yes yes!Im coming!" He declined the call and then looked at me. "Hagemaru take care ok!I'll be back soon!" He rushed out and I left my palms on my thighs with a bad face.

Sar bhi dard ho raha hai mera Aiyappa!

I pressed my aching head with my both palms while hissing softly.

Aesa karti hn naha leti hn,thora sar dard bhi kam hojaega!

Removing blanket off my thighs I stood up and fished out my loose white shirt and purple patyala shalwar.

Going into the washroom I took off my clothes and was about to enter into the shower cabinet when my eyes fell on my chosen clothes.

Lou I forgot to bring my undergarments along!

Abhi tou koi hai bhi nhi bahir,jaldi se le leti hn,ab wapis kapre kaun pehne!

Wrapping a white towel around my naked body I peeped my head out.

Koi bhi nhi hai,jaldi se le le Nandani!

I pressed my lips looking here and there and stepped out from the washroom.

I was about to open the cupboard door when a shout boomed in my ears, "NANDANI!"

Ye ? Ye kab aye ?

"NANDANI!NANDANI!"

My eyes widened in horror realising that he was reaching closer to me as his voice was getting louder.

Clutching towel tight to my heart I ran towards room door to lock it.

Agar inhone mughe iss haal main dekh liya,tou phir ye control nhi kar payenge!Bhao Bhao jaag jayega inka!

"NANDANI!" The voice got more clear and I realised he was just out of my room.

Aiyooo!Aiyappa!Bachao!

Leaving the door unlocked I ran towards washroom when my foot slipped and I fell straight,my lips kissing the floor, "Aaaah!" and the door behind opened, "Nandani!"

Aiyappa!

With a crying face I encircled my arms around my head on floor.

"Nandani!Kia hua?Nandani?"Sitting beside me he shook my bare shoulders and I closed my eyes inhaling the warmth of his palms over my cold skin.

"Nandani!"He shook my shoulders more harshly,trying to turn me.

Kyon Aiyappa Kyon!!

"Kia hua tumhe?Nandani!"He was getting worried or furious I don't know but I was getting frustrated now.

"Kuch nhi hua mughe!"Pulling my face out I barked at him and he looked taken a back. 

He narrowed his eyes at me,scanning my facial features. "Kahin lagi tou nhi tumhe?" He asked worriedly and I frowned.

"Kyon lagegi?Kahin nhi lagi mughe!"Being frustrated I yelled at him with a scrunched nose and  he looked on other side,thinking something with squeezed brows.

"Harsh messaged me that you and Manahil have fallen from stairs!" He whispered looking at me again and I too frowned. 

"Manahil!Where is she?"He roamed his eyes here and there fretfully.

"Nhi!Aesa kuch nhi hua aur Manahil sab k sath bahir gayi hai!"I replied back with two frowns indicating my confusion upon listening his words. In the meanwhile his eyes fell downwards at my very deep and clear cleavage.

I followed his gaze and my brows which were squeezed before straightened.I raised my menacing eyes up at him and he averted his eyes nervously on being caught red-handed.

Ye duniya idhar se udhar ho jaye lekin mere mian ji kameene k kameene hi rahenge!

I pulled up the towel to cover my visible cleavage and sat on floor due to which my towel automatically pulled up more,giving the shade of my lower womanly asset.

He glanced at me with the corner of his eyes when his eyes fell downwards and they widened leaving me frowning,once again.  

I looked at the place where his eyes were stuck and my eyes jumped out off their sockets.

"Aiyappa!" A horror filled squeal left my mouth and I ran towards washroom as fast as I could. 

I heard his giggle from behind  and my already fastened heart beats turned more fast.

I closed the washroom door and rested my head on it.My breaths were so wild.I opened my eyes and looked at myself in the mirror only to get awe-struck.

Sirf inki ek nazar se ye haal Kyon hojata hai mera!

My beetroot cheeks,my bouncing chest and,and that unknown little smile. 

Itna waqt guzar gaya lekin inki mohabbat ka rang nhi badla!Aaj bhi mere gaal laali se bhar jaate hain,Jab ye meri ore apni palkein utha-te hain!

I removed that towel and stepped into the shower cabinet.I was smiling,don't know why.

......

I sprayed some rose cologne all over my washed skin and then closed my eyes inhaling its fragrance.

Ab thora sar dard bhi behtar hai!

Giving myself a comforting smile in the mirror I picked up my clothes and realisation dawned upon me that I was deprived of undergarments.

Aiyappa!

I cried and stomped my foot on wet floor.

Ab agar ye bahir hue tou!

In frustration I scratched my head with my both palms.

Chlo dekhti hn!Please Aiyappa!Please ye na ho bahir warna main apne kapre kese lungi!

After praying to Aiyappa I again wrapped towel around my body and tied my wet hair into a bun,just some wet locks were kissing my cheeks and some traces were sticked to my neck.

After praying once more I peeped my head out with closed eyes.

Aiyappa!Please!Please!

I opened my one eye slowly and other automatically opened with a jerk.He was just there,sleeping on my bed.

I was on the verge of crying now.

"Mughe pata hai jaanbujh k kar rahe hain aap ye sab!" I shouted with my teary eyes but he laid there calm.He was sleeping with his vest and pyjamas on.

"Dekhiye sharafat k sath chale jaiye yahan se warna Acha nhi hoga!"I threatened him in my dangerous voice and he frowned in his sleep before pulling up my blanket over his head and turning on other side.

Inhe kia lagta hai main inhe janti nhi k kitne kamine hain ye!

"Dekhiye!Mughe sab samagh aa raha hai!"I gritted my teeth.How shameless he is.

Bas!Bohot hogaya!

I stepped out of washroom and stomped towards him.

"Samaghte kia hain aap apne aapko?"I pulled off his blanket and he opened his eyes very slowly.

"Yaar sone do na!"He whined with half closed eyes and tried taking blanket from my hand and suddenly he clutched my hand. My eyes widened and before I could realise I was over him.

"Ye blanket itna bhari Kyon hai?"He wrapped his arms around me cozily and turned taking me under him. "Manik!"I growled slapping his shoulders and his lips curved into a smile over my cleavage.

"Sone do yaar!Main chaar salon se sukoon se nhi soya!"He mumbled while snuggling into me and I gulped. 

In no minutes his soft snores were reaching my ears.He was fast asleep.

I sighed and closed my eyes too.

Sirf kuch der k liye!

......

After 2 hours.

Someone was continuously caressing my hair.His soft strokes on my cheek made me smile in my sleep.

I opened my eyes meekly with a smile embellished on my lips.But my smile vanished and my eyes widened realising who was caressing my hair and cheek.

We were not in the same position in which we slept.Before he was laying over me and now I was laying over him.

I was about to move back when he clutched my waist and rolled on the bed,taking me under him.

"Ye Kia kar rahe hain aap?"I glared at him as he pinned my both palms beside my head.

"Wohi jo tum soch rahi ho!"He winked,coming closer to my lips and my eyes widened.

"Sochiyega bhi nhi!"I menaced my glare at him and he stopped on his way towards my lips.

"Soch lia!"He shrugged his shoulders and again bent his face down towards my lips making me tweeze my brows.

"Maine kaha..." And his lips were over mine,kissing my lips as deeply as he could. 

I tried struggling but he left his all weight over me making my breaths more high.

Ek din main pata nhi kitni baar chummi kar li hai inhone!Aap dekh rahe hona Aiyappa!Kese Bhao Bhao ki tarah peeche par gaye hain ye mere!

"Mughe tumse mohabbat karni hai!Kia ijazat hai?"Leaving my lips he gasped on my face.Haste and need evident in his eyes. 

I was left with no word.His request had shocked me.

.......

Some serious drama coming up in next chapters!Gear up readers!😉
I know I'm extremely late but I'm busy with current situations still I'm trying to write!
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