Hey!

I am back!

Dude, I have to do all my homework in my holiday.

Can u guess how many days in my holiday ?

actually 4 days include in the weekend,

and our teachers would love to give us many homeworks to do in our holiday for sure.

It is not that much as I thought. I do not even feel sad whenever they gave me.

Today, I sad because I cannot come to school.

A kind of weird hobby.

For me, school is the second home that I can lean on.

I donot have any where to go.

If I know how to ride a motorbike .

I will ride myself to Dalat or a quiet place whenever I feel bad.

I usually feel bad , but it does not mean that I am a stress guys.

I only feel bad whenever I think of something in the past or my thinking.

I've went out with my dad. He rided my around Saigon to view some of building or stuck in some of traffic jams.

That's not a boring things.

We went out but only talked with each other 5 or 7 words at most.

But , the most thing that made me think much is about my action in 16 years (not include from 1 year old to 4 years old).

When I was 15 years old, I moved to a new town called miengz and made friends with many people.

For along time, I made friend with some of girls that are younger than me much.

They are some of primary or highschool student.

I cannot remember where they from but one girl.

Only one girl that I really to fall in love with her.

I remember her much, but I cannot touch!

How painful am I !

I am a lessbian!?

Not actually!

She will not accept me.

I know!

CLEARLY.

She will never ever forgive me.

I should tell her soon.

When I was 17 years old!

I left them behind me and started a new life.

A new rule in my life with new friends?

NO

I DON'T HAVE FRIENDS!

FRIEND(S)

That's true.

I told to myself that never ever get back to that town!

NEVER.

but I did not do that.

I still returned but they are gone!

I tried to find them but it did not succeed.

Especially HER.

NO ONE LEFT .

BUT ONLY ME.

When I was 18 years old!

I met her again.

we were talked alot.

talked with each other for along time until now .

She still not realizes.

Is she knew already? Is she only does not give a fuck?

I think so.

I was wondering a question when I went out with dad.

IF I WAS A BOY, WILL YOU COME AND LOVE ME?

WILL YOU FORGIVE ALL OF THE THINGS I DONE ?

WILL YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH ME AGAIN AS YOU DREAM OF MEET ME outside the town, but I DID NOT DO THAT?

I HOPE ONE DAY, I CAN FOLLOW YOU!

LIVE TOGETHER.

I AM AFRAID EVERY SINGLE DAY!

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