October 4th 2016 –got together -- E, 19; R, 22; S, 23; C, 20
October 4th 2017- year anniversary – E, 20; R, 22; S, 24; C, 21
February 9th 2018 - Broke up -- E, 21; R, 23; S, 25; C, 22
June 17th 2018 – Story begins - E, 21; R, 24; S, 25; C, 22
March 18th 2018 – Maisie turns up, - E, 22; R, 24; S, 26; C, 23

Codie Bennett Williams- January 30th 1996
Brain sings the songs of torment.



key plot points:
· Emerson is in a pit of depression
· A night with Codie just talking after he can't sleep and decided to sit on the sofa watching netflix, when she joins him. sit in moderately comfortable silence. Codie wants to go for a walk so E joins, he thinks he sees Maisie. -->Shower.
· Remington drama. Resolved easier than the upcoming argument- Will be brought up before Emerson breaks down. Pictures surface of Em and Codie, fans speculating that they were now together.
· Remington and Sebastian go out for a late celebration for Sebs birthday (July 15th) and Emerson has a nightmare Codie is there and talks to him afterwards. He sneaks off for a 'shower' 1 MONTH. night movies become more and more of thing. Emerson explains who Maisie is and what she did. Monopoly game and hearing drunk r and s come in after standing on the monopoly pieces cause they took their shoes off. Emerson flips the board
· Getting ready for a show, sees C struggle with 20lb box
· New dream, Emerson rips Remington's heart out, Maisie forces him to. Symbolises the rift her impact has caused
· The night 3 MONTHS
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· Tension between E, C & R. Rem becomes distant from Codie. Still notices her issues with mirrors and her refusal to be pictured. More Sebastian in this chapter. Sebastian notices that Remington is being a bit of a dick to codie.
· "I'm broken Remington" after Rem and Emerson argue about something small, Emerson being secretive. Rem turns to leave, not before telling his brother to "sort your shit"
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· Emerson opens up to Remington. Remington holds Emerson and cries with him. After this, Remington apologises to Codie and asks for forgiveness.
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· An argument between Sebastian and Remington happens, Sebastian doesn't like that Remington is the only one Emerson confides in. Remington storms out, and Codie follows. 4.5 MONTHS
· Emerson cuts a lot, Sebastian walks in and they have a heart to heart.
· Emerson ends up in hospital after losing too much blood after a cut. "Emerson?" Sebastian looked in horror at his brother. His eyes were closed and his face was pale. His lips were parted as scarce breathes escaped his mouth. "Emerson!" he tried to get his brother to wake but the younger was locked in the darkness.
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· Emerson is in hospital
· R, E, and S argue because R & S think E should go to therapy.
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· Emerson's birthday 5 MONTHS
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· stage performance, with awful signs in the audience. Emerson, Remington and Sebastian walk off the stage (near the end). and apologise to the fans there to see them and explain why they left (not all of the fans saw the signs) in a livestream. 4.75 MONTHS
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· Codie talks E into therapy, and confides into him about her own problems- Insomnia and eating disorders and tells him she will go to therapy with him.
· Christmas 6MONTHS
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· E stops therapy, doesn't find it useful.
· Uses Codie as a therapist.
· Andy black shows up.
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· Codie's ex turns up and stirs the plot. Codie stops eating 7 MONTHS
· Codie's birthday celebration turns into a disaster, her ex once again shows up and reveals her eating disorder to R&S. Face down, red jumpsuit apparatus
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· emerson, has an awful nightmare about maisie, wakes up and cries into R's shoulder.
· Emerson stops feeling the need to cut after he woke up from a nightmare and just wants to sit with his brothers
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· Emerson begins healing. 8 MONTHS
· Movie day- everyone, Em, Rem, Seb and Codie FINAL
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· Maisie shows up. Emerson feels no pain about her. "Bitch, you aren't relevant anymore, leave" Codie 8.5 MONTHS
· No more nighmares 9 MONTHS EPILOGUE

Things started to change here so I created a new plan.... also I was going to totally kill off codie I think I wrote this somewhere

• key plot points:
• · Emerson is in a pit of depression
• · A night with Codie just talking after he can't sleep and decided to sit on the sofa watching netflix, when she joins him. sit in moderately comfortable silence. Codie wants to go for a walk so E joins, he thinks he sees Maisie. -->Shower.
• · Remington drama. Resolved easier than the upcoming argument- Will be brought up before Emerson breaks down. Pictures surface of Em and Codie, fans speculating that they were now together.
• · Remington and Sebastian go out for a late celebration for Sebs birthday (July 15th) and Emerson has a nightmare Codie is there and talks to him afterwards. He sneaks off for a 'shower' 1 MONTH. night movies become more and more of thing. Emerson explains who Maisie is and what she did. Monopoly game and hearing drunk r and s come in after standing on the monopoly pieces cause they took their shoes off. Emerson flips the board
• · Getting ready for a show, sees C struggle with 20lb box
• · New dream, Emerson rips Remington's heart out, Maisie forces him to. Symbolises the rift her impact has caused
• · The night 3 MONTHS
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• · Tension between E, C & R. Rem becomes distant from Codie. Still notices her issues with mirrors and her refusal to be pictured. More Sebastian in this chapter. Sebastian notices that Remington is being a bit of a dick to codie.
• · "I'm broken Remington" after Rem and Emerson argue about something small, Emerson being secretive. Rem turns to leave, not before telling his brother to "sort your shit"
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• · Emerson opens up to Remington. Remington holds Emerson and cries with him. After this, Remington apologises to Codie and asks for forgiveness.
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• · An argument between Sebastian and Remington happens, Sebastian doesn't like that Remington is the only one Emerson confides in. Remington storms out, and Codie follows. 4.5 MONTHS
• · Emerson cuts a lot, Sebastian walks in and they have a heart to heart.
• · Emerson ends up in hospital after losing too much blood after a cut. "Emerson?" Sebastian looked in horror at his brother. His eyes were closed and his face was pale. His lips were parted as scarce breathes escaped his mouth. "Emerson!" he tried to get his brother to wake but the younger was locked in the darkness.
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• · Emerson is in hospital
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• · R, E, and S argue because R & S think E should go to therapy. emerson, has an awful nightmare about maisie, wakes up and cries into R's shoulder.
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• Emerson goes to a cafe at midnight on his birthday (leaving a note) meets shy, they sit in silence, don't become couple or agree to a second date, just kinda VIBE about life being shit, "it's my birthday, i've spent 22 years on this god-forsaken world, in endless torment, and for what?" emerson swirled the room temperature coffee around in the cup as he spoke out his thoughts to no-one, "i think you were put on this world for something, even if it is just to show that a person can get through the pain and torment and come out on top, Emerson looked up to the source of the mysterious voice, A woman stood a few feet away, looking at Emerson warily, watching his face measuring him, she was very short, and had it not been for her mature features, Emerson might have mistaken her for a teenager, "Whats all the pain and suffering worth if i don't make it?" he tilted his head to the side in a questioning gesture, nodding to the couch opposite, for the woman to sit. She meets his challenging gaze, and clearly weighs the question in her head before answering softly, "well I guess you're going to have to make it to find out"
• Tries to use Rem and Seb as a therapist. But it doesn't work.
• Emerson talks to Shy about therapy and she says she's been, and thinks it doesn't make someone week, makes them stronger. "Like you go, and you have this problem, but this therapist, someone who spent years in school to get a job so they can help people, helps you talk through it, they help you find the root of the problem so you can create a plan to fix the problem, like thats amazing"
• Rem talks E into therapy, and confides into him about his own problems, depression- links to when the were both in the 'pit of despair' rem was in. Self harmed for a while, but his mom talked him into therapy.
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• Codie's birthday celebration turns into a disaster, her ex once again shows up and reveals her eating disorder to R&S. Face down, red jumpsuit apparatus . Codie stops eating 7 MONTHS
• E stops therapy, doesn't find it useful.
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• Emerson and shy kinda be vibing as a cute couple and meet up again.
• "Emerson sighed and looked back at the message on his phone "under the clock tower at noon, see you there <3" he was a couple minutes early but he still felt paranoid, and felt something horrible would happen, like this was all a ploy, like he would come face to face with Maisie, The sinking feeling in his stomach parallel to the sinking feeling he always felt after a nightmare. A couple minutes after noon, he decided to face facts and began to stand up to leave when he saw her, Shy was walking towards him with a flustered look on her face, "I'm so sorry that i'm late, there was this old church i passed and i became so transfixed in the architecture that i was stood for like 20 minutes watching it" He tilted his head to the side, looking at this woman in a whole new light, the were so many layers to her, on the outside she looked, as some others would describe, 'just a pretty face' Emerson had never described anyone like this, not that she wasn't pretty; in emerson eyes she was stunning, however when you lifted a few layers, there was a spiritual girl who was transfixed with the world around her and was determined to stand and let it grow around whilst she stood in the middle just letting it happen. Yet despite all this she genuinely cared about the people in the world, and wanted to help them"
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• Ending- Emerson finally burns all of Maisie's things, and the pictures of them
• Epilogue- movie night, Emerson, Shy, Rem,Seb,Larisa, Andrew, Everyone just having a good time, "Emerson glanced over at shy who was sat next to him, closer than just friends, but far enough away that it was painful. Emerson had gotten used to this pained feeling whenever he realised shy and him were never going to be more than friends, but he would gladly face it if it meant he could still keep her in his life. Shy was laughing, and her eyes had a genuine look of happiness in the room with his crackhead family and friends, Emerson knew she was his soulmate, even if they would never be together, but the way they fit together so perfectly was hard to deny that they had been made for each other. She was put in his life to love and teach him how to grow, he needed to grow in order to heal, but she couldn't heal him, that was something he needed to do, but for her he'd be willing to try.
• "He'd lift a thousand mountains just to make her smile, not that he'd be able to, but she'd probably laugh at his attempt"

Codies funeral? Bonus epilogue. After his speech he sits down next to shy, her hand in his and rests his head on her shoulder as they

"Emerson sat down, knees slightly wobbly and shoulders tense, he felt a small hand wrap itself around his own, and he turned to face Shy. Her beauty astounded him everyday, and her heart perplexed him. The though that a heart that was so big and full of love, would ever be able to hold him tight, it perplexed him that a heart so beautiful and light could manage to hold him so dearly as if his own heart hadn't been shrowded in a cloak of darkness. (I love this sentence) A soft smile met his wandering eyes, and he felt at peace, slowly as to not disrupt the calm aura she was releasing, he settled his head on her shoulder. A bit of a struggle because of the headlight difference but he wouldn't have it any other way. Hand in hand, heart in heart, they watched as more and more people came to the front and spoke of a codie they never knew who lived a different life from the one they cherished her in. It was odd, all these people who clearly knew her, but Emerson felt like they didn't know her at all as they should up and told stories of a girl who radiated happiness, and they couldn't believe she had gone so soon. His brain screamed at the falsified stories of a girl who deserved to die. Now don't get him wrong, he loved her and would miss her dearly however, the longer she spent on earth the more pain she was in, and the further she strayed from the person all of these people claimed to know, she deserved to die because that was the best thing that could have happened to her. Living wasn't for everyone. Being alive tore her apart, and dying brought her solace.

Talk about the frst time shy saw his scars

Here's that epilogue where I killed her

Emerson stood, his hands shaking and palms sweating. He was never this nervous, but the finality of this moment hit him like a truck. She was dead, and he had failed. His shaking legs took him up to the podium where he was to give the speech, commemorating her life.
"When I woke up today, I didn't want to stay awake, I wanted to go back to bed and forget today. My brothers wouldn't let me. I got up on this podium ready to give a speech, but when I saw everyone here, I wanted to leave. There are a hundred more people more fitted to give a speech about her, but her sister wanted me to do this, her sister wanted me to tell you all about Codie's life in different countries.
My favourite memory of Codie has to be when Sebastian and Remington went out to celebrate Seb's birthday, it was just me and her on the bus. At first, we were separated and in our own bunks, but then we moved to the living space to watch a movie. It was the first night that I opened up to her. But as well as that, we watched Big Hero 6 and she cried. We had begun watching it as a 'happy' distraction, I had assumed she had seen it. She had not.
I laughed for no reason. I just laughed at her. She didn't appreciate my amusement and said these words, I'm not going to say it in the same volume, because if I don't get kicked out for my word choice I will get kicked out for the volume.  "I swear down on all of my photography equipment Emerson Barrett Kropp, if you don't stop laughing I will beat the living shit out of you!" her glare, which had simmered down to a 10 was at 1000 and aimed directly at me.
Once she had calmed down from this, we decided to play monopoly. Big mistake on my part. Apparently, she was a secret business C.E.O outside of being a photographer, she won and I lost. I'm not going to try and say I lost with any kind of dignity, I flipped the board, refused to give her the money and sulked off to my bed.
Apparently though, this triggered something in her, because she started speaking in an entirely different fucking language. She claims it was English, but it wasn't. I swear I thought I was going to get abducted by aliens with the way she was speaking.
Now I'm sure you all have your own favourite memory with her, or maybe you have so many you can't pick, and mine will just become another memory among a hundred.
I will never look at people the same way, I never thought that people could have such complex stories and still look as if they lived the most boring life. I'm not sure how many know what she has been through, so I won't repeat it, but to come from that and then tour with three overgrown children within the span of 5 years, is not something I would have expected from anyone.
Up here I see all the people who turned up, people who have been affected by her light. Sure her life wasn't all sunshine, rainbows and puppies but her soul was. Even in a dark time she stayed alive and fought her demons head-on.
She was pure. Her natural instinct was to help others, she tried to help me. Hell, she's even patched me up before- oh sorry, we're in a church- I was bleeding, and broken and she didn't leave like I expected her, hell I wanted her to. Okay, the priest is glaring at me. I'm really sorry, I can't help it.
Emptiness is eating me from the inside and  I continue further down isolating paths, this leads me into a dark abyss of tragedy. As long as the mind is split, life is perpetual conflict, tension, frustration and disillusion. Suffering is piled on suffering, fear on fear, and boredom on boredom. The more the fly struggles to get out of the honey, the faster it gets stuck.
Those who want everything loses everything, those who just want happiness gain nothing but sorrow. The has to be a balance, never seek pure happiness. Accept that sadness is a part of all existence. Codie knew this. She knew she wasn't going to live happily ever after, and it's a shame because this past week I have heard hundreds of stories of the happy child that was Codie, and it goes to show just how growing up in today's toxic society has ruined us. We are a generation in pain.
We are not merely on a quest to be happy, we are on a quest to suffer in familiar ways. The undivided mind is free from this tension of trying always to stand outside oneself and to be elsewhere than here and now. Each moment is lived completely, and there is thus a sense of fulfilment and completeness.
I am a broken man, I can't deny that. Codie wanted to fix me, but she was unable to because I had this broken mentality that being fixed was bad. That being fixed would show that I was broken. Which is just fucking stupid. They say that you'll be fine when you take the pills. That you'll feel alright when your not yourself self. Always know the purest, honest and brutal version of yourself is the most useful for survival, don't let anyone change who you are. Even Lieseil Inc sorry, that's a joke between my brothers and I.
Anyway, I'm not afraid to admit that I'm broke now, because I want people to know. I want people to stand by me as I help myself. Codie tried, but now it is my turn to try"

Emerson pulled away from the podium and shakily walked back to the front row sat down, knees slightly wobbly and shoulders tense, he felt a small hand wrap itself around his own, and he turned to face Shy.

Her beauty astounded him everyday, and her heart perplexed him. The though that a heart that was so big and full of love, would ever be able to hold him tight, it perplexed him that a heart so beautiful and light could manage to hold him so dearly as if his own heart hadn't been shrowded in a cloak of darkness. A soft smile met his wandering eyes, and he felt at peace, slowly as to not disrupt the calm aura she was releasing, he settled his head on her shoulder. A bit of a struggle because of the headlight difference but he wouldn't have it any other way. Hand in hand, heart in heart, they watched as more and more people came to the front and spoke of a codie they never knew who lived a different life from the one they cherished her in.

It was odd, all these people who clearly knew her, but Emerson felt like they didn't know her at all as they should up and told stories of a girl who radiated happiness, and they couldn't believe she had gone so soon. His brain screamed at the falsified stories of a girl who deserved to die.

Now don't get him wrong, he loved her and would miss her dearly however, the longer she spent on earth the more pain she was in, and the further she strayed from the person all of these people claimed to know, she deserved to die because that was the best thing that could have happened to her. Living wasn't for everyone. Being alive tore her apart, and dying brought her solace.
He raised his head and turned to meet the eyes of his brother Remington, who had silent tears running down his face which was sparse of makeup, slowly which his free hand, he clasped remingtons hand in his own.
Something had changed. It was an action Remington did on a daily basis, but something was different. Emerson didn't flinch or wince in pain at the secrets he was hiding. Not only that but his eyes weren't hollow.
They were glossy and glazed over as traitorous tears rolled down his cheeks, but they weren't hollow. His eyes had been empty for so long that the hollowness predated Maisie. Emerson was healing. He wasn't there but his heart was ready to heal. He didn't want to think it, but Codie's death might have been the best thing for Emerson.
He didn't think it in a malicious way. It was just, her death showed Emerson that the consequences were real, and that people still cared no matter how much you isolate yourself from everyone. Yet here he was, sat with his brothers, hearts healed from the pain of a life not yet forgotten, and a woman who he was not afraid to call his soulmate beside him. He had isolated himself in a pit of emotionsl despair thinking that he would drag them down with him, yet when it came to it they were the ones who would lift him up.
So if he wasn't going to try for the sake of codie, he was going to try for them.

I genuinely think this is the epilogue it needed cause otherwise it would be a happy ending. With things like mental health there isn't always a happy ending, or a quick fix solution. Emerson was the main character but the story was happening to other people too. Others had issues happening

Anyway thanks for joining me on this journey