[ dedicated to sanhasmile , as i know how much fantagio means to you. (the user gives it all away HAHAHHAA) ]

i :) miss :) my :) boys :) already :))
i'm so thirsty for yuehua updates though like if they coUld just have a vlive broadcast everyday i'd dROP EVERYTHING JUST FOR THEM

oh and y'all should know how much i love yoon yongbin (though i rarely talk about him here) and how he is the REAL visual of pd101. guanlin and jihoon who? i only know our jack frost/lee taeyong's twin.

i should stop rambling. love u guys and thanks for 2k reads <3

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"why do you both already sound like a married couple?" minki asks off with a sigh.

"because we are— i mean," jihoon blurts out, in loss of the accuracy in choosing words. "we, without our consent, suddenly looked that way. it was not rushed, not forced."

"from your story, i don't know how a couple like you could fall off, to be honest." jisung says, his eyes fluttering so he wouldn't fall asleep. he receives a suffocating hug by seonho so he could stay up. "27 years of my life i have never experienced anything like that."

daniel wheezes. "and about 2 years training with you, i don't think i've ever seen you with a girl, to be honest."

"you're too young to know, euigeon-ah."

".. i'm almost 22."

"yeah," jisung wraps his arm around daniel's neck, "but you're still our uri maknae~"

daehwi widens his eyes. "daniel-hyung is the maknae of mmo?"

daniel winks. "the one and only."

"okay! but that's another story to tell." baejin parts. "can we please finish jihoon's first?"

"i think it's neverending." hyungseob says.

"ah judy, you've just never heard ours." minhyun eyes his other labelmates. "might take more than one late night stand."

"and it's something you'd all wouldn't like to know. it's not all fun and games like jihoon's." jonghyun says with a smile, but they all do know there's something hidden behind his gentle smile, they were just not ready to reveal it. "it's even better for us to listen to jisung-hyung's love story."

jisung places his hand on his chest. "i'll take that as a compliment from you, bugi." he pretends as if he exchanged it with a flying kiss.

"guys," baejin's voice tenses. "jihoon's. story."

"chill, tiny face." jaehwan ruffles the younger's hair. "since when did you become park jihoon's hypeman?"

once the situation settled, jihoon finally has the opportunity to talk again. he clears his throat. "you all do know how beautiful the thought of debuting is.."

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yoon sanha and park minhyuk has officially moved to class a.

they debuted, even, with a concept i would say very refreshing. suits the baby giraffe, not sure about minhyuk though. he's a boy who could pull off any concept, though i am quite anticipating the sophisticated side from him.

but hey, this is still just debut. what can i expect?

well, i didn't expect minhyuk's stage name to be rocky, if that's for certain. i might needed a few days to stop joking at him about it. but at the end, jokes to me. he's the one who's debuting, after all.

with a cute name, i suppose.

rocky, rocky.

but after they moved, the company didn't even bother to upgrade any c trainees to the b class. what was worse was the fact that they didn't upgrade the three of us to the a class, leaving the three of us in a practice room filled with women that we're not supposed to socialize with.

i mean, i can't complain about anything. i've been here for barely two months. but as in for hyuntae and yesung, god knows how long they have been roasted here. perhaps not longer than minhyuk and sanha, but i think it's long enough for them to at least reach the a class.

but life is a bitch, and they had to be stuck here with me.

it was already in the state where i am confident to do anything in the practice room, as i am already comfortable with atmosphere, even with yeonjoo with me (hell, she'd be the one making it better). starting from hyuntae's dolphin-shriek laugh to doyeon's low sense of humor (but everyone seem to laugh anyway) i definitely understand why yeonjoo never wants to leave this place.

so there was me, mr. completely-confident-with-everything-pants bursting into the practice room while yelling, "god of visuals is here!"

but when i got in there, i realize it was not a normal training. it's not even a training, after all. surprised yeonjoo pulled me over to the corner with the others, who are trying their best to stay quiet (and yes, they were all glaring at me) "what the hell are you doing?!" yeonjoo half-whispered.

"what's happening?"

"astro's having a vlive broadcast, that's what happening!" she pointed at the 6 boys who were showing off their dance practice. "good thing the music is strong enough to block your voice, otherwise they'd have to explain what happened." she slapped my hands, leaving a red mark. "i swear to god, you are so stupid."

"i'm sorry, i didn't know!" i glanced at to the far corner to see hyuntae and yesung, sending 'what the fuck' gestures to me. i just returned them a shrug and got back to yeonjoo. it seemed like it was impossible for me to go to the boys place because they were too far and i don't want to stir anymore chaos, and yeonjoo herself wasn't talking to her friends, so i decided to stay here, listening to her lectures (that i secretly find amusing)

"what you said is unbelievable, though." she continued as she opened her bag of seaweed, offering some to me. "especially in this condition."

i took a thin layer of seaweed. "what, me?"

she nodded. "we all know dongmin-sunbaenim is the god of visuals."

i centered my attention on this dongmin, who now apparently uses the name 'cha eunwoo' as his stage name, and is currently smiling courteously in the camera as the others get excited with the plushies that were sent in by the pds for, fan service? i'm not sure. but whatever it is, those boys were certainly born for variety.

but dongmin outshines us all for visuals, i'm not even sure how that boy is real.

"... yeah, he's unbeatable." i replied slowly, affirming my defeat. "not gonna lie, they're all so good in variety."

she nodded in agreement. "something i'm bad on."

"ah, kim yeonjoo admits that she's not a fun person?" i chuckled. "well, i have to agree."

"hey!"

"but to be honest, i enjoy being with you." i confessed as i looked down, praying hard that my cheeks weren't turning red. "you're not that bad."

"you're not that bad either, park."

"is this kim yeonjoo admitting that she likes my presence?" i asked eagerly.

she laughed. "yes," her voice was low, but hearable.

we spent the next 20 minutes saying nothing, either listening to the broadcast or just gazing at each other, something we were now able to do. we were so close, i could feel the warmth of her sweater and the smell of her cherry-scent hair.

"do you think," she started, "that anyone here is actually having a.. you know,"

"a what?"

"a serious, established relationship."

and until this day, i have never had the guts to bring up this conversation. i decided to keep it cool. "i don't know, everyone seemed to be very subtle with each other. besides," i pouted my lips. "there's like only, three of us and a majority of you girls. well, that is if there's any of you who finds interest in people with the same orientation, which is fine, by the way-"

"don't you think moon bin-sunbaenim has?" she asked curiously. "his visuals aren't playing and he seems to be the boyfriend type."

i shrugged. "to be honest, at this condition, i don't think you all have the interest on dating any of the astro members anymore."

"really?" she tilted her head. "and why is that?"

"because you're already so aware with their true personality, you know they're just overly talented boys with great visuals but inside are the souls of 5 year olds."

she giggled. "5 year olds with abs."

"certainly 5 year olds with abs." i bit my lip. "why are we talking about this, exactly?"

"about what?"

"relationships."

she shrugged. "just curious."

it was to our surprise that the conversation when further than that. we started to theorize in which couple that seem to be dating, but are really good at not showing it. we even talked about the c and d trainees that i don't really recognize but we talked about them anyway. we were so deep into the conversation, we didn't realize what was happening around us. we didn't even realize a very puzzled doyeon standing in front of us, staring at us strangely.

"and what are you two doing, exactly?" she asked, startling the both of us.

my arm was at yeonjoo's shoulder. how did it end up here, exactly?

i removed my arm and looked at doyeon warily.

"park jihoon and kim yeonjoo, is there anything you'd like to say?" doyeon crossed her arms.

"nothing, i mean.." yeonjoo skimmed all over the room. "doyeon-ah, i don't think anything's wrong."

"well, the broadcast has ended 20 minutes ago and you two are the only ones left in this room." doyeon said, but she didn't raised her voice. instead, a small smile tugged on her lips.

"ah~ don't disturb them," yoojung cut quickly into the conversation, eyeing the both of us giddily. "they're probably having an important discussion."

"a discussion that's best not to concern us." doyeon said shortly. "it's does not concern us, right?"

yeonjoo and i exchanged a look and i nodded. "school, music history, none of your concern."

"i love music history!" yoojung bursts in. "oh my god, i wish i could talk to you guys about-"

"hey, slow down," doyeon interrupted her with a sigh. "don't get distracted, yoojung-ah. we still need to practice."

"and that's when we leave." yeonjoo stood up and pulled me up to my feet and we head to the door.

"jihoonie, wait!" i turned around, aware by the fact that choi yoojung is asking for me.

"yes, noona?"

"i sent a picture of you to sejeongie and she said that you're cute." yoojung gave a playful wink.

"r-really, wow i'm f-flattered." i stuttered, it's not everyday someone that you idolize could notice you, let alone calling you cute. "wait, how did you get my picture again?"

"from kim yeonjoo herself." yoojung grinned widely.

"yoojung!" yeonjoo gasped, gesturing with her hand a rectangle that probably means something like 'open card'. i just laughed it off and greeted them goodbye, while pushing yeonjoo to the exit before she has the chance to kill yoojung.

i don't know what surprised me the most.

choi yoojung eagerly asking a picture of me,

kim sejeong saying that i'm cute,

or by the fact that kim yeonjoo saves pictures of me in her phone.

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i love my fantagio bubs ^.^