Previously on chapter 4:

''Okay so now, I have one last question left!'' I grin cheekily, wanting to ask this ever since Matthew confessed he was gay and had a crush on me. ''Since when did you have a crush on me and would you date me?''

Gray Emmerson

''Oh god.. I knew this one was coming for me..'' Matthew moans soft and throws his head back while closing his eyes, probably praying that he didn't say what he said at that party.

''Hey, can't blame me for wanting to know..'' I laugh softly, kinda loving that I was putting him in a difficult position. ''You threw me off guard with that! Heck, I didn't even know you knew me before? I'm literally the most unpopular minion existing on earth!'' I whisper-yell, slightly blushing at my own confession.

Honestly I was perfectly fine with being invincible and not being the centre of attention. I had been for as long as I can remember. Even as a little kid I never liked to be put into groups or play with other kids. I'd rather be on my own than depend on someone else or worse, being judged by others.

But just because I preferred to be on my own, it never meant that it would ever be easy for me. From high school on, I had to deal with weird looks, nasty comments, neverending bullying, a string of loneliness and most importantly: you felt nothing but utterly alone. As if you didn't belong on this earth.

Every day I had to go through that. And let me tell you, that wasn't always something I preffered.

Sometimes you wanted the arms of a warm personality around you: wanting to feel their love and caring for you. Sometimes you just wanted someone to be around, not just to talk to, but someone of who you'd know that they would stick around no matter what. I missed having someone who would look out for you without having to ask them to.

Until I met Elaine.

''You might be an unpopular minion, but you are a cute minion Gray..'' He smiles at me, shaking his head as his piercing grey eyes bored into my soul.

My heart fluttered at his words. Matthew really thinks I'm cute?

I don't know what it was about Matthew, but that boy really caught my attention ever since he started to talk to me at that party. I never felt the urge to talk to someone nor wanting to get to know them besides Elaine, so to say that Matthew had my attention was only an understatement. He was one of the rare people who didn't bother to accept my existence and be nice to me. I didn't want to get attached already before I would meet with disappointment, but I really hoped Matthew would be someone to me like Elaine is.

Our eyes locked with one another without saying a word, but it never felt weird or uncomfortable. In fact, it felt like he was talking to me without having to open his mouth. His eyes were saying it all. Those beautiful eyes were shining with certain twinkles inside of them and the smile around his lips confessed to me how he was feeling. I barely knew the boy, we only met like a couple hours ago, but he had this natural save vibe around him.

It feels as if the space between us became shorter by each second that passes by. And when I almost feel his breath hit on my skin, he steps away and interrupts the moment.

What the heck did just happen?

''I had a crush on you for almost three years by now, and yes, I would actually date you if I could ever stand a chance..'' He easily admits while shrugging, not showing any shame nor anxiety. He was way too cool about it.

Say what?!

''For over three years?! What- How- Huh?! That's a flipping long time!'' I gasp in surprise, barely processing what he just confessed to me.

''I know.. But it was totally worth the wait.. The best time I ever spend'' He mutters while shaking his head. ''I am glad I actually had and took the chance at the party to talk to you. I mean I honestly never thought I would ever be able talk to you, leave alone being in the same room as you right now.. Just.. You and me, you know?'' He tells me as if it was some sort of dream to him that we were together now.

Don't get me wrong, I'm pretty much flattered by now, but I never saw this coming at all. There is nobody who ever romantically took an interest in me. Literally, nobody wanted to be my friend besides Elaine. And now I'm actually finding out that this pretty handsome boy had a crush on me for years now?

In what world am I living in?

It felt weird to me, because I was never important and I don't feel important either. How could it be a dream to him that we were in the same room right now? It was nothing special.

Nothing special, right?

Oh, flipping hell Gray, of course it was flippity floppity special?! My goodness, my insides were practically burning from all the information I was getting right now!

''You're insane..'' I eventually answer, looking at my hands shy, still not believing that this was happening right now.

''Insane about you yes..'' He laughs.

And during that exact same moment, I received a text message from Elaine, completely forgotten that the asshole even existed.

Elaine | 01:57

I'm on my way home now

I rolled my eyes at the message and put my phone away. ''Elaine is on his way.. So you can go home in a couple minutes.. Unless you wanna stay-''

''No! No, don't worry about it..'' Matthew interrupts me. ''Thanks for offering Gray, but I will go home.. Check on my devil sister and all. You have Elaine to be with tonight. And I suppose you two might need to talk about what happened..'' He said, seeming to be genuinely concerned.

''Yeah.. You are right about that..'' I muttered, thinking back about our earlier events.

Even at this point I still can't believe that Elaine stole my first kiss just like that, as if it was the easiest thing to do. And how I was left with all these confusing feelings, not understanding myself at all.

How was he even so easy about kissing a boy? He never kissed a boy from what I knew, but then again, who knows what that boy is doing in his spare time..

It just bothers me that the kiss felt so..

Amazing..

''Are you okay? You look a little bit distracted..'' He smiles, watching me calmly.

''I just have one question left.. It haunts me the entire time by now..'' I laugh softly. ''Why.. Why have you never told me anything? About you liking me and all..'' I wondered about the answer.

''I just never had the guts to come up to you and ask you out on a date..'' He mutters under his breath, watching me in the eye with a strong look on his face.

''And.. Do you have the guts now?'' I ask him then curiously, feeling the air getting sucked out of my lungs.

''Oh, yes Gray, I do have the guts now..'' He answers determined.