Gray Emmerson

''There's been this question I've been wanting to ask.. I mean it's okay if you don't wanna answer it but-''

''Oh, come on Matthew just ask already!'' I laugh softly at his silly procrastinating behaviour.

How bad could this question really be?

''Was that your first kiss out there?'' He asks, watching me with this certain intensity in his blue eyes which made me very nervous to answer his question.

And nevermind.. The question could have been so bad.

''Was it that obvious?'' I murmur ashamed, feeling my cheeks heat up as I looked away from him.

''Hey, no, I swear..'' He immediately answers me. ''I was wondering because you seemed to look so scared and unsure, it worried me.. I kinda recognized the way you reacted in myself'' He follows his explanation, carefully rubbing my back.

''Oh..'' I breath in relieve, people already think that I'm an idiot I don't need any more people to think that I never had my first kiss before. ''It's embarrassing, isn't it?''

''Gray, no silly..'' He laughs soft, still holding his hand on my back which made me feel warmer on the inside. ''Honestly everyone who had their first kiss by now, wasted it on a person who didn't deserve it. You should be proud of yourself and happy, that you aren't one of those people..'' He tells me with a certain amount of reassurance.

He was right on that one. I saved my very first kiss all the way up until now and I never wasted it on someone. In fact, I had my first kiss with the best person I could ever imagine. The person who knew me the best, the person who had always been by my side the last years no matter what and the person who promised me a forever lasting friendship: Elaine Bolton. I couldn't imagine having my first with someone else other than him.

And that's why it made me feel even more sad that Elaine wasn't returning the same feelings I had during our kiss.

The kiss still had me captivated. Never would I have dared to think about my best friend in such sort of way. But ever since I had a taste of him, since I could feel his skin against mine and feel what I've never felt before in my whole entire life, all I could think about was that damned kiss.

How he cupped my face in his warm rough hands, making tingles go down my spine and the goosebumps roll over my shoulder. And how the butterflies flew around inside my stomach, the magnified feelings swirled in my stomach or how my insides were burning from his touches. The urge to go through his dark hair, pull on them while kissing him as hard as I could as if my life depended on it. My body just screamed for-

Oh my god, Gray, stop being such a fool!

''Gray? Gray, hey!'' Matthew yells in my face which made me jump up. ''Sorry, you zoned out.. I had to get your attention'' He apologizes immediately.

''Oh my god, I'm so sorry Matthew..'' I laugh softly, getting up. ''Do you want another drink?'' I ask him, trying to be more friendly to him since I invited him in my house.

Poor Matthew, he deserved better..

''No, I just want you to stay here..'' He pulls me back by my hips which almost made me trip, but he caught me right on time which caused me to land against his chest.

''Here?'' I murmur softly, snuggling even more against his chest while enjoying his minty smell.

''Here..'' He whispers back.

He rubs my back as we stayed in each others arms, not saying anything. It wasn't weird nor awkward, it felt warm and comfortable. I wondered if Matthew was always like this with people since he had this natural safe atmosphere around him.

I don't know why but I didn't like the thought of Matthew doing this with other people.

''How about we go play a game? And no, not the stupid ones like my sister makes up at the party.. How about we ask each other three questions to get to know each other better?'' He suggests me, knowing it would take a while before Elaine came back after the party.

''Honestly, I love that plan! You start!'' I clap excitedly.

''How did you and Elaine become best friends? You two are so different..'' He laughs, looking a bit confused on that one which I understood cause he wasn't the only one.

''Elaine and I met in kindergarten.. I had the newest Marvel Spiderman toy and played with it on my own since I didn't really have friends. Spiderman was my favorite Avenger and still is, but apparently Elaine loved him as well even though he did have friends. He came to me, literally dropping all of his friends, and asked me if he could play with it too.. So we played with it together and that's how our friendship began.. Spiderman really brought us together..'' I laugh, smiling at the unique memory. Back then I would have never thought that we would become best friends.

''Wow.. That's actually pretty wholesome and funny at the same time..'' He smiles at me.

''It is huh? Alright! Now it's my turn! How do you even live with your sister?!''

What? I was really wondering.

''Honestly, I don't even know myself.. My parents are what really get me through it even though they don't see what kind of person she is.. It's horrible to see, because she acts like a devil to everyone but at home she acts like she is a goody two-shoes. I just kind of want to expose her, but I also don't want to disappoint my parent you know?'' He tells me, seemingly upset and frustrated with it.

''I'm sorry..'' I tell him genuine, rubbing his arm soft. ''I shouldn't have asked..''

''No, it's okay! Don't worry about it..'' He smiles, continuing with his next question. ''Why did you let Elaine kiss you?'' He asks me, seeming interested.

''I- uh..'' I stammer.

''I get it if you don't want to-''

''Stop silly! You answered my question about your sister, I answer yours!'' I tell him, thinking about my answer. ''I think it was because I didn't want to back out.. I mean I'm already such a big fool at school so I didn't want to be a bigger loser than I already was.. And also because it was Elaine.. In that moment it seemed like it was okay to do so..'' I smile, knowing I don't regret kissing my best friend.

''I get it..'' He smiles back at me while nodding. ''But there is one thing you should know.. To me you aren't a fool nor a loser Gray..''

The moment he said that I immediately looked into his bright grey eyes, noticing the twinkles in his eyes as he told me that. My stomach tingled from the sweet words while I couldn't help but look happy. This was the first time that someone besides Elaine seemed to like me for who I was.

''Thanks..'' I whisper, blushing a bit flustered so I try to change the subject as soon as I could. ''Anyway, my turn! What color boxers are you wearing?'' I ask with a slight smirk.

''What?! Why would you want to know that?!'' He burst out into laughter which made my heart beat faster.

''It's a very important question okay! Just answer me!'' I tell him, watching him amused at his reaction.

''Red..'' He tells me after a while, clearly trying to keep his laughter in.

Hmm.. Interesting choice..

''Now it's my turn right?'' He grins, thinking about his last question. ''What is the best compliment someone can receive?'' He asks me then.

''Good one.. I think the best compliment is when people tell you that you're pure.. There aren't many people who have those pure souls in a world like this..'' I explain him then.

Lately people only care about what's good for themselves or irrelevant things like fame or money. While life should be about achieving your most passionate goals and finding out what real love means.

''Beautiful one.. I agree with that!'' He tells me. ''Your turn Emmerson..'' He smirks cheeky while crossing his arms, seemingly ready for this question.

Well, I doubt that..

''Okay so now, I have one last question left!'' I grin cheekily, wanting to ask this ever since Matthew confessed he was gay and had a crush on me. ''Since when did you have a crush on me and would you date me?''