I awoke in a empty bed, I rolled over and I started to panic.
"Mads?" Where was she I thought, I ran into the living room and she was there cradling herself in her knees, tears were rolling down her face. I ran over to her and wrapped my arms around her.
"Whats wrong" I whispered into her ear. She pushed me away from her and turned to face me.
"My ... dad" I looked at her helpless face as she collapsed in my arms.
"Whats, whats wrong with your dad?" A moment of silence surrounded the room as if some one had just shot a gun. The only noise was the common sound of sirens rushing past.
"He's dead..." I didn't need to know any more I knew how close she was with her father I tried to soothe her crying but she wouldn't stop.
"That's why I need to be with my family... in Indiana" she cried out in distress avoiding eye contact completely, I took a deep breath annoyed but content.
I moved away and came to terms with the circumstances. I could never see my wife again. I'm 27 I'm married , I have a kid , and I'm going to be writing off for a divorce.
Tears rolled down my face, I pulled her so she was lying cradled with her head on my knees. I stroked her head. Silence continued.
I stopped crying so did Maddy, I solemnly thought of the pain and suffering that comes from leaving your loved ones for some thing else.
"When ?" I asked
"Tommorow" she cried.
"I think.... we should get a divorce, I still love you so much but I don't know if I'll ever see you again we can video call all the time... I will make this work but, will a marriage last." I took a single breath.
"Sure"
"Maddy, I think your pregnant"
*Time skip to a few months in fact almost a year*
I had felt so lonely without Maddy , we were back to video calling like before we had even met. It wasn't the same without her and Jamie. She had the other baby we decided to name her Melissa. Melissa Becky-Hayley Howell. Still I hadn't met her yet but she was beautiful, greeny bluey brown eyes like Jamie think brown curls and little chubby cheeks. She was born on the 8 of January. I wish I could have been there. Emma had now broken up with Phil because she was going on tour again. Alone. It was back to just me and Phil in the house.

"I'm gonna be filming a video now phil, just q little update in the living room! Come help PLEASE!" I called out to phil in the kitchen. He came in with his mouth stuffed with waffles and his hands sticky with syrup.
"Your not going to touch my camera with them hands!" I declared he shamefully swallowed his waffles and walked back to the kitchen. I pulled out my laptop from behind me and awnsered Maddy's Skype call.
"Hey just filming a video wanna watch?" I asked happily
"Sure" I set her down beside the camera.
Phil rushed back in and clicked record on the camera. 
" Hey internet so recently everyone has been asking
Hey Dan I lovvvvveeeee it that your uploading more but why and how come Maddy's not uploading as often???
Well it's very serious, as many of you know me and Maddy was married. I understand all of you angry badgers are gonna be giving me hate over this but... about a month later we got divorced. I still love her so much but her personal issues got in the way and now she's living a happy life with our two children. Yes Jamie has a little sister now! Her name is Melissa and she's nine months old. And Jamie's doing brilliantly he's started pre school or as you American lot call it kinder garden. She's living in Indiana perfectly!" I felt a tear roll down my face as I took a glance at Maddy cradling Melissa in her arms.
"So yeah it's only me and Phil now again, hopefully I will be seeing Maddy and the kids soon as I'm flying out in two days to see her !! She doesn't know yet tho!!" I muted the Skype call beforehand " see you next week internet!" I signaled to phil to end the video and stood up to take a deep breath. I didn't want to edit it and make it seem artificial so I just uploaded it to YouTube without a care in the world. The comments filled with sorrow and advice  for me and maddy , I felt my whole body become warm and tingly.
"Hey Phil wanna go out for a bubble tea?" I asked perkily.
"Yes!!" Phil exitedly shouted!
I hadn't been out of the house for a long time not that I ever am. But I need it.
" I'm vlogging!". Phil called out, I grabbed my coat and set outdoors.
The cold British air hit my face suddenly and sent a shiver down my back and tickled the hairs on my neck. Phil walked ahead of me and pulled out his small vlogging camera. We bought it a little while ago but it's never been put to good use , since we never go outside.
"Hey guys , as some of you may have seen some Abnormal incidents have been going down recently in the Howell lester house hold but Daniel has spoken about that on his channel that I'll link right here" I giggled as he did some weird hand gesture to the side of his face. I sped up as some fans recognised us and I wasn't in the mood.
" So we decided to head out for some bubble tea and a visit to China town! Danny boy come here." Phil continued as I got in shot
"Hey guys , soz bout the hobbit hair but irl can't be bothered to sort myself out... " I laughed at the camera brushing my wavy curls away from my eyes then providing to push open the door to bubble majik  , which is a shop that sells bubble tea. I turned around to phil who immediately threw the camera in his pocket to avoid confused looks from the other customers.  I approached the counter and ordered my drink then we left the shop. Time passed and after having a shop in Tokyo toys we headed home. By now it was dark and the night air was refreshing so we decided to hitch hike home. I walked down the quiet streets only being crossed by solemn cars that sprayed me with the dampness of the roads. The road was lit up orangey by beautiful suttle street lights, Phil had continued in the darkness to vlog using his flash light as a box light. It was at least 11:30 by the time we got in and I was exhausted. I tore off my clothes then jumped into bed when a Polaroid caught my eye. Maddy always used polaroids she said they were beautiful little moments captured on tiny peices of card. I picked it up and saw on it was the picture of me, Ellie , Jamie and maddy in the hospital. A tear fell down my face as I read the writing on the back.

Dan
I've never been good at goodbyes ,but I struggle to accept the fact memories will be lost forever in my mind when I move away with my family. Dan , I've always loved you, your beautiful and unique in the best of ways remember that! And I want you alive when I get back because you need to be a father to my children and a loving boyfriend to me. I care Dan and always have!
Xx Maddy

I tried to dry my face but water kept falling out of my eyes and before I knew it I was a crying mess in the corner of the room with Phil constantly reassuring me she will be back. But my mind kept going to this dark place.
What of the plane crashes? Is there someone else?
I couldnt handle myself ....