The pill was in my mouth and I was about to swallow when I realised before I leave I better notify my followers I spat the pill on the ground and grabbed the bottle of extra strength sleeping pills. I opened up instagram and clicked on the post icon I opened up the camera and saw the redness around my eyes , my skin was so pale I already looked lifeless from all of the crying. All of a sudden the floor felt so cold, I looked over at the stove where me and Phil filmed our baking videos... was it all a lie? I shook my head and dropped the pills on the floor. I picked up five from the big pile and popped them out of their silver containers. I held my had to my mouth and tilted my head back.

(Maddy's. POV)
I heard a rustling of things in the kitchen... Phil was asleep so I went to investigate. I crept down the hall and saw some one on their knees in the kitchen.
He had black hair and was wearing a recognisable white t shirt. It was Dan ... but what was he holding. I crept closer till I almost fainted with shock , Dan had the extra strong sleeping pills for when I was pregnant in his hand and there was empty packets on the floor he raised his hand to his mouth.

(Dans pov)
I felt each of the pills fall into my mouth I was about to swallow when someone jumped on my back. I spat out all of the pills accidently and turned around to see Maddy on the floor behind me sobbing. without saying anything I stood up and started to clear away the pills.
"Is. That. It." Maddy arose to her feet ,upset but not angry.
"What do you mean." I asked avoiding all eye contact starting to brush the pills into a pile.
"I mean that was it ... all that effort I put in to keep you alive all that I've done for you and the twins and this is how you repay me... by committing.." she began to wobble over her words I turned around and pulled her tight.
"But you don't care..." I whispered into her ear
"I care so much." She whispered back
I heard footsteps approach the door Phil was at the door and I saw his mouth drop.

I pulled away from Maddy and looked at Phil...
"I'm so sorry... I thought you didn't care." With that I took Maddy's hand and we went into the living room.
Phil was not interested in out friendship anymore...
I received a text on my phone

From Phil
Dan I care more than words can say more than Twitter would let you tweet don't ignore me I care don't try to pull anything like this again.

That was the last event of that day and I fell straight asleep. Thoughts ran around my mind like millions of kids trying to chase down a bus...