It had been at least a week since Dan and I last spoke. I guess it could have been the shock of me moving in , I'm not sure but whatever it was wasn't right ... After feeling extremely lonely I grabbed my phone and longingly gazed at my screensaver, the picture was Dan and I walking along Brighton beach one of the last times we saw each other before the agreement. I stared at the picture for a few minutes before quickly unlocking my phone , my hand was shaking ,nothing felt right and for once since I met Dan I felt my self, yet now I feel  sad and lonely . unable to fully move I rang Dan the soft voice I had always known awnsered; a single tear rolled down my cheek.
"Hey Maddy ..."
Dan must of heard me crying within seconds hes tone changed completely I sniffled so hard my nose hurt I slowly replied
" I need you ... Now "
And like that Dan was at my place , his warm arms wrapped around me.
" it will all go to plan , because I love you. And I'm true to you. " Dan whispered gently as I moved closer towards him as one final cold tear rolled down my face and two plump lips kissed my forehead as I whispered
" I missed you "
"Let's go back to mine, quick pack your bag were having a sleepover !" Dan replied in a perkier tone seeming exillerated willing to do anything to remove me from this depressed state I was in. So as any sane person would do I agreed and we got a cab over to Dans. In the cab Dan hulled a extra large bottle of Pepsi out of his rucksack as he placed his hand on the lid I purposely shoved it on to his lap
" AAH hey ... You " Dan giggled as he cleared the sodary mess I had created on his jeans I looked at him deep into his beautiful hazel eyes I was lost in the magnificent world that is Dan Howell just then as he leaned in I leaned in then ...
" argh " the cab driver hit a curb which made Dan spill the pepsi all over me. Eyes watering with laughter I threw the Pepsi back at him then we arrived cautiously stepping into the phan household I felt at home I knew this is where I wanted to spend my life. A few hours later after several games of guess who , camel up and monopoly Dan looked at me grabbed my hand and said "let's make it official "
And within seconds Dan  and Phil and I were sitting behind Dans laptop about to click a button then we would be live on younow where we where about to announce we were a couple and I was moving in. A few seconds of confirmation then
' click'
" hey guys , today I am going to be broadcasting something very special ... Thats why I have these lovely two with me " Dan explained turning the laptop to face me and Phil as I timidly turned red and gigled the words "hey guys" turning the audience back to him I felt red hot like I was about to explode I took three deep breaths then heard Dan mutter the words ..
" MADDYS MOVING IN "
As I watched the chat fill with questions for me I whispered to Dan
" give me a second " as I raced out of the room eyes flooding with tears as I realised I had anxiety, this many panic attacks  in a short amount of time couldn't be normal so I grabbed my water took a massive gulp and walked back into the room my feet tingled I still felt hot yet I had to go back in I could let Dan down. So time went by questions where asked I awnsered but all I could concentrate on was how I had failed Dan and I truly did believe that I had completely failed. I guess I'm not made for this kind of pretending my life is fine all of the time... I wonder where my life is leading? After Dan and I filmed a few videos we noticed the time
"Wow 10:00 already oh well ... Let's watch a movie ...mmm let's see " Dan carefully looked at you as you simultaneously spoke the words
"Captain America vs batman " in fits of laughter Dan threw his dinosaur onsie at you and said:
"Wear this then we will be like ... Twinzies "
"Twinzies forever " I laughed ....
As the night passed by the film ended me and dan where snuggled up in his sofa crease he sat there with my head on his lap as he said to me
" we are gonna have a family you know Maddy " I raised my head and stared into his eyes
" I bet you we are " I replied , I leaned in Dan grabbed my waist dragged me closer as we embraced it was one of the best moments of my life there was no depression , no anxiety nothing but pure bliss ... But the memories where still there...