What is depression..

Something that happens without cause..?
No.

Something that people use for attention?
No.

Guess what.

Depression is a painful thing that won't go away so easily.

Like when your so happy but..
...

But then..
Next thing you know how screaming in your mind telling for the world to stop...
Tears stream down your face and you have no one to go to..
It really hurts and no one notices it..

You step up and hear those voices playing in your head starting off so softly until they're screaming into your mind..

STUPID!
IDIOT!
WHY WOULD ANYONE LOVE YOU!?
JUST GO DIE!
YOU SHOULD HAVE WAITED A LITTLE LONGER SO THAT CAR COULD HIT YOU!
YOU SHOULD HAVE NOT BEEN THE LITTLE WIMP YOU ARE AND TAKE THAT KNIFE AND JAB INTO YOUR STOMACH!

they won't stop until they're satisfied..

YOU WERE A MISTAKE!
I know..

FATASS!
I'll stop eating again..

GO DIE!
I'm trying..

Do you not know how painful that is..?

Depression is a game that in the end you win or lose.
You..
You win or die...

Many people are still playing..

Life is sick and twisted but we all still live in it.

Depression isn't something you should play with.

Meet someone with it they'll tell you and people in the past probably just say omg I'm so sorry. Next thing you know they forget about it.

Depression isn't something people use for attention people won't use this REAL problem for attention. If they do they don't have depression.

You could test them by being mean and they'll probably say
Gee thanks you made my depression a whole lot worse.
That's lying, they WANT the attention.

Pain is not physical.
It's mental.

You can't hurt what's already broken but you can.

You can.. Oh you can..

You can break a vase..

They break into pieces.. Then you can stomp on them.. Smash them..
Into tiny little pieces..
Burn them into dust...

Until they go into the wind..

Until they end..

Depression.
Is a dark deep hole.. A dark void..
The deep end of a pool.. The bottom of the great big ocean..

Your drowning in the water..
Your floating in one place in the dark..
Your laying down in the dark..

You can't breathe..
Then you look around you..
Everyone else is breathing..
They're breathing..
While your struggling..

They're smiling while your..
While your forcing it.
When they ask what's wrong you out on your best "smile" and say.
Oh! Hehe sorry just zoned out.

It's exhausting..

Sometimes you lay there thinking.

I'm tired..

So tired..

Then you close your eyes..

Wishing to not wake up.

Most of you do..

Little..

Little.. Don't..

And sadly.. I still wake up..

That.. Is depression.

And it hurts..

This is hard to post..
It's always been hard to post..

-true