Chapter Twelve: I Didn't Know What I Was Missing
*******Namjoon's POV*******
I stared at him in shock, not sure what to do or say. I opened my mouth a few times, then closed it. I probably looked like an idiot, but I really didn't know what to do. He's done a complete 180 so quickly, just from us taking a walk together.
I must have stayed silent too long, because he looked down at the ground.
"I'm sorry," he told me. He was quiet and sounded sad. "I shouldn't have said that. You don't have to."
He tried to pull his hand out of mine, but I gripped it tighter so that he couldn't.
"Namjoon, let go of me," he said, pulling at his hand again.
"I will not."
"Please," he said, his voice rough like he was trying not to cry. I looked at his eyes and saw the wateriness of tears at the corners. "Just let me go."
I shook my head and tugged on his hand instead, pulling his body up against me and finally releasing his hand like he asked, but only so that I could cup his face in both of my hands and tilt his head back so that he was looking at me.
"I never want to let you go," I told him, then I lowered my mouth to gently press my lips to his.
Two things happened when our lips touched. One, an electric spark shot from my lips, down through my body. And two, I felt my wolf sigh happily in my head.
Isaac grabbed the sides of my shirt to hold onto for a moment, then slid his hands around my back as I tilted my head to the side and deepened the kiss.
If I thought I was straight before, I definitely didn't think that now.
Kissing Isaac was like nothing I had ever experienced before. It was like a part of me that I didn't even know was missing had finally been fit into place. It was like two halves of one soul had finally found each other. Which, I guess is technically true.
One thing was for absolute certain: I was done. This man was it for me.
When I pulled back so that we could both breathe. Neither one of us let go. We just stared at each other.
"You're a Beta," Isaac said breathily.
I smiled at him and nodded my head. "I am. And you are my Omega."
I didn't know until I kissed him what his sub-gender was. But I know for sure now.
He nodded his head. "Yeah..."
"But you're still uncertain if you want a mate, aren't you?" I asked him.
He sighed and shook his head. "To be honest, I don't know how I feel right now. I've been stuck in that mindset for so long, that it's hard to come out of. But at the same time, you make me feel..."
He trained off like he couldn't find the word, so I filled it in for him, based on what I felt when I kissed him.
"Complete?"
He smiled at me and nodded his head. "Yeah. That's exactly it."
I smiled back at him and he pulled one of his hands from behind my back and reached up to my face. He hesitated a moment, but then he brushed his thumb over one of my dimples. He did it again, then slid his hand into the hair on the back of my head and pulled me down towards him, pressing his lips against mine again.
I moved my hands from his face and around his waist, pulling him as close to my body as I could. As I licked across his bottom lip, he parted them and I slid my tongue over his, exploring his mouth with a soft groan. His fingers tightened in my hair and he held my mouth to his. Not that it was necessary. I wasn't going anywhere.
I took a step forward, forcing him to step backwards, repeating the process until I had him backed up against a tree. When he felt the bark hit his back, it was his turn to groan.
Interesting. Seems like my little mate likes a bit of pain and dominance. I'll have to remember that for later.
I moved my mouth from his and kissed along his jawline, then down his neck. My beta came out a little bit and I nipped at the juncture of his neck and shoulder with my teeth. This caused him to moan as he leaned his head back against the tree. That sound coming out of him was almost my complete undoing. I had to remind myself and my wolf that we were standing where anyone could walk by and find us, and I couldn't take him and mate him right then and there.
I have never fought so hard to control myself in my life.
I pulled my lips away from his skin and leaned my forehead to his shoulder, breathing heavily. He ran his fingers through my hair several times, and it relaxed both me and my wolf.
"Having some control issues?" He asked me quietly.
"More than you know," I said. I leaned back up to my full height and looked down at him. "You...your mouth...your skin...taste so fucking good."
This made him giggle as he looked back at me.
"How's your wolf?" I asked him out of curiosity.
"Still caged, but it's like the bars are getting rusty," he said. "I don't think it will take much more for him to break through."
I took a deep breath and nodded my head, stepping back from him and offering him my hand. "Let's get you back before he breaks through completely, then."
He frowned, looking at my hand, then back up at me. "Isn't that what you and your wolf want?"
I shrugged my broad shoulders. "It's what my wolf wants. But you want the cage in place, and I want what you want. I don't want to force things that you aren't comfortable with, yet."
He smiled and finally took my hand, taking a step towards me and leaning up on his tiptoes to kiss my jaw.
"If it helps, I liked you forcing me up against the tree," he said, nodding towards it.
"I noticed." I couldn't help but chuckle at his admission. "You let out the sexiest little groan that I've ever heard in my life."
He blushed and covered his face with his free hand. "Stop."
I reached up and pulled his hand away from his face. "Don't ever hide yourself from me, Isaac. Please. I liked it. It let me know that I was doing something right. Something you liked."
"You did a lot of things right just now," he admitted. "I'm glad you found some control, because I was about to lose mine."
I laughed at him. "I could tell. It was sending Osian into a frenzy."
"I'm sure that it was," he said. We started walking back towards the golf cart again. "It was the closest to the surface Delwyn has been in years." He paused and looked up at me. "Was it only your wolf in a frenzy?"
I caught onto what he meant and shook my head. "No. It absolutely was not just him. It was me, too."
"Even though you've only ever been into women?" He asked.
I watched as he quirked an eyebrow at me in curiosity. It was so cute that it distracted me from where I was walking and I tripped over a rock, almost falling down, but he caught me and helped me get my balance.
Once I righted myself, I stared at him for a moment, then leaned down and gave him a quick kiss.
"Clearly, I didn't know what I was missing."
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A/N: As I edit this story before I post each chapter, I realized how much I really like this one. I mean, I like all of my stories, or I wouldn't post them and force them on my readers. But this series as a whole so far...it's fun. I like it. I hope you do, too. -------Kat
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