6-28-18
Leave me at the foot of the forest,
The foot of your bed,
And I ask if it's the figures
At the door, or in my head,
That really are to blame.
You watch and you wait,
And you see it- as the pain
Hits my body, like a blade,
I'm a ways
Away from numb,
Childhood memories
Stripped down to nothing
Lack the love.
The dawn and the bulb,
No chain,
No loss, and no guarantee you gain,
Take my bones
And leave me alone
At the bottom of the shower,
Where I'll swim,
And I saw you there,
Years too late,
You explain
The spoons and the tin,
The alcohol we split,
Let it seep into the ground
And seek the place you found,
Beneath the cross.
And she's a heathen,
Took my thoughts
I'm at a loss,
And if I could talk to god
I'd tell him
There's no gain,
No fucking way,
It's all just push,
To the shove,
Robbery of love,
What kind of mask
Would you wear,
Would you hide?
As the bad man,
A hood and a smile,
Bleed my heart along the walls,
Like drips from your cigarettes,
And call,
You'd be drunk,
And tell me it's on me,
So it's a closet where I bunk,
I'd like to be,
Closer to myself,
But I'm in murky waters,
Where we cut off the ties,
But you'll want me around soon,
A centerpiece to your lies,
I reside
Next to peep,
Next to music
And the houses from my sleep,
I swear I keep
Tabs,
Lose myself in the glass,
From my grandma,
Cobalt blue, all class,
And if I could drain the last pieces
Of the past,
Keepers of the love,
I'd give it to one,
You've endured too much,
And I can't save you
Like a photo,
A photos not enough,
And I'm a rear view image of mistake,
And what does it really take
To come and go
And own the blame,
Like I do,
Think I don't,
But you don't know
About the theft,
About the death,
About the road
From the lights
With a friend,
And I miss you
You wanna see it end,
So leave me at the edge,
A familiar kind of friend,
I'll be all on my own,
And for myself, I'll have to fend.
⁃ (m.m)