It was our group therapy session and I felt sick. My hands were clammy and it felt like the walls were getting closer to me. I was tapping my foot and playing with the bracelet I had on and it felt like everyone was looking at me. I knew they weren't, but I was getting paranoid.

"Who wants to speak next?" Poppy asked and she looked around the faces in the group. It was only a small group, and I had never spoken. Taehyung spoke a lot but that was because he was better at it. I never wanted to talk about why I was there or the reason why I started being a troublemaker "Jungkook?"

Jungkook looked up and sighed "Alright...I guess"

I was grateful that the group only consisted of my friends, plus Hoebag and his friends. The group had become smaller because Poppy thought it was better this way. It made everyone want to talk because we were closer than the other lot. It still didn't stop the pain in my chest when I thought it was my turn to talk.

"I guess I just got into the wrong crowd" Jungkook shrugged "I don't really have a backstory. I have alright parents and they support me"

"What made you want to rebel?" Poppy asked.

Jungkook bit into his lip "I was trying to impress a girl"

I looked over at him and noticed his cheeks were pink. Wait, was he talking about Hana? Oh my god, he was going to confess.

"What made you think she would want the bad boy type?"

"Because she always went for that type," He said, rubbing the back of his neck "She was always nice to me but her eyes were always on the guys who could fight and protect her"

"I see" Poppy said, "And where did that get you with her?"

"It didn't" Jungkook said, "She still had eyes for someone else and I could never fight him. He's much...he was much stronger than me. I'm not scared of him I just don't want to get beat up"

"Jungkook, do you still have feelings for her?"

"I won't stop having feelings for her" Jungkook said quietly, "I love her but I can't tell her that"

Jimin and I glanced at each other, before turning our attention back to Jungkook, who was bright red in the face.

"Can I ask why?" Poppy asked.

Jungkook sighed "Because she is in love with someone else. But he is a dick and he doesn't know how to treat her"

"I see" Poppy said, "Do you mind if I ask you something else?"

"Go for it" Jungkook mumbled.

"If you could confess to her, what would you say?"

Jungkook shrugged "I don't know because I will never do it"

"Why is that?"

"Because I know she doesn't love me back" Jungkook snapped "Is that all? I'm done talking about this"

Poppy smiled "That was very brave of you Jungkook. I'm glad you have made some progress. That is all for-"

"Wait," I said, interrupting her "I...I think I should talk today"

Everyone turned to look at me, and I looked anywhere but there faces. The silence was horrible but I needed to talk. It was about time I spoke about my past. They were my friends and they needed to know the truth.

"I'm a little bit surprised," Poppy said, "But I won't stop you. Just remember that if you can't talk anymore, just say what Jungkook said"

I nodded and stared at my bracelet "My parents were abusive. They neglected me...my brother and I" I took a deep breath "You all know that but..." I paused "My brother killed himself, which you also knew about but I was...I was..."

"It's alright Harley," Hana said, reaching over to hold my hand.

I wiped away the tears and began to talk "I saw him do it. I saw him die. I didn't stop him. I only did something when he was too far gone to be saved. I remember everything and I have nightmares every night"

"Harley" Poppy said, "Do you feel guilty for not helping?"

"Yeah," I said "I feel fucking guilty because I could have stopped him, but I was...I was scared"

"You know Harley," Poppy said, "What happened wasn't your fault. Your brother did what he thought was best for him. You know that he was very sick to be able to do that"

"Yeah"

"But it isn't his fault either. Sometimes things are so bad that they don't think about anything else but ending it all" She said gently "Depression is a horrible illness and it has taken the lives of many. But you should know that he isn't suffering anymore. He has found peace and I'm sure that he is looking down on you"

"He wouldn't be proud of me. I've done shit that not even-"

"I'm sure that's not true," Poppy said, and I looked at her "Harley, you have made mistakes. Everyone in this room has made mistakes, but that doesn't take away the fact that we are all human. Your brother will be proud of what you have done, whether it be getting into a fight or making new friends. Nothing you have done defines you as a person"

I shrugged.

"I want everyone to listen to what I have to say," Poppy said, "At the end of the day, we are all humans. If humans weren't meant to make mistakes, then where would the fun be? Yes, you are all here because of the mistakes you have made. But I don't think that should stop you from living your dreams. Hana, when you leave school, what do you want to be?"

"Me?" Hana asked and folded her arms "I never really thought about it. I mean, I did at one point want to be a teacher, but I don't think I have the patience"

"Hoseok, what do you want to be?"

"Uh" He said, and rubbed the back of his neck "You're all going to laugh"

"If anyone laughs then they will have to deal with me," Poppy said, with a smile.

Hoebag sighed "Everyone knows that my parents run a mafia, but I don't want anything to do with it. I never have and since my...shit, since my sister died I hated it even more"

"Shit" I heard Jungkook whisper.

"Yeah" Hoebag said "Shit. But I'm over it...kinda"

"Hoseok, what do you want to do?" Poppy asked.

He sighed "I've always loved dancing. Laugh at me if you want, but it was an escape for me. Especially after losing my sister and getting away from my gangster family. I wanted to open my own dance studio and...oh for fuck sake. Why are you all looking at me with pity? Do you want me to beat the shit out of you?"

I laughed and they all looked at me "Well, it's better than what I wanted to be"

"And what is that?" Namjoon asked, with a smirk "A wife of the owner of a dance studio?"

My whole body burnt and I took my shoe off and launched it at his head. It bounced off and he glared at me, rubbing his forehead.

"Harley" Poppy sighed "Was that needed?"

"Yeah!" I said pointing at him "He's a dick"

"Maybe so, but you didn't need-"

"Hear that? Poppy thinks you're a dick as well"

"Yeah? Well, you sucked this dick" Namjoon said, winking at me.

"Ok, that does it," I said jumping to my feet "I'm about to send your ass into outta space!"

"Children!" Poppy said loudly "Enough. I'm not letting you fight. Stop. Now. Harley, what did you want to be?"

I sighed and the boys let my arms go "If you laughed at Hoebag, then you are sure to piss yourselves at the dream I used to have"

"Amuse me princess" Jin said.

I sighed and folded my arms "I wanted to be a penguin"

A/N: I just have to point this out...I am LOVING how you are all calling Hoseok 'Hoebag'

It honestly tickled me hahaha

And Harley's old dream? That is actually what I used to want to be when I was younger

A fucking penguin