I have to let you go now. I have to let go of the feelings i have for you. I have to stop admiring you, adoring you and even loving you with my whole heart.
I have to because my heart cant take it anymore. Because I'm tired of all the mixed signals you give me.

I'm tired of listening to sad songs and weeping all throughout. I'm tired of all the nonsense conversations that only happen once a while.
I need to let you go now.

 tried to stop loving you. So i built walls around my heart and found another names to whisper during the night, but you carved yourself in my veins...even if you meant to, or not.
And sometimes, i wonder if you remember the way we looked at eachother
...or maybe you forgot.

You gave me your word. You filled me with hope and security. You told me the things i needed to hear to take the chance and make the jump with you. You made me feel like I was worth it, I was who you wanted.
But you shattered that all quite well. You couldnt take it anymore. You turned around and left me falling without you.

More than anyone I have lost, you will always be the most missed. You took up alot of my heart, and you've taken some parts with you. And after that, my heart seems incomplete without you. Sometimes i just feel like texting you, just to check up on you. But what good is in that? It'll only open up the wounds more.

The feeling of missing someone hurts, but not knowing how they are and what they're doing...that really gets me..

I'll never forget the way you looked at me that made me feel so special. All the words that you said to me that melted my heart. The way you put me before everything else.
But also, I'll never forget the way you tore me apart. The way you left me like it didnt matter. I'm not sure which is worse, the fact that you destroyed me, or the fact that i thought you never would.

"Its their loss." They told me. But to you, you didnt lose anything. You just weren't interested anymore.

But me? I felt like i lost my whole world. I lost every kiss we ever shared, every hand i ever held. I lost it all. But worst of all, i have to walk around everyday still loving you, still needing you. And hopefully someday you'll realise that the worst thing in life was losing me, losing someone who loved you and gave the world to you.

I'm still in shock of how you could've left things so abruptly.
But sometimes, i guess, you just dont get any closure. You dont get a reason why, you just get a broken heart that stings.

But yeah, just because we dont talk anymore, doesnt mean that I've forgotton about you. It doesnt mean that i no longer care. Truth is, I still do. I do my best to check up on you. To see how you're doing, to see if you're okay. But everytime i get the urge to talk to you; it suddenly hits me...we're strangers.

You dont want me in your life, hence the reason why I'm no longer a part of you. But even though everything is changed, I just want you to know; I'm here for you. I'll still be here for you. I'll still lend you my shoulders and my ears.

I dont care what time it is, what I'm doing. Dont hesitate to talk to me because half the time, I wish you were talking to me.

We had a good run, but its over now. I just want to say thank you for all the memories and times we shared. I wont forget about you, i promise. You showed me love when i had none in me. You showed me love and i will forever be grateful for that. But...

                                                                 We must part ways now.

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