This might be the most confusifying fanfic I'll ever make. I hope you guys bear with me...Hehe if you get it, then you're really smart! Good for you. If you don't...then..oh well :(

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~Connor's POV~

Me and my amazing, my everything, the most wonderful, the most handsome- I er uh..Right. Anyways..My friend...Yeah I know that's sad, I really want him to be mine, but how can I if I think he might have a crush on my sister and not me... 

We're going to a friendly date. In which I hope I can remove the 'friendly' because I don't want it to be. I'm preparing myself, fixing my hair and my clothes. I feel myself shaking while walking to his house. I know I shouldn't be nervous, but I feel like I'm going to mess this up. Even though he's my best friend what if I mess something up?

I go to knock on the door slowly. Ms.Hansen opens it. "Oh hey Connor, Evan would be ready in a minute. Please come in!" She said sweetly, I smiled as I made my way to the couch. I heard footsteps from the stairwell and I looked back to see Evan adorably walking down the stairs. I could stare ( STAIR ) at him for hours. 

"Hey Ev!" I said smiling, he smiles back and he hugged me. I blushed and hugged back. "L-let's go?" I nodded and we said our goodbyes to Ms.Hansen. I opened the door of my car, for Evan to walk in. We both drove off to the orchard.

I parked the car, upon arriving. We both walked to the usual tree we did stuff together. "So, how's life?" He asked looking at me. I smiled and thought for a while. After I met him my life's all about him ever since. 

Then I suddenly remembered the tension between me and my sister. We always fought, even though I didn't want it to be that way. She doesn't really believe I stopped being high, ever since me and Evan met. "Well...Me and my sister are still in the same situation." I looked down. 

"Oh...I'm sorry about that." He paused for a while. "If..Maybe you can tell her anything that's nice, and that might resolve something between you two. What will you say?" His voice was so comforting, I know I can trust him. "Well...There's nothing like her smile, sort of subtle and perfect, and real." I said starting off. I knew I was talking about my sister.

For some reason I got lost in Evan's  amazing eyes and I was suddenly not talking about my sister anymore. I was talking about him... "Yo- I mean uh, SHE never knew how wonderful that smile could make someone feel." 

"Go on." He said smiling cutely, somehow interested in this. we both moved closer together. "Well...I knew, whenever she gets bored she scribble stars on the cuffs of her jeans." I chuckled suddenly remembering my sister again. "And I noticed, that she still fills out the quizzes that they put in those teen magazines." 

I smiled and looked at him once again. I got lost in thought and started to say some things that was from my heart. "But I kept it all, inside my head. What I saw, I left unsaid. And though I wanted to. I could talk to yo-HER. I couldn't find a way." I held his hand.

"But I would always say. 'If I could tell you, tell you everything I see. If I could tell you, how your everything to me. But we're a million worlds apart, and I don't know how I would even start. If I could tell her." I shook my head, I wasn't talking about my sister anymore. "Do you wanna say anything else?" He said smiling moving closer to me.  I started to think about I will say to my sister again and not end up talking about Evan.

"Well, I said so many things I'm just trying to remember the best ones." I said finding time to think of what to say. "Uhm..I thought...Yo-SHE looked really Handso- Pret- Errr uh...It looked pretty cool. When she placed indigo streaks in her hair." I kept on stuttering. 

"Aww." His expression looked so adorable. "Oh! And I wondered how she learned to dance, like all the rest of the world isn't there." I smiled. Remembering how I reacted with Evan ever since we became friends. "But I kept it all. Inside my head,what I saw I left unsaid. If I could tell you. Tell you everything I see. If I could tell you. How you're everything to me." I looked up, seeing the beautiful view of the trees.

"But we're a million worlds apart. And I don't know how I would even start. If I could tell you. If I could tell you. But what do yo do, when there's this great divide." I suddenly heard him speak as well. "You just seem so far away." I smiled. "And what do you do, when the distance is too wide?" 

"It's like she might now know anything." He chuckled and I laughed. "So how would I say...I miss you....I like you...I tried to...I love you...." I feel my face move closer to his. My voice got softer. "But we're a million worlds apart. And I don't know how I would even start...If I could tell you." I said slowly moving closer to him.

I suddenly feel his lips pressed onto mine. I was shocked my eyes so wide. I suddenly pulled away. "OH MY GOD I'M SO SORRY!" I said standing up quickly. 

~Evan's POV~

A few months? or days later. Connor...He... He did it...After a few days from the funeral I always stayed in his room. Zoe went inside the room. "What are you doing here?" She asks I looked at her wiping my eyes. "Well, I just thought I needed to be here more. I missed...Him..A lot..." I said feeling tears stream down my face once again.

"You know...I always wished me and him would..Be more closer?" She says softly. I suddenly remembered that time when me and Connor hang out. I blushed and tried to say something so she will feel better. "Well, he did thought we were, awesome." 

"He thought I was awesome? My brother?" I smiled and started.

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A/N:

Sorry for killing Connor in the end, but at least they kissed? I don't know. What do you mean why am I crying? This? No, this is not tears! These are...liquid pride! Yeah...yeah liquid pride. 

So I need to go and wash my face now...Bye!