Ello! Long time no see ( update ) sorry guys. I've been going through a lot. It'd be nice if y'all send something funny, or something? Idk Teenagers I guess lololol Buuuttt anyways on with a story!

Warning...Due to my sadness and heartbreak rn I'm doing an angst story :>

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Connor and Evan are sitting on top of a tree branch watching the sunrise fall. Both of them calm, watching the world pass by for forever. They were resting from balancing school and family. 

It's funny though...After a few months of meeting each other, they'd always fight. But at the end of everything, they'll act as if nothing happens. They're back to being friends. They became inseparable.

And now, they're being two best friends sitting on a tree. But recently, Evan's been developing feelings he knew he shouldn't be having for his best friend.He knew he had out let it out somehow, one way or another. 

Connor placed an arm around Evan's shoulders. Like the usual thing they do as best friends. "Hey." Connor smiled. His smile was only for Evan to see. "Heyoo" Evan said, too tired so kinda sounded drunk. Connor chuckled at the sound. 

'Ok Evan, it's now or never I guess. You've been planning this.You can do this just..BE H O N E S T.' Evan looked away, clearly embarrassed."Ok so...I'm gonna be blunt. I have feelings for Connor Murphy." 

'Fern Fern Fern why did I say that?! He's not responding...I mean of course he won't IT'S EVAN But...I have no idea what's going on inside his head and it's just scary Feerrnnnn ahhh This is going to be awkward. ' Evan said inside his head.

"Uhm...Connor...?" He flinches. He doesn't pull away from me thankfully. But he IS giving a huge scary silent treatment. "...Sorry...I just....I'm speechless, I have no idea what else to say." He pulls me in a hug closer. Does this mean he likes me back or...? 

"I mean, you don't have to answer back, I guess I just needed to let it all out." Connor is still not talking. "Uh....This isn't going to be awkward between us right? I'm sorry for making it awkward. I still wanna be friends." I looked at Connor and he smiles even more and nods.

 "Of course. I actually...Well...I...Uh" I'm surprised. Like..Really! This is the first time I've seen Connor real nervous about something. Even after all our fights when we would apologize to each other, he's never this nervous.

~~~~~~T I M E  S K I P~~~~~~

~Connor's P.O.V~

It's been a week ever since Evan's confession. And I'll be honest. I swore to myself hat I'd like anyone who would like me first I would eventually like them back. Maybe because I knew and sure that no one would actually like someone like me. And now...I think I am starting to like him a bit.

I may be strong, but I think I am a bit too much of a coward to tell him how I really feel. So I'd watch how this goes. 

As of now we're still best friends doing our best friends stuff. But this time, Evan is more touchy. It's fine though, I like it. I like how he's holding me in his arms. It's a weird kind of feeling, and I love every single bit. Some times I would hug him first, let's be honest here I can't resist his adorableness he's so...Perfect. Something I haven't seen in him before. 

....What's wrong with me?!

I see Jared across the hall by the door calling for me. He's Evan's friend so I'm just doing everything to get along with him. We're not really that close, but he was the first one who actually told me Evan likes me. I never told Evan I knew though. I waited for the moment he'd confess, and wow I never knew it would be last week. I wasn't expecting it.

"What do you want Jared." I said in a monotone voice. I seriously have no time for this, I'm supposed to be with Evan at the library reading about trees. I know, weird, but I have fun with him.

"Ok so, who knew Evan was actually bisexual! He has another crush." Jared whispered, and it made m heart ache. 

...What?! WHO?! But...He's...Mine-

"Who?" I tried to sound calm as possible, as if I didn't care. I kept convincing myself that I didn't care at all. "You sister." He whispered back. "WHAT?!?!" I screamed accidentally. "ShshHSh! Don't scream it out loud you'll be noticed. I have no idea why or how but he told me directly and if you don't believe me feel free to ask him yourself, but I doubt it won't be awkward."

As much as I didn't want to believe this statement I was forced to. Now my heart and mind are arguing with each other and I feel really really down as I walk down the hall to the library. This is basically what's happening:

Mind: Ok, at least now you can stop liking him right?

Heart: What Happened to him calling you, 'his'?

Mind: He's definitely cheating you! 
Heart: No he's not...Maybe he'll eventually let her go and still be with you.

I feel so dizzy as I sat down beside bae- I mean Evan. He's not...Anyone else right now rather than a friend. That's all, nothing more nothing less. Or so I thought...

"Oh Hey Connor, are you alright?" He reaches his hands for me to hold. Instead of grabbing it I hugged him tight, like it'll be the last time I'll ever hold him. I don't want to let go of him. He's...Mine...

"Hey. Sorry I was late, I needed to do something." He nods as he returns to his book reading. I'm not really a fan of reading except if it's me and Evan who's reading. I just really like being close to him. So I pull out my phone and earphones. I turn on some music so I don't have to calm down. 

~A few days later~

He told me...

He...

He told me he likes Zoe. And I'm so confused. "Why?! I mean...How?" I asked trying to hide my depressed thoughts. I think this will be a start of our new fight. I know, because of our pride we'd always fight. I'll be honest, I hate fighting with him and every time we do it just hurts. I'm tired of crying...

"I don't know. She's just...Beautiful there's something about her."

O U C H

Ok that really hurts...Why?! This??? This isn't supposed to hurt me... But... I want him to be happy. So I smiled and grabbed his hand and pulled him out the library. I went inside the music room. I knew Zoe would be here.

... This is the right thing to do right? They've never really been friends! Right let's start a friendship. "Zoe!" "Ugh, what do you want Connor? We're practicing our new song." She rolls her eyes. This is our usual greeting, we don't exactly get along that much.

"I want you to meet my friend. His name is Evan" I smile and letting them meet. And as I predicted Evan's hands are really sweaty. I looked at him being so nervous, he's adorabl- I mean no he's...he's sweaty. Yeah that's what he is...Sweaty.

They shake hands, I saw Evan wiping his palms before and after. I find it funny. Great, they're friends now. 

After a few minutes of talking to each other we take our leave. Lunch is over, time to go back to classes. Good thing we'd always have our classes together. "Oh God, did you see that? Her voice was so sweet." Oh well, it's confirmed he's so into her. I guess I'd have to go against my sister. 

I never really got to ask what's our position ever since he told me he likes me. I mean, of course I would date him. I like him... I mean he IS sweet...Cute...And Oh God I like him. I'm so Gay for him oh God.

We walk out together after classes. I guess we'll just go to our usual spot in the forest. We both placed our bags down and climbed up the tree where he confessed to me. I could almost cry from the memory. I feel so fooled. What is wrong with me? I didn't like him before. What happened between us? We're good friends right? 

...Right?????

~After a few weeks~

Evan and Zoe are close friends now. He's now basically telling her everything, some of them I didn't even know. I feel like months of our friendship was wasted. What happened, how the hell did he trust someone he just met for a few days over a friend who's been here for him for months or years even!

There was even one time I had to leave them together cuz I felt so alone. He didn't even realize I was gone. What happened to us? I mean....At least He's happy...

I skipped school for the day. I needed to be alone, I can't concentrate on anything else. I went out and walked to the forest and climbed on our tree. Then I did something I never did in front of anyone else except in front of Evan...

I cried. I screamed. I just lost a dear friend, what happened? Everything is falling apart. He told me he liked me...Oh...right...

...He likeD me....It's all in the past now. I wanted to jump off this tree. But I can't just kill myself, I want to be there for him. Am I even visible to him anyway? No, I should stop. I shouldn't care anymore. He's just a person...

I can't see anything everything is blurry because of the tears that's over flowing from my eyes. I hate this...

...What should I do?

~After a few MORE weeks~

"CONNOR! OH MY GOD YOU ARE NEVER GOING TO BELIEVE WHAT HAPPENED!" I clench my heart. Why is he doing this to me? Is he even thinking? Oh wait...I never really told him how I felt, it's my fault. "What?"

"WE CONFESSED TO EACH OTHER!!! I feel so helpless I'm so in love oh Gooooddd" I could almost die at the spot. I smiled. Juts for him. "Good for you. I'm so happy for you." I tried to smile wider. He used to know how I move. He knows if I'm faking or not. He doesn't react and thought it was a genuine smile.

"Thank you so much for helping me. I really owe you one." I punched myself in my head.This??? This is cringe! I want to punch my sister in the face. H.A.R.D.

The bell rang. Evan hugs me. "I love you so much. Thank you." I pulled away and smiled. I walked to the bathroom. I went inside one of the stalls and cried silently making sure no one's hearing me. 

I whispered.

 "At least your happy. I love you Evan..."

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:P Yeah no sorry bye~ 

Don't kill me Luv u all.