Previously on Chapter 41

But my mind went to Tsukasa after he said the man that owns my heart. My eyes sadden at the thought of him. Tsukasa... I miss you.

-Missing You-

Y/N P.O.V

Ryusui is getting on my nerve. He's so bossy and keeps wanting everything he sets his eyes to. He even claimed the ship that we need in order to find the source of the petrification. If he's going to make it harder for Senku to bring Tsukasa back, I'll make him sorry.

I watch from a distance as Ryusui keeps claiming everything he sees. I let out a sigh, feeling slightly annoyed at Senku. He's the one who chose him without a second thought. He didn't even consult with the rest of us and just pours the revival fluid on him.

Senku walks over to me. I turn to look at him and crossed my arms across my chest. "I swear Senku. If Ryusui's going to make it difficult for us to bring Tsukasa back. I'll give him a piece of my mind and it's not going to end well" I said, threateningly. He let out a chuckle at my comment.

"Trying to sound tough isn't your thing Y/N. You're the sweetest girl everyone would know. That's why I love you..." he said, whispering the last sentence. But I can still hear what he said. My eyes widened as I just stare at him. He seem to realize that I've heard him.

"Forget what I said, Y/N. It's not a big deal..." he said, patting my shoulder softly. He turns around and walks away to supervise their work. I just shake my head, trying to get what he said out of my head. I shouldn't be feeling this way. I should focus more on waiting for Tsukasa to come back. He's all that I need. I turn around and walks away.

Senku P.O.V

I turn my head in time to see Y/N walking away to the direction of Tsukasa's cave. I let out a sigh as I look down. It's true that we only know how much someone truly meant to us when we lost them.

I feel a hand on my shoulder. I turn my head to see Gen. "If you love her that much. Don't let her go... try your best to win her back..." he said. I just shake my head at what he said.

"She loves Tsukasa and will do whatever it takes to wait for his return. I stood no chance. The least I can do is find a way to bring the man she loves back..." I said. He just huff at what I said.

"What happened to the confident Senku? You're the one who said we don't know if we can do it if we don't try. And here you are... already giving up even without trying" he said. I let out a sigh at what he said.

"Even if I do have a chance with her. I'm worried that I might ended up hurting her again. That's all I've been doing to her..." I said. He just sighs at what I said and walks away, without a word. I watch as he walks away and look forward, observing everyone's works.

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Y/N P.O.V

It's nighttime, but I can't fall asleep. Each time I close my eyes, an image of Tsukasa's face came into mine. From the way he smiles, to the painful look he had when the spear pierced through her chest.

I move to sit up. I turn my head to the side to see Mirai sleeping next to me. I lift my hand and gently run it through her hair, as she sleeps peacefully. I let out a sigh and make my way out of the tent.

I ended up by the cliff overlooking the ocean. I take a seat near it and hugs my knees. I remember, a place like this was where it all started. I ran away after Senku hurt my heart and ended up in a cliff just like this one.

I feel something brushing on my side. I look around to see nothing. I smile sadly as I remember P/N. My jaguar friend. He died in the hands of the same man that make Tsukasa in a cold sleep. I wipe the tears in my eyes and turn my head to look forward.

"You can't sleep?" Someone said. I turn my head to see it's Senku. He walks over to me and take a seat next to me. I can feel his eyes on me as I turn away from him. I l nod my head, without saying a thing.

"I'm sorry for everything..." he said. I finally turn my to look at him, but he's looking forward like I did. I just stare at him, waiting for him to continue what he wants to say.

He turns to look at me, and smiles sadly. "I hurt you, Y/N. I broke your heart when all you've been doing for me is loving me... but I took you for granted and ended up pushing you away. I regret everything I did to you... so much" he said. I just stare at him. I'm not sure what to say to respond what he said.

"I love you, Y/N... but now I've lost you. The day I thought you were gone... I keep blaming myself. I keep scolding myself. If only... I can just be a good boyfriend for you. You would still be next to me" he said. I just look away after he said that.

I feel a hand being placed on top my hand. I turn my head to see Senku's hand. I turn my head to look at him. His eyes is asking me if I was okay. I just place my hand on top of his, moving it away from me.

"I'm okay..." I said. Senku places his hand back on my cheek, turning me to look at him. I try to pull away, but he places his other hand, stopping me from turning my head away.

"Don't lie to me. You can vent to me, Y/N. You don't have to hold the pain in. I know losing Tsukasa is painful for you. I know that feeling because I've lost you. You're alive... and you are right here in front of me now. But your heart isn't mine to hold anymore. It's just as painful..." he said. I just stare at him, tears slowly building up in my eyes.

"If you want to cry... just cry. I'll be your shoulder to cry on..." he said. He gently pulls me closer to lay my head on his shoulder. I cover my mouth as I start to cry softly. He wraps his arms tightly around me as I cry into his shoulder. He run his hand through my hair, trying his best to give me comfort.

I feel kind of bad, crying in Senku's arms when he said he loves me... and I'm crying for someone else. It makes me feel like I'm taking advantage at him. But parts of me wants to be selfish, because I need this in order to be okay. I just want Tsukasa back. I need him back.

*to be continued*