I'm watching T.V and Brand is out somewhere. I don't really know where, I didn't really listen.

I was binge watching Game of Thrones. When I suddenly had this urge... This urge that... No! I will fight this urge!

I was also eating popcorn. Buttery popcorn at that. It was my favourite thing to eat while watching T.V or movies... Buttery popcorn.

Now I know that they say that if you eat too much butter you can get really sick, but who cares anyway? It's not like Brad cares. It's not like my parents care.

I was about to fall asleep, when there was a knock at the door. "Who could be here at 12:30 in the morning?" I almost yell. "Unless it's Brad..."

I slowly open the door and- Nope! It was the mailman. "Hi I have a delivery for Sean McLoughlin." He says.

"T-that's me!" I reply trying to smile.

"Have a good night sir." He says tipping his hat a little.

"You too!" I smile before closing the door. I brought it to the kitchen counter.

I grab a box cutter and start slowly cutting open the box, it went so smoothly along the tape.

"I wonder how smoothly it would go across- no! Jack, fight this urge! You don't have to do this! Brad abuses you, that's enough! You don't have depression, that's just you being stupid!" I say to myself.

I flip the box open to fin a few items. At the very top was a piece of paper. It read:
Hello Jack. We have created some more items to add to your merchandise store. Have a look at them, then tell us which ones you would like us to add.
Sincerely,
Staff of Fanfiber
I had to read the note a couple times over to make sure I read it right, I was tired.

I dig through the packing peanuts and the first item I found was a phone case. I took it out of the box and admired it. It was just like the "eyes all over" shirt.

Next item I pulled out was a shirt. The shirt was black and had Sam in the middle, with the caption 'The eye is watching you'.

The third and final item I pulled out was a pair of Jacksepticeye sweatpants. It had the word 'Jacksepticeye' going down the left leg with a Sam after it.

"These are amazing merch items!" I say, admiring them all right in front of me. I quickly email Fanfiber telling them that I want all of the items to be in the merch store.

After that, I say back down on the couch. After sitting down, I went to go un-pause the T.V., but I had noticed that I had left the box cutter on the kitchen counter.

I walked over to the counter and went to go out it back in its proper place. I opened up the silverware drawer, I lowered the box cutter, but then I got that urge, again.

I sigh and put the blade up to my wrist. It was on top of an old cut that Brad had done in the past. I take a deep breath. Am I really gonna do this?

A/N:
Cliffhanger!! No but seriously, I do not support/condone suicide whatsoever. I think it is a bad idea and it just ruins the chances of you becoming happy.