Quick warning: There is some swearing
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? (Trix) Pov

'It was... dark.' That was the first thought I had after I died. All I saw was the dark abyss, nothing but blackness as far as I could see. It was also quiet, deafeningly quiet. No noise could be heard. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't hear it. Though on the bright side, it was... warm? Yeah, I felt warm and almost... safe?
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My death finally hit me. I am dead, I'm gone, and I can't go back. I can't see my family, talk to my friends, see my pets... I can't do any of that. On top of that, I'm stuck in this dark, deafeningly quiet space. Even if I do feel safe, it'll never make up for everything I lost, the people I can't see... the people who I will dearly miss.

My youngest cousins probably won't even remember me. If they do, it'll be faint. I won't see my other cousins' graduation, my brother's high school graduation, my parents, my grandparents... I won't see my cousin get married, I won't be able to meet my online friends... I won't be able to say goodbye.

It's not fair! I didn't even wanna go on that stupid cruise, and then I died! How is that fair? While I don't wish for anyone's death, I felt bitter about my own. The one time I try and face my anxiety, I end up dead. I feel so, so bitter and resentful. The lack of fairness was bullshit! The stupid fucking ship shouldn't have even crashed! Or sunk, whatever one would go with it... it's just not fair...
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I'm... numb... at least that's how I can best describe it. My death, my family, and the emotions I felt about the situation I'm in have just... vanished. It's just a numb feeling now. Pure numbness is all that was left behind when I thought about it. It's strange, but I'm also strangely relieved about it at the same time.

On the other hand, though, I've felt other emotions out of seemingly nowhere. Their usually happy emotions, thankfully, but it's still strange. Like, I have nothing to be happy about, but I'll suddenly feel happy? But also not at the same time. I don't know how it works or how to explain it, either. Hopefully, it stops soon...
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I've been hearing things recently. It's distant and feint, but I've heard it none the less. I can't quite make out what's being said, but at least it's better than the deafening silence from before. If I strain my ears, I think I can make out an almost feminine tone to the voice? It's hard to know for sure, but I'm pretty sure the voice is female.

On a different note, the warm feeling is still around after all this time. I'm not sure how the warm feeling has stayed, but I'm glad it's stayed. I've always hated being cold, especially since I got cold easily when I was alive. The slightest breeze on a hot summer day could make cold, which is coming from a Canadian. I'm not sure if I can really be considered one despite being born and raised with how adverse to the cold I am... either way, the warmth is welcome.

Along with the warm feeling, the feeling of safety is also still around, which is surprising. I'm seemingly in a black void, with little to no sounds to be heard. I can't see... well, anything, and the feint noises only started recently. Though I'm not sure if hearing noises is a good thing... especially when I'm dead.
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Things are still dark, but the warmth and feeling of safety have stuck around at least. If anything, the warmth and feelings of safety have grown. Along with the random emotions I will suddenly feel, but also not? I'm still not sure how to describe the feeling after all this time. It's a pretty confusing feeling.

On the up side, the voices are getting louder! If I concentrate, I can clearly hear them! I mostly hear a female voice, but sometimes I hear different male voices. It's the same ones, but there are about 6 different males? Though 3 of the male voices in particular are being heard. I can't quite make out what's being said yet sadly, but hopefully, I can soon. I'm curious about what's being said.
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I feel... absolutely stupid. I can hear the voices much more clearly, and the female voice I can hear most of the time is pregnant. I'm stuck in a dark space that's warm, feels safe, and can hear said voices. I'm somehow being reborn, and I don't know how I didn't realize it earlier. Either way, I feel utterly idiotic.

On the bright side, at least I won't be staying dead? So that's a good thing. Though that means I'll have a whole new family... I'll miss my old one but maybe I'll be able to love my new one just as much? I won't replace my original family, but I can make room in my heart for more people... Although I can only hope I'm reborn as a human again... but considering I'm hearing names like 'Lust', 'Nightmare', 'Error', and 'Killer', I have a feeling I'm not exactly gonna be getting my wish.
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Oh God, I am not ready for this! I found out I was being reborn a while back, and since then, I've been trying to gather information. The more I learned, the more I had a sinking feeling that I wasn't gonna be born as a human. I used to read plenty of reborn fics when I was alive, including UnderTale.

Now don't get me wrong, I love most of the UnderTale cast, AU's, books... the game. I loved the fandom, but that did not mean I ever would wanna be reborn into the fandom, especially as a ship kid. However, we don't always get what we want. So now here I am, looking up at Lust Sans, who is looking at me with so much love and joy that it hurts.

As I looked up at my second mother, I heard her mutter a name, "Trix." It was a pretty name, but I was looking at my mother. As I looked up at my mother, I decided. I would do my best to make my new mother as happy as she could be. That was a promise.
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Here is chapter 2!!! Hope you enjoy!