Darsh POV:

Days passed quickly so as my feelings for her. There is a certain pull feeling I constantly feel towards her and no matter how hard I convince myself. 

I keep checking on myself in the mirror before leaving home and that obsession didn't stop there. It continued in the car, bathroom and even in a selfie camera. 

I prepare myself and rehearse the lines I want to talk to her but all go in vain when I approach her. Though I don't intentionally plan to meet her it's just on random occasions I come across her. 

And at those times she doesn't even give a second glance. Just smiles at me for courtesy and continues with her work or is in her world. Even I will not get the chance to meet her alone as her dad and boss is constantly with us. 

Especially after my day at the canteen with her. Though things got back to normal, almost normal as he doesn't let his eyes loose on me. I am already very conscious around him and now the new feelings erupting from me for his daughter are like adding fuel to the fire. 

Currently, I am in a hospital diagnosing patients as one after another comes in. Recently I got a promotion where I got my individual cabin, nameplate and more patients to treat. This was a bit sudden but nevertheless, I am happy about this sudden change in status as my previous position was in cellar where people with government health schemes come for free check-ups. 

It's not like I am degrading them or that position. Either way, it is treating sick people and helping them and eventually when any serious case comes in my boss takes it over and I will become a subordinate again. 

But now the patient before me is eating me alive with his constant talking. He has a severe headache and as per the symptoms, it must be Migraine. I understood his concern and prescribed the necessary medication but he just doesn't stop talking.

Every time I try my best to limit my words with patients as I don't like to talk much with anyone and when patients keep asking me more and more questions or keep telling me their whole family history I want to vanish from there, but that would be unethical of me towards my work. So I keep my patience in check always. 

I assured him that it was a common disease though sometimes the pain can be worse but not so dangerous and then only he left my cabin. I sighed getting exhausted by half day only. I dialled the reception outside and asked them how many patients are left and to my luck, there were only two more cases and the emergency ones were shifted to another doctor. 

Fortunately, the last two patients expressed their issues quickly for me to analyze and give them the proper medication. The time is already past 2 pm so even they must be tired of waiting so long and left quickly. 

Finally, I left my cabin and reached the canteen to put something in my stomach. Maa has cooked enough food for me but I still put in a few more curries as my hunger was on the next level now. I immediately dig into the food without any care for the world around me. 

A tap on my shoulder made me turn around and I saw Reena smiling at me. She is the only one I consider as my friend in the hospital while the remaining are just colleagues and that authority over her created a brotherly feeling in me for her who cares and protects her utmost. 

"Late again?" Reena asked me as she settled down on the chair beside me. 

"Yeah. You ate?" I asked her and she shook her head. 

When I asked her the reason she said, "I am waiting for him." And I know who that him is. I got used to him as well and now when I heard this again the same jealous feelings are coming in me. A girl must wait for him but he would not allow his sister to talk to anyone. 

Ignoring this topic we both continued our small talks about work and family and like that I finished my lunch and was ready to leave for the rounds. Before I could move out Nithin approached us and even greeted me. 

Out of courtesy I greeted him back and stayed there for some more time and discussed some random things again. Nithin is a good guy but it is not like I have a good rapport with him or close. It's just a formal association between us.

"Nidhi came with you?" Reena asked Nithin after our small talk. 

"Yeah." He replied curtly eyeing me with uncertainty. I maintained a calm exterior on the outside but internally I felt a bit excited as I can meet her today again as a part of my duty. 

"Btw, Reena I have a good news for you."

"What?" questioned Reena.

"Nidhi agreed to the marriage. She has talked to Dad about this." I could feel Nithin's eyes on me when he was saying this. His words are directed towards me though he expressed them to Reena. 

Reena was rather pleased with the news she heard and congratulated him. I couldn't frame any words immediately to say so I excused myself and left the place.

My mood got completely dampened. To be frank it became worse. I am feeling like a knot has formed in my chest region and it is twisting inside painfully. I went inside our resting rooms and started my breathing exercise to calm myself down. 

Breathe in Breathe out. Breathe in. Breathe out. 

I kept doing this for minutes but no successful results were achieved. I sighed and began to pack my stuff together as I felt I am down for the day. I dropped a message to my colleague to take over my duty for the day and switched off my mobile not even waiting for any response. 

Within minutes I reached my car and started off to my house. Yeah, house and not home because at home one is supposed to be peaceful but not in our case. My house is a better place than a library because of its calmness. 

Only when Vihas is present we talk more freely else time would be wasted in reminiscing past mistakes and the ill-fortune we had endured. Though things turned better lately for us but Maa is never completely healed. 

And I thought of bringing a girl into all this mess of my life?

This is what should happen to me. I should have never really created even those smallest of hopes in my heart. In these few meetings she never even glanced at me on her own and I expected so much from her. And in the end, it was me hurting again for no mistake of anyone except mine. It is so wrong of me. So wrong of me. 

And the only way to make it right is by burying these feelings deep inside. 

Forever.

Hello everyone.

Took a long break and updated again.

And your response matters regarding the chapter as I am a bit unsure of it.

I thought of expressing more of Darsh's feelings in the last paragraphs but I couldn't it.

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