Prayer

He made a quick move to hover on top of me. Hindi ko mapigilan ang mapakahagikgik sa ginawa niya pero napawi iyon nang yumuko siya para maabot ang balikat ko na natamaan kanina.

He crouched to better reach it. He dipped lower... to be able to slowly kiss it.

Napasinghap ako sa ginawa niya.

It was a very simple move. A simple kiss. But the intention it carries... the slowness, carefulness and love it brings, made me damn teared up again.

"I am really sorry, Avery..." he whispered before kissing it again. "... tuwing naiisip ko na nasaktan ka habang nasa tabi mo ako, paulit-ulit akong namamatay..."

I wanted to joke about it, to laugh at his seriousness, para lang maibsan ang bigat ng paligid pero hindi ko kinaya ang bigat ng mga salita niya.

I can literally see him in a mess because I was hurt beside him.

At ayoko 'non...

Kaya hinayaan ko siya na sabihin ang mga naiisip niya. I let him caress me, all over, I let him hover me like he was taking over my whole being. I have never felt so loved my whole life. Hindi man napagkait sa akin ang pagmamahal, itong kanya ang pinaka tumagos sa akin.

Dahil kahit noong mga panahon na tinalikuran ko ang lahat ng pagmamahal, ang kanya ang pilit na humabol para lang muli akong mahawakan.

"I vow to never let this happen again. I'll bleed before letting you get hurt... I..." he gasped for air as he traced his lips over my shoulder.

Parang gusto kong sumabay sa pag singhap niya pero ang tangi kong nagawa ay ihigit ang aking pag hinga.

I can't take the slow build up of tingles all over my body.

"... I can't let it happen again..." he chanted like it was his prayer everyday.

Marahan kong pinikit ang mga mata ko nang payapang tumulo pa ang mga luha ko. I almost shivered from the cold air but the warmth he brings me coated me enough.

Ingat na ingat siya sa akin para hindi niya ako madaganan.

We have this enough space he controls just to make sure he doesn't crush me.

Pero hindi ko iyon gusto...

Hindi ako makuntento sa distansyang ito.

No matter how small...

I wanted more...

As if hearing my thoughts, Tobias dipped himself a little again to be able to reach my lips. His hand was already in between my thighs, tulad noong unang beses itong nangyari, para akong mababaliw sa sensasyong hatid nito.

The idea of him touching me down there is already sending me to the sky. But to realize that there's more to it than physical makes me delirious.

"Uh... Tob..." hinayaan ko ang sarili kong matawagan siya sa ga'nong uri ng boses.

The moment my lips parted, he carefully plunged his tongue inside my mouth which I gladly accepted, swirling mine with his.

I am kissing him.

He has given me the right to be able to kiss him whenever, I do too, pero tuwing nag lalapat ang labi namin, parang lagi akong hindi makapaniwala.

Halos kapusin ako ng hangin sa pagsasayaw ng aming mga labi. Sumabay ang paghampas ng puso ko roon. Gusto kong imulat ang mga mata ko para mamemorya ang lahat ng ito dahil alam kong magiging importanteng oras ito sa amin pero para akong lasing na hindi na magawang buksan ang mga mata sa kalasingan.

Wet kisses.

Sensual touch.

I wrapped my arms around his neck to pull him closer to me.

Agad niyang tinukod ang braso niya sa kama para hindi ako madaganan pero mas nilakasan ko pa ang pag hila sa kanya kung kaya't nawalan siya ng balanse at tuluyang bumagsak sa akin.

Napadaing ako sa pagkakadagan niya. Pero hindi dahil nasaktan ako kung hindi dahil sa saya na napagbigyan din ang kagustuhan kong mawala ang distansya sa pagitan namin.

"Oh fuck." Mura niya.

I clutched on his shoulder tightly.

"Baby... you'll get hurt..." his voice was hoarse.

Umiling lamang ako at muli siyang inabot para mahalikan. This time, it felt more in love, as if we reached another level we haven't achieved before, mas marahan pero may diin, malalim pero para kang nililipad sa hangin at panghuli, buo at handa.

Naramdaman ko ang materyal ng kanyang pang-ibaba sa pagitan ng aking hita.

Muli akong napaungol nang maramdaman iyon. His bulge was hard and it tickled me hard. Ganito ba iyon? Sapat ba ang pag lapat 'non para mabaliw ako ng husto?

Our position dawned to me.

Ang posisyon namin ay tila ginawa para sa gabing ito. It was so in sync, right and home. And although embarrassing because without our clothes I know I would feel him more, I couldn't care less about it.

Inangat baba niya ng mabagal ang sarili niya. It was a subtle move, still careful not to hurt me. And with every touch of what's in between his thighs against mine, I got weaker. The feeling was out of this world, no words can describe how it feels.

Sensual. Intimate. A balance of soft and hard. Tickling. Sure. Loved.

It felt rough because of the clothes yet soft because of his movements.

Hindi ko alam kung paano niya nagagawa iyon. Maging marahan sa kabila ng lahat.

Malakas man ang malamig na hangin na nanggagaling mula sa aircon ay parang nawalang saysay iyon dahil sa nag sisimulang pamamawis ko. I can feel my sweat on my forehead and my nape.

I moaned when he hit my sensitive spot.

"Tob..." nagawa kong tawagin ang pangalan niya na nagpamura ulit sa kanya.

I can feel him getting sweaty too.

Hindi ko maalala kung kailan ako huling nanghina ng ganito. Pero sigurado akong sa bisig niya rin iyon nangyari.

His movements stopped for a second before kissing me again, this time... he started on my cheeks, carefully kissing me, tracing till it reached my jaw, making me lose control of my breathing till he reached my lips again which made my private area release some liquid.

Nang maabot niya muli ang labi ko ay parang iyon lang ang hinihintay ko para makamit ng kaunti ang hiling ko.

"I love you..." mahina niyang bulong.

Sa tingin ko ay kanina niya pa iyon binubulong sa akin. I was just too lost to hear him. At iyon lang ang nakapuslit sa pandinig ko.

Sinubukan ko siyang sabayan sa bawat taas baba niya pero mukhang siya ang mababaliw dahil doon. He tried pushing my hips against the mattress to stop me from moving but I wriggled to meet him halfway.

I want to give him pleasure too...

And with his heaved breathing and suppressed grunts, I feel immense pleasure too.

Noong una ay hindi ko makuha ang ritmo pero nang sumuko siya at hinayaan ako ay nakuha ko rin 'yon at halos mawala ang lahat ng kaayusan sa utak ko.

"You are my love..." he whispered again.

My heart melted.

"Ahhh..."

Halos mapasigaw ako nang paulanan niya ako ng halik sa aking balikat. Tingling kisses. Parang wala siyang balak tigilan iyon hanggang hindi nawawala ang pamamasa 'non, hanggang may bugbog.

Or... he might be hiding the bruises with his kiss marks.

Our thrusts continued.

I thank the heavens that I got active during my stay in Camiguin or else I wouldn't be able to carry myself with his king of the jungle strength.

Muli akong nalilyo sa mga halik niya. Mas lalo na nang abutin niya ang aking kanang dibdib. Pinasok niya ang kanyang kamay sa roba na suot ko at halos malito ako kung lalamigin ba ako sa pahapyaw na pag daplis ng hangin o maiinitan dahil sa taglay na init ng balat at hawak niya.

"Ohhh..." I offensively moaned on his mouth when he successfully untied my robe.

Malaya niya ng napasok ang kamay niya para mahawakan ng maayos ang aking dibdib. Mas nadama ko na ang rahas ng pangibaba niya dahil ngayon ay wala na akong kasaplot-saplot. What we have now in between us are only his clothes, mawala iyon at alam kong tuluyan na akong mawawala sa hwisyo.

His other hand reached for me in between my thighs.

He was so gentle yet I still lost it when his bare hands touched my bare flesh!

"Oh Tob!" Hindi ko napigilang isigaw.

I bit my lower lip hard!

Napailing ako sa kahihiyan pero mas bumaba pa siya para maabot ng labi niya ang dibdib ko. Akala ko ay lasing na ako kanina sa lahat ng ito pero ngayon ay tila mababaliw na ako dahil sa naramdamang pag halik niya sa aking dibdib.

I tried opening my eyes and almost saw his tongue reaching for my nipples but immediately shutting them again when I felt the hotness of his breath and wetness of his tongue!

I believe I am really delirious!

To feel his tongue is one thing but to see that intense image in front of me strapped me into a rocket which took off without reaching count of three!

All my nerves got slapped and electrified.

His tongue made my nipple its playground.

Liquid gushed from my flesh. At alam kong naramdaman niya iyon lalo na at marahan niyang hinahaplos ang ibaba ko. He was taking his time, slow and torture, taas-baba lamang ang dalawang daliri niya sa gitnang parte ng pagkababae ko.

Sa lahat ng nangyayari ay maingat kong hinahabol ang pag hinga ko. Pilit kong binubuka ang mga mata ko pero tila may sarili silang utak at sa bawat haplos ni Tobias ay ang nagagawa ko lang ay mag labas ng impit na ungol at pag pikit.

"You're dripping, baby..." he whispered as he reached for my other boob.

Kailangan pa ba pansinin iyon?! As always, Tob!

He suckled it and nipped it like an hungry animal out of his cage!

Daing lamang ang naging sagot ko. Uminit ng kaunti ang pisngi ko at sinubukan na isara ang hita ko pero mabilis na narating ng hinlalaki niya ang pinaka sensitibong parte 'non. I don't know if it was an accident but he pressed it that made liquid involuntarily out of my system! Again!

Nakakahiya na talaga pero sa bawat subok ko na mahiya ay may gagawin siyang makakapagpalimot sa akin 'non...

Like now, he was trailing kisses up to the valley of my breast. As if it knew that I will anticipate his kisses!

I want more of his kisses!

"Tob... kiss... me..." I begged when he was taking his time on my chest.

"Baby..." He groaned.

Maagap siyang umangat para hagkan ako ng mariin sa labi.

"You don't beg, hmm?" Sandali niyang singit bago ako halikan.

Tumango nalamang ako kahit na alam kong hihilingin ko pa rin ang mga halik niya sa susunod, at alam kong higit pa sa hiling ko ang kaya niya ibigay.

"I am so... in love with you... and I'll rain kisses on you just so you'll know that I am all yours..." he chanted like a prayer.

He played with my most sensitive part making me forget my name. I can't help but to be taken away by the pulsating feeling. Nauuna ang aking katawan sa aking pag-iisip. I was arching my back before I knew I was, dahilan ng tuluyang pagkaalis ng roba sa aking balikat.

I am now entirely bear in front of him.

Para akong binububuran ng asin sa pamumuo ng kung ano. Like a volcano awaiting for its time. My flesh was throbbing, my head was clouded with desire and my heart was thumping like crazy, wanting to come out.

Liquid flowed from me again. Pero alam kong hindi pa iyon ang hinihintay niya dahil alam ko rin sa sarili ko na parating pa lang ako sa pinaka rurok. Hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi nauubos iyon sa dami na ng aking nalalabas pero ang alam ko lang ay dahil hindi lang ito pisikal lahat...

This is because I am so pleased...

Not just by his touch and kisses, but by his love and passion.

He stopped kissing me and for a second his lips hovered the corner of my lips.

Nang makakuha siya ng bwelo ay mabilis siyang umangat, leaving my pulsating flesh which made me open my eyes to aggressively retaliate, but instead... saw him swiftly removing his top and bottom, making me gawk out of fear.

Napakabilis ng mga galaw niya, ayaw din mawalay sa akin ng matagal.

I have seen his body numerous times. From Camiguin to here. At alam kong ilang beses ko ng naisip na nag mature ng sobra-sobra ang pangangatawan niya. He was all so mature then but now... all the muscles were on their right places. His v-line is showing. His chest looked hard rock and dependable, ang sarap-sarap pumailalim sa yakap niya.

At nang mas bumaba pa ang tingin ko ay mas lalong nahulog ang puso ko!

I felt him, okay?

I know! I shouldn't be this surprised gayong damang-dama ko na siya kanina.

But I am not exaggerating when I say I am still in shock to see how incredibly massive he is!

Wala akong pag kukumparahan pero alam ko...

Sigurado ako...

I am not so innocent by these kind of topics so I know. And I am thinking twice if he could fit me!

Pwede bang mag meeting muna kami? Para pag-usapan kung paano magkakasya iyon?

I got lost in my thoughts and came back when I felt his lips on mine again. He focused on my breasts. Giving both the exact same attention and all the while, he positioned his maleness on mine.

Mariin kong napikit ang aking mga mata nang maramdaman siya roon. Ng walang kahit anong harang! He was huge and hard! Pakiramdam ko ay may nag lalaro sa aking tyan dulot ng samu't saring pakiramdam na hatid niya.

Wala na akong maintindihan sa mga nangyayari.

"Oh, Tob!"

Hindi ko na alam kung anong uunahin ko. I wanted to do something for him too yet I couldn't move, I feel like my legs were jelly and my private area is just waiting to... burst or something.

Bawat selyula sa katawan ko ay sumisigaw.

Nakakabaliw!

"Ah!"

The sensitive flesh in between my thighs throbbed calling out on him. Nakakahiya! Pero... kung hindi ito mapapagbigyan ay talagang mag-aalsa ito! The feeling of hunger and thirst for something took over me!

And when I felt the most impatient...

I pushed my own waist up so that I could feel him more. I felt his tip on me and I felt like my world rotated a hundred degrees in a second!

"Fuck, baby... calm down..." he frustratedly muttered while keeping me down again.

Umiling ako muli.

"Tob..." my voice sounded pleading.

Parang may pumipitik sa aking tainga, inoorasan ako, gustong gusto na marating ang kung ano.

The immense feeling of this is like tsunami taking over my head.

Muli siyang umayos sa pagkakaibabaw sa akin. This time, he was almost embracing me. Ang kanyang ulo ay nasa gilid ng aking mukha, dinig na dinig ko ang mabibigat niyang pag hinga habang patuloy siya sa pag tutok ng kanyang pagkalalaki sa akin.

"I know, you know... that this will hurt a lot, but I want you to push me if you can't take it, mhm?" Mahina niyang bulong sa tapat ng aking tainga bago ito halikan.

His sweetness gave me a brand new block of courage.

I nodded as if I knew what he was talking about. Dahil alam kong hinding hindi ko siya magagawang itulak.

And after a second, I felt him pushed himself a little... inside me...

Sa tingin ko ay dahil kanina pa maraming lumalabas mula sa akin, it didn't hurt that much or so I thought, dahil nang makapasok na siya nang kaunti ay halos mapasigaw ako sa sakit. Hindi ko alam kung gaano kahaba na ang pumasok pero pakiramdam ko ni wala pa siya sa kalahati.

The pain was burning.

Napahawak ako sa kanyang balikat. Tumigil siya sa pag-pasok. Wala sa sarili akong kumapit sa kanya at paniguradong mag mamarka ang pag pisil ko. I tried not to scratch him so I threw my head sideways just to divert my attention elsewhere.

"Push me if it's too painful..." anito sa boses na puno ng pag-aalala.

Umiling lamang ako, pinapakiramdaman ang estrangherong pakiramdam sa aking gitna.

Damn.

I knew it was painful but not like this...

I felt him kissing me on my cheeks as if he was wiping something.

"Shit... you're crying baby..." aniya.

Doon ko lamang napansin na umiiyak na ako. Inabot ng kamay niya ang pisngi ko para muli akong maharap sa kanya. Isang beses akong tumanggi pero nagpumilit siya kaya wala akong nagawa kung hindi magpaubaya. I opened my eyes to see him watching me, very concerned.

Pawis na pawis ang kanyang noo, ang mga mata ay puno ng pag-aalala, namumula ang mga labi.

I almost forgot the pain for a second because of his look.

"I am so sorry..."

Inabot niya uli ang gilid ng aking mga mata para punasan.

"Do you want us to stop? I can pull away..."

Maagap akong umiling at napaluha uli nang makaramdam ng kirot.

"I want u-us..." napapaos kong sabi.

Marahas siyang napabuntonghininga at inabot ang aking noo para lapatan ng halik.

Napakainit at gaan 'non na parang may mainit na kamay na humaplos sa puso ko.

"I am going to marry you..." aniya.

Bumaba ang labi niya papunta sa tungki ng aking ilong. He placed a light kiss there too.

"I know that this is wrong timing, and this is not my plan..."

Kumunot ang aking noo, hindi maintindihan ang mga biglaang  salita na sinasabi niya.

"I have a better one in mind too..."

Bumaba ang labi niya papunta sa aking labi at dinampian ng isang beses iyon. Pero hindi ako makapag focus dahil nakatuon pa rin ang mga mata ko sa mata niya, hinahanap ang sagot sa mga sinasabi niya na hindi ko maintindihan.

My eyes were moving left and right on his.

"I plan on seeing you dressed up, under the moonlight, with pretty lights everywhere, in a red dress... while I kneel down to ask you this..."

Unti-unting bumuka ang labi ko sa pagkagulat.

My heart somersaulted... in a different way.

Overwhelmed and...

Happy.

In love...

"Because I knew I was in love with you at the very exact same scenario I've seen you..." Halos ibulong niya iyon sa hangin habang matamang nakatingin sa akin.

I know what he was talking about.

Willow's birthday party years ago.

Naka pula ako noon. Hindi maintindihan kung bakit hindi ko gusto ang pagkaka takda nilang dalawa sa isa't isa. Iniisip na baka crush ko siya. Mag-isa sa garden ng hotel. Napapalibutan ng maraming ilaw pero nag susumiksik sa dilim. Nag-tatago sa ilalim ng buwan.

"And I will still do it. But I just want you to know right now that I am doing this with you with our future in mind..." he breathed.

"H-huh?" Nagawa kong itanong.

A smile stretched on his lips sexily.

Malugod niya akong tinignan.

"I am so in love with you..."

A tear trickled from my eye which he wiped quickly.

"I bought you a ring already, Avery. It's in my office. I hope it's okay to ask you this without it..."

He dipped his head again for another light kiss.

Gusto kong pagtuonan ng pansin ang mga halik niya pero masyado akong manghang mangha sa mga sinasabi niya at sa uri ng pagmamahal na binibigay ng tingin niya.

"Will you let me love you for the rest of our lives?"

This time, tears rushed out from my eyes.

My heart melted and I never felt more love.

"Will you let me have the honor to be your husband?"

Oh, Tob...

Isang hikbi ang kumawala sa akin.

"Will you let me continue to fight for us? Because this is all I want to do, baby..."

Mapait akong napangiti sa gitna ng emosyonal na pag-iyak.

"Will you let me show you that I am worth choosing despite the circumstances?"

"You're worth choosing, baby..." agap ko kasabay ng isang hikbi pa.

Bahagya siyang natawa sa pag sagot ko.

"Will you marry me—"

"Yes! I will marry you. I am choosing you and it is me who should work hard to be worth it of you. I will fight for us and It is my honor to be your wife, my love. And yes, I want to be loved by you for the rest of our lives and I know I will love you even if there is a life after this."

Parang dasal na inuukit ang bawat katagang binibitawan ko. Mahal na mahal ko siya at gusto kong maramdaman niya 'yon ngayon.

Sa pag sagot ko. Sa halik. Pagmamahal. Tingin. Dahil ga'non siya sa akin.

For his every breath, he doesn't fail to show me how much he loves me.

His eyes watered.

"T-thank you..." he said breathlessly.

"You surely didn't think I'll reject you?" Pag-bibiro ko sa kanya.

Hinayaan niyang bumagsak ang mga luha niya at marahang umiling. He closed his eyes like a thorn was just ripped out from his chest.

"I wasn't sure if you're ready..."

Sa gitna ng panghihina ay inabot ko ang mukha niya para ako naman ang mag punas ng mga luha niya.

My heart felt so happy and content.

Maraming salamat, Tob.

"Ako ang klase ng tao na tumatakbo paalis kapag hindi ako handa sa isang bagay. Pero sa'yo, natuto akong tumayo para sa mga bagay at tao na minamahal ko. I am a work in progress, Tob. But if you want me and you want us... I'll do this with you. Kasi..."

Isang matamis na ngiti ang kumawala sa aking labi.

"Mahal kita. Mahal na mahal. Noong hindi pa ako marunong at ngayon na pinag-aaralan ko kung paano. All of it... to love you better. Because you deserve a love that is strong and unwavering."

He leaned on my hands like he could only find comfort in there.

He then kissed my palm and quickly dipped again for a kiss.

This time a long one.

A slow, burning and passionate wet kiss.

At parang pitik sa aking harapan ay natanto kong gumagalaw na siya ulit. He slowly pushed for more entrance. Pushing his wholeness.

It was still painful but not like the very first push. Hindi ko alam kung dahil nakapag-adjust na ako o kung dahil sobrang saya ko lang sa nangyayari o dahil lutang pa ako sa katotohanan na... nag propose siya sa akin.

But all my questions were silenced by my moans.

Tanging ang boses ko nalang ang naririnig ko. He was kissing me but my moans still got to escape.

His right hand reached for my left leg and raised it to position me better. I felt him more because of it. Parang sa anggulong iyon ay mas naging malalim ang pag-ulos niya. Mas narating niya ang kaloob-looban ko. Mas nasakop niya ang mundo ko.

At gustong-gusto ko iyon.

Gustong-gusto.

Napa-arko ang aking katawan sa intensidad ng lahat ng nangyayari. Bumaba ang mga halik niya sa aking leeg. I gave him more access. I gave him all of me. I let him embrace me.

I never knew I wanted this so bad.

"Tob!" I managed to shout his name when he adjusted his thrusts.

Kung maingat siya kanina ay ngayon mas dumiin at bumilis ang kanyang pag taas-baba!

"Oh... Tob!"

I can feel my swollen flesh frantically in need of more attention whenever he goes up and will feel relief and satisfaction when he goes down again.

"Baby..." he got to whispered breathlessly.

He showered nonstop kisses on my neck again while thrusting inside out.

With each thrust I was nearing brim.

"Tobias!"

I am near!

And when his right hand quickly reached for my nub, tinakpan ko ng aking braso ang aking bibig at napasigaw dahil sa rurok na narating. Lahat ng namumuo sa kalooblooban ko ay sumabog.

I was electrified and the volcano inside me erupted from deep slumber.

It was so embarrassing!

But my energy quickly drained out after letting out a terrifying amount of love that I couldn't care less about my shyness, my appearance or how I might have acted in front of him!

And with that, I felt him too...

He filled me up inside.

"I love you..." he whispered on my ear.

Nahulog siya sa aking katawan at niyakap niya ako.

Gumaan ang pagpikit ko at hinayaan kong yakapin niya ako ng maayos. He moved beside me and I let myself hide in his arms. My chest was heaving from tiredness but I want to check if he was okay too...

"Are you okay?" Naunahan niya ako.

Ako pa rin ang iniisip niya!

Kahit pagod na pagod ay tumango ako para hindi siya mag-aalala.

"I'll clean you up, you can sleep..."

He kissed my temple.

"Are you o-okay?" I managed to ask with my droopy eyelids.

"Yes, baby. I am. Rest. Let me take care of you..."

Parang hinehele ako ng boses niya kaya nagpaubaya ako sa pagod at hindi nalamayan na tuluyan ng kinain ng gabi at mga panaginip.

I heard him in my dreams...

"Everything is worth it. Finding you again is my salvation from those years without you."