am i the only one who keeps thinking "i deserve better than what i have right now" and "i can't maximize my potential due to my unfavorable living conditions"? if this is normal, thank the gods. but if it isn't, is this a sign of superiority complex? guess it is. i've always been aware of the fact that i might actually have this kinda shit and sometimes i eventually move to the thought that... i haven't been born into a place which is suited for me. like, i need high maintainance, and my current atmosohere deprives me of that requirement. it's just suffocating to think about; all the other people out there who can have everything the fucking want because they were born lucky, yet i am here at the bottom of the hierarchy, unfit for the way i am cralwing through the dirt with barely any gold and bread after a war.