Natasha finished her breakfast, and then entered the huge library. She took her time to select a good book, avoiding love stories. She used to read them a lot, when she believed in them. But now that reality seemed so fake, she wondered if love actually existed. And even if did, it didn't for her, so she better avoid.

She took a fantasy novel, and started reading, getting lost in its lands.

"Natasha?! " she heard Maria's voice. She got up, but Maria found her.

"Sit" she said, "I won't take long, I just came here to give you something " she walked to her and sat on the other sofa.

"Here, your father's shawl" she took a parcel and handed it to her.

Natasha took it, and opened the parcel, her fingers felt the fabric, tears developed in her eyes.

"Thank you" she said with a heavy heart.

"Thank him, not me" Maria said.

Natasha took the shawl, and held it close to her chest, feeling the fabric, taking in its warmth.

"Why did  he leave? He was supposed to spend the day with you" Maria asked.

"I don't know" Natasha replied.

"Natasha, look, I.. Give him what he wants, he would stay calm and won't hurt you" Maria said.

"I did, I never protest, but how can I stop myself from crying? Natasha asked, "I can't take it, being his puppet"

"You are not his puppet, I cannot explain this, just don't struggle with this, try to adjust, please " Maria tried to make it easy.

"I am.. What do you call a woman who is used only for lustful purposes? My soul shakes when I think of it" Natasha said, "I was going to get married, have kids, lead a normal happy life, and now, I am here, as a sl.. . "She couldn't finish the sentence.

"Natasha, please, only you can console yourself, all the best" Maria stood up and left.

Natasha wiped her tears, and wrapping the shawl around her shoulders, she went back to reading.

That night, he didn't come, and she was grateful. She waited till 2 in the morning, then changed into a simple night gown, and lay down, for a good night's sleep.

She was in deep sleep, when he entered, completely drunk.

"Natasha!!! " he said, but she was lost in dreams. He sat down beside her, and caressed her cheek, "Natasha, wakeup baby"

She didn't move still, so he grabbed her hair, and pulled her up, "Natasha!! " he yell.

She opened her eyes, with pain, and his shouts falling on her ears. She was frightened to see his state.

"I am sorry" she said, but when she looked at him, she was shocked. His eyes were droopy, his hair messed up, his shirt dirty.

She wasn't evil, she had a lot of generosity in her. And she cupped his face, "what happened my Captain? Are you alright? " she asked innocently. His face felt warm, she ft his forehead, which was burning.

He collapsed on her chest, his hot skin burned hers.

"Oh my God! He is running a high fever" she said.

She held him, gently, brushing his hair, "What do I do? " she thought.

His weight was too much, but she somehow managed to shift him, resting his back on the bed, and moved out.

Rushing in the bath, she brought cold water and towels, dipping them and placing it on his forehead and feet.

"What shall I do? " she was worried and confused.

"Maria, yes, I can call her" she realized. She found the phone Maria gave her, and called her.

"Natasha? " Maria answered confused, in a sleepy voice.

"Maria, he has a high fever, he's drunk and passed out, I don't know what to do" she said.

"Okay, don't worry, I'm coming " Maria said.

"Natasha! " he said, in a low voice. She was sitting beside him, she took his hand.

"I am here my Captain" she said.

He opened his eyes, and looked at her, raising his arm to reach her. She moved closer, and he put his hand on her cheek.

"Kiss me " he said.

"My  Captain.. You have fever" she said.

"Kiss me!!! " he commanded.

She sighed, and leaned closer, kissing him on the lips, taking his head, she placed it on her lap. She moved back, "My captain, please tell me, are there any medicines here? " she asked.

"You are my medicine" he said.

Natasha realized he was far too drunk to make sense.

Her phone rang, and she answered it, "Natasha, I can't come in, the security lock doesn't allow it" Maria said

"What shall I do? " Natasha asked

"The first aid box is in the third drawer of the cupboard on the left, there must be something in there" Maria replied

"But he's drunk, we should not give anything without doctor's permission " Natasha said

"I am sorry, I can't help you for now Natasha, the locks would be open in the morning, I'll come then manage for the night" she said and hung up.

"Natasha! " he called again.

"I am here my Captain " she said, "I am here".

Natasha dipped the towel in cold water and applied on his forehead again.

"You are mine, only mine" he mumbled, "I want you"

"You have fever" she said.

"No, I want you, Natasha, come here" he said.

She looked into his eyes, "I am here, please, you have fever" she said.

He raised his arms, and she descended on him, he touched her neck, feeling the texture of her skin.

He suddenly got up, with full force, and pulled her down, kissing her neck. His body was burning. He bit her, she gasped.

"Natasha!! " he said, "my head hurts"

"You have fever" she said again, as he continued to torture her skin, kissing, sucking, biting. Leaving his marks.

But he didn't have the strength to go on. He got tired and crashed beside her, she got up and brought some ice, continuing the cold pack therapy as he fell asleep.

*****
She is so sweet. Caring for the man who destroyed her. And he is crazy.
Do give your reviews. Sorry the part was half published but I quickly un published it.