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"N/N, I won't hurt you! You know that!" "Shut up!" You started screaming and covering your ears, even afraid of his voice. Ash wanted to calm you down so he walked over to you. Instead, you rushed at Ash, almost stabbing your blade through his head. He was able to dodge in time, only leaving a scratch on his face. 

Ash wondered, still dodging your blows and attacks, "Is this Banana Fish's effect?" "N/N please stop it! This isn't you!" He exclaimed, receiving another scratch on his shoulder from an attack you threw. 

You did not respond, only growled and screamed as you threw Ash to the ground. After Ash was on the ground, you breathed heavily, dropping down to him and screamed again, your blade approaching Ash's forehead. 

Ash called out. "Y/N!" with real meaning this time. 

This shocked you. He actually said your real name instead of your nickname. His shout echoed around the room. 

Your breathing slowed and your hand stopped the blade from stabbing Ash. You blinked, and your eyes were calm. Your pupil was no longer widened. 

"Y/N... Come back to me please." He said. Without hesitation, he touched the side of your face. His warm hand calmed you even more. You let down your hand with the blade still remaining in it. 

"Ash..." You whispered weakly. Your tears fell as you closed your eyes, holding Ash's hand close to your face. With the hand that still had the blade in it, you lifted it high, and then... 

You've stabbed it. 

Not into Ash, but into your own body. Everything went slowly from Ash's sight. After he saw you drive the blade right into your stomach, his face filled with fear. You fell over. 

"N-N/N?" 

"N/N!" 

With trembling hands, he pulled the blade from your body and removed his shirt, then used it to stop the bleeding. The blood kept on bleeding right through Ash's white shirt. "Nothing's working!" Ash screamed in panic as he watched your blood run from your body. 

"N/N! I don't care! Say you hate me! Tell me you love me! JUST SAY ANYTHING, GOD, DAMMIT!" ASH slammed his fist against the rock-hard ground.