I am silent. PJ fucking told him? Who just outs someone like that? I barely even knew him at that time!

As I stare into Phil's blue eyes I think of what to say. Do I tell him everything? I can trust him, right? We've been through enough together. I think I should just say it.

"No. No, I-I don't have any idea why PJ would have said something like that." I say. Phil smiles, "Okay, I believe you." He says. "I shouldn't of even asked in the first place, I'm sorry. It's ridiculous. You couldn't possibly be a boy." Phil shakes his head, as if he was clearing the thought, and diverts his attention elsewhere.

I fake a laugh, "Yeah, just ridiculous." I could hear my voice crack while saying that sentence. No Dan. You will not cry right now. Why do I have to be so weak?! I need to get out of here.

My phone buzzed. I take it out of my back pocket and look at it. It was a twitter notification, Gerard just tweeted something.

"Um, hey Phil." I say, starting to get up. "I just got a text from Chris and he really needs me right now. I'm sorry, I have to go. I'll see you later, yeah?"

Phil looks up at me, still sitting on the couch. "Yeah, okay. I'll see you later Dan. Bye." Before I walk away he gets up and kisses my cheek. I give a small smile, "Bye Phil." I say, walking out.

I'm gonna kill PJ.

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I pull up into the drive way. When I get out of the car I borrowed from Chris, I slam the door shut, filling with rage.

Considering it is almost twelve at night, all of the lights were off except one, and that was PJ's room. Luckily his bedroom isn't on the second story of the house so I don't have to climb or anything.

I walk over to Peej's window and open it. I climb into his bedroom and look around. I see PJ laying on his bed with his eyes closed, tapping his fingers as he listens to music. I walk over to him and pull out his earphones.

He jumps up, not expecting that. "What the- oh. It's you." PJ says. "What are you doing here, Dani. I didnt think we had plans for tonight."

"Why did you tell Phil" I say, hoping his parents won't hear me and wake up. PJ lays there, looking uninterested. "Tell him what, exactly?"

I roll my eyes, "You know exactly what." PJ sighs, knowing exactly what I'm talking about. "You're over reacting, It's not that big of a deal. I think you just need to calm down. I can give you some more-"

"PJ, I don't want to smoke anymore! Don't you think we've smoked enough pot within these last two weeks? What I want is for you to tell me why you told Phil." I say.

PJ stands up, him and I centimeters apart now. "Listen, I thought he would have forgotten all about it by now. And he still doesn't know about you, does he?"

My silence is a good enough answer for him. "Exactly. So you have nothing to worry about. Can you just get out of my house!" PJ yells.

"You barely even knew me! How could you just out me like that?! I have done nothing to you and all you have ever do to me is be an asshole!"

"You're one to talk Howell." He says. I scoff, crossing my arms. "What are you even talking about." I ask.

"Do you want to know why I don't like you? Maybe even despise you? It's because you take everything from me!" PJ yells. I stand there confused. What is he talking about?

"I've known Chris practically since birth, we would be together everyday, and we were honestly the best of friends. And then in the beginning of year 6 you come along and take him from me! Chris left me for you! And guess what just made this entire situation better? I had a massive crush on Chris, and it's obvious that he's in love with you!"

My eyebrows furrow together. Chris? In love with me? "Chris and I are friends, he doesn't like me like that." I say. PJ laughs, "How can you be so blind? He would literally give up everything for you and you probably wouldn't give a shit as long as everything with Phil was okay!"

 I stand there with my arms crossed, "That is not true. Chris is my best friend." But PJ continues, as if he never even heard me.

"I wish he could just see that he can do so much better than you. After a while I got over Chris, I had to eventually. So Phil came along, we became really good friends, and guess who just had to show up again in my life and take him away? You. It's always you! You're always the problem!"

I stand there, dismayed, not saying anything. It looked like PJ was on the verge of tears. "I'm sorry Peej, I didn't know-"

"No, you didn't know!" He cuts me off. "Because you're a selfish bitch who only focuses on yourself and your stupid problems! You don't take a look around you and see all of the damage you cause. Because you're just a stupid girl who thinks that the entire world revolves around you just because you want to become a dude!"

And that's when I punch him.

PJ stumbles back and hold his cheek, looking like he was in pain. You could see PJ get angrier by the second. "Get out." PJ says. "Leave!" He pushes me backwards. I stumble, but gain balance again within a few seconds.

I look PJ in the eyes. "You say I'm a selfish person, and here you are, acting like this." Before I could even think about what I was saying, it just came out. "No wonder Chris never loved you back." I say harshly. I turn around and started to walk back to the window.

PJ's POV

"No wonder Chris never loved you back." That was it. Those were the words that completely crossed the line.

"Hey Dani." I say. He turns around and I punch him. Hard.

He holds his nose, I can see his red blood trinkle down. Did I break it? I don't think I did. At this point I really don't care to be honest.

And by now both of us are throwing punches. Fists colliding with eachothers bodies. Everything was happening so fast, I could barely keep up.

Although it did not last that long. Because I pushed him. And when I say I pushed him, I don't mean like a little shove to get him to back up. I pushed him so hard that he tripped backwards, fell, and while he was falling hit his head on the corner of my desk.

I could hear his head hit the wooden furniture as I can also see a small piece of the desk chipped off.

I take a moment to catch my breath, seeing as I had put a lot of energy into this stupid fight that I didn't want to even have in the first place. I take a look at Dan and he lays there on my floor, not moving.

Fuck.

I forget about everything that was ever on my mind before this and rush over to Dan. "No, no, no." I mutter to myself. As I kneel down next to him, I shake him a little bit. "No, Dan please wake up." I say, my voice cracking a little bit.

Taking my index and middle finger, I place them on Dan's neck, trying to find a pulse. He can't possibly be dead. It really wasn't that hard of a fall, right? "Dammit Dan, if you wouldn't of just left, none of this would have happened, you spork."

I start to feel a pulse. Thank God.

I take a deep breath and relax a bit. It's fine it's all fine. He's not dead, I have nothing to worry about. I take a look at Dan's body once more, what do I even do with him now?

Getting up, I pick up Dan and  carry him over to my bed. Now what? Do I call someone? Should I call the hospital? If I did they might make me pay the medical bills since I am the one who pushed him.

He lives with Chris now, I should just call Chris so he can take him home. But Chris probably doesn't even want to talk to me. Whatever, fuck it.

I go over to Dan and reach into his pocket, finding his phone. He doesn't have a password? Who doesn't lock their phone?

Looking through his contacts, I find Chris and call him.

"Hello?"  He answers, his voice deeper than usual. It is almost 1 in the morning, he most likely just woke up. "Hey Chris." I say. "PJ? Why are you calling me?" I can hear the confusion in his voice.

"I'm glad you asked, Christopher." I say. "Your friend decided to come pick a fight with me and he is now passed out on my bed, might have a slight concussion, who knows. Anyways, I need you to come get him. Now." 

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Aye. I hope you enjoyed that long chapter (I'm kind of iffy about it tbh). I made it because we hit 100k reads! Whoo! But seriously, thank you guys so much. Also, the next couple chapters are the 'season finale' and those are a full chapter, so that is going to be two long chapters in a row. So hope you're excited for that. Again, thank you for all the reads and votes and comments, means a lot you guys. I love you!! Bye x