The next morning when I wake up I am still tired. Today is Sunday, I don't have much to do, be honest, I have nothing to do. My sister is already at work. I hear the TV downstairs, so my mother is already up. I hear footsteps coming into my room. I quickly pretend to sleep.

"Sisi, are you coming for breakfast?" It's Celly, he stands near my door and stays silent until I open my eyes.

He really is a sweet kid, but this happens every weekend. Does having a younger sibling really means that you can never sleep in. I get up, hug him and walk down with him on my back.

My mom, brother and I eat breakfast. When where done my mom drops Celly of at the neighbor's house he is gonna play with his best friend Anna. When she is back I hear the back door open. She probably goes to the studio to continue with one of her paintings.

In the afternoon I sit down at my desk to start my homework. When I look in my school bag I see the diary. I totally forgot about that book. I take it out and put my bag on the floor again. The 4 lines of texts are still there but in different places. I scroll back and forth through the booklet hoping that new text will appear again. But, unlike the first time I looked in the book, no new text appears. I leave it open on my desk. Occasionally I browse through the pages but nothing changes.

"Bzzz," The screen of my phone turns on. Message from Indira, asking which T-shirt looks better. I press my phone off again and look back at the booklet. I see a black ink appear on the page I left it on.

I am not a normal human being he said. Elegast told me that there was someone like me before, he called her a Vini.

Vini? I go over the letters with my fingers. Is this book gonna be my guide for being a Vini? Someone or thing put it there for me to find. I close the book and put it away in my closet.

After dinner, I go upstairs and crawl into my bed but I can't sleep. Who put that book there? Who dropped it? So there are more people who know about me.

Another question comes in. What did Jason tell his family yesterday? Valentina told me they were going to talk. Would he have told them about me being a Vini? What is going to happen now? I hope Jason will be at school tomorrow. Would it mean anything if he isn't? Maybe he and his family are now planning something maybe they are telling all their werewolf friends about me. I try to sleep but my mind keeps filling with such thoughts. I don't want to think about this at all. I lie down, changing positions every few seconds. If I go to sleep I will probably dream about it, them attacking me, dreams will seem much more realistic and I don't want that. It is best to stay awake then.

It is already half-past three, in three hours my alarm will go off. I close my eyes because I can't keep them open. I make sure that I don't fall asleep. Those 2 handwritings are from the 2 Vinis who have lived before. This book only gives me information. Someone want to help me? I am now in the state of being awake and asleep. I am awake but I have no control over my thoughts.

I see Jason, he looks a little younger now. He is sitting at the dining table and looking emotionless and tired. He stays that way for a long time. Days, weeks, months pass and he is staring unhappily in his hands. I stay that way for a long time until I suddenly hear my mother walking down the stairs.  It is already half-past five, that's the time she always gets up. One more hour, I really can't stop myself anymore and drift off.

At half-past six my alarm clock rings but my body is too tired to respond. I have never been late to class before and I am not going to ruin that now. I throw my legs over the edge of my bed but then fall flat on my stomach. Ouch, okay fine I am awake now. I'm getting ready to go to school.

Before I leave the house I drink 2 large cups of black coffee, otherwise, I won't make it through the day. Drinking coffee is nothing for me, it makes me unable to sleep and hyper. So today it comes in handy.

When I arrive at school I go to the restroom and look in the mirror. Wow...I look terrible. I put my tangled hair in a ponytail and quickly put on a bit of mascara so my eyes don't look so small.

When I walk out of the restroom it is still quiet in the school. Jason and that one girl from his class are sitting on a bench. She excitedly waves her hands while telling a story while he smiles kindly but seems absent.

I will ask him if he is alone in the breaks or something.

I'm going to sit on an empty bench in the hall. I put my bag down next to me and lean against the wall. Why does it take so long for that coffee to start working? My head is getting heavy so I let it rest against the wall. If I fall asleep now, I won't wake up in the coming hours. I look at my phone and see that we still have 6 minutes before the bell rings,

A warm feeling passes through me. The coffee will work now, almost 2 hours have passed. I lean my head against the wall again. 

Wow, coffee is great, it's also said that you can concentrate better, I hope that will happen. Where are my friends actually? Oh yes, they start the 2nd hour. Luckily Jade is coming back to school today. 

I pick up my phone again to see what time it is. Another 5 minutes before the bell rings. Oh, only 1 minute has passed. I lean my head against the wall again and start tapping the wood off the bench with my nails. Time suddenly goes very slowly.

"Are you okay?" I open my eyes and see that Jason sat down in front of me and looks surprised. The bench is in a half-round. I sit up and look at him.

Wow, I feel lightheaded.

"Yes."

He looks amused at me while drinking his Dr.frizz.

I wipe my hair from my face. He waits until I continue.

"No, not... I'm not," I lean forward slightly and sit with my legs on the sides of the couch and lean on my knees.

"I lied awake all night thinking about how your family would kill me and about a strange book I found that probably knows what I am." His eyes go wide at my words.

"What did you tell your family on Saturday?" He moves a little closer and closes his bottle. Okay, this is serious, I think, he is going to say something serious.

"I have told them there is a name for what you are,'' he says looking away. I look at him knowing there is something else.

''The day after I told them I talked to you. They weren't happy about that. They think I do it to find out what you are.'' He looks away for a moment. "Because you have known our secret for a while now and you haven't told anyone, they see you as a lesser threat. Not everyone agreed ... "He looks at me again, "but with the help of Jake and Valentina, everyone agreed." He quickly adds.

Okay, his family practically knows everything and they are less threatened by me. This is great! They are not going to kill me. I suddenly get a knot in my stomach. I have told their secret to Jade. If I tell Jason this, I will endanger Jade. I also don't want his family to think that I am lying and loss the little trust I ured from them.

He keeps looking at me trying to read my face. "Are you mad?'' he asks.

"No, not at all, I'm happy," I say and finally look at him again forcing a smile. Can that happy feeling not stay longer than 5 seconds.

He smiles briefly. "You were talking about a strange book?" 

Oh yeah, the diary. 

"Friday I went to the library to find information for my paper. Suddenly the light switched off and a diary fell while the library was empty. I waited for someone to pick it up or say something, but there was nobody at all. I picked up the book and started looking into it. The strange thing was that the book was completely empty." I explain. He listens with interest. "The longer I kept browsing the book, the more text appeared. They were just sentences. It was about people who saw werewolves and about ... Vinis. "I mouth the last word.

"Where is that book now?"

"At my home in my bookcase." His jaw clenched but unclenched quickly, he starts talking softer.

"I don't know if it was such a good idea to take it with you," he says.

I do not understand. That booklet provides more information, making clearer what it means to be a Vini.

''Magic is usually not used for good reasons. You were supposed to find it. We don't know who puts it there and with what intentions. Do you want to take it with you tomorrow?" He asks.

I nod, kind of disappointed. I like this diary, it helps me.

When the bell rings I get up and put my bag on. Jason sits still and looks at me, then he gets up.

"I'll see you later," he says and walks away.

"Bye."

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That coffee was not a good idea because I had a headache for the rest of the day. 

When I get home I do my homework and start dancing again. I connect my phone with the speakers in my room and play my dance playlist starting with Kriss kross from christ brown.

God this was not a good idea I'm tired after 10 minutes not because of my ankle but the lack of sleep and the effect of the coffee.

I look at my bookcase and see the diary. I grab it and lie on my bed. What could be so wrong with this little thing? I open the diary and browse through it. Luckily, the lines are still there. After an hour of staring in that book, waiting for new lines to appear I get tired and close the book.

I think about what Jason said. His family knows about me and they won't hurt me. The guilt gnaws at me. Jade knows it. She doesn't believe it but, it told her.

I have to tell him, it's better to not have secrets. Tomorrow I will tell Jason that someone knows. I'm not saying it's Jade, so I don't put her in danger.

During dinner, we watch a movie about zombies. Nice and tasty to watch this while eating.

"Ci your birthday is Thursday, you will finally turn 16." Says my mother and looks happy.

Oh yes, it's almost my birthday. All the other years I would be counting down already. But this year I don't feel like celebrating it or anything.

"What are you going to do with your friends?" My mother asked. ''You haven't talked about it yet.''

Normally my friend and I always plan our own little party.

I lay my plate on the table in front of me and sit down on my leg. "Uhm I don't know. I will see what the others want to do." I have already made the decision, nothing.