Cira's POV

I have been send out of class two more times this week.

My friends are getting more distant and I'm happy about it. People in the school look at me less often and Jason is of those people.

At the weekend I make some homework. I have to make up for all that I have missed. I turn on music and look in the mirror to put my hair in a bun. On my desk, there is a photo of me and my friends under my mirror. I take the photo frames and look at the group. It was last summer vacation when we went to a Rihanna concert.

I look at myself, I laugh and look so happy, looking at Indira who dropped her food the ground just when the picture was taken. I had low black heels on with a leather skater skirt and a black sweater. My hair straightened and makeup on.

I look at myself in the mirror.

Ieuww

I look at the photo again.

Okay, tomorrow it is time to return to normal. I can no longer walk around like this. I have to get my shit together. 

I wake up extra early the next morning. I shower, brush my teeth and then look at my face. I grab my straightening iron and straighten my hair while standing in front of the mirror in my room. I pick up my makeup bag and start with some foundation, mascara, highlighter, and bronzer to complete the look I put some lipgloss on.

I take off my glasses and put in my contacts. I walk to my wardrobe to look for normal clothes instead of sweaters that are 5 sizes too big, I end up wearing black high waist straight leg jeans and a black turtleneck.

I pack my bag and leave home.

I'm feeling good, good, good, good.

While walking, I remember not to forget to take my medication during the break.

When I walk into the school I go to my locker and hang my coat. My friends are standing a bit further near Jade's locker. I put on my backpack and walk towards them.

''Heyy,'' They turn around eyeing me in silence.

They aren't saying anything yet...just looking.

"Hey Ci," Indi says cheerfully and hugs me.

"Heyy," says tothe others.

"You look nice," Daniella says and smiles kindly.

"Thx," I nod and look down.

Everyone is silent again.

This is not awkward.

I should apologize.

''Guys... sorry for my behavior lately. I felt really bad and I think it will stay this way until I get answers.'' They are silent and none of them makes eye contact with me. Before letting the fact that they don't talk to me getting on my nerves I keep on talking.

'' I will not let it ruin my life anymore." 

Then ring the bell.

"Okay, you don't have to say sorry to us," says Sylvana not meeting my eyes.

I smile briefly, turn around, and walk to my class. Jade follows me and is quiet while walking.

When we enter the classroom there are not many people yet. We sit in the back again. Kendell sits down in front of us with a big smile on his face when he turns to me.

"It looks like you're feeling better again." He says kindly.

Okay, Cira be nice, "Yes I feel a lot better."

Gina, Dana, and Maya come in with their girlfriends. Gina looks at me for a second and when she sits down she starts whispering and suddenly all her friends look at me too.

Oh well, I don't really care about them.

When Klaus and Diaro come in they notice Gina and the others whisper and looking at me. When the boys figure out that they're looking at me their heads also turn to me.

Klaus comes to us and sits down next to Kendall. Diaro followed him and sits down in front of me not looking up. I really don't know what his problem is lately.

Klaus turns around in his chair to look at me.

"You look different, Cira ... in a good way." he smiles friendly. Diaro looks at me for a second with the smallest smiles but looks away almost directly.

''Yes...thx'' I answer.

Klaus takes his stuff out of his back ''How do you feel?'' he asks.

''Better than before,'' I answer again and smile.

The teacher comes in, so he turns around.

I'm facing Jade. "Didn't expect everyone to notice that I'm not looking like a homeless person for once," I say.

She looks at me and smiles.

During the break, I walk to the restroom to take my medicine and look in de mirror. I brush my hair with my hand and shake it up a little before taking my medicine.

My feet and back really irritated me with constant stinging pain. I don't have to wear tape since yesterday. When I'm done I want to walk out of the restroom but at that moment a group of students stops in front of the toilet. The girls are busy talking with the boys who are waiting in front of the toilet.

When I walk out of the restroom, one of the girls walks into me. I just want to keep on walking and ignore it but she isn't thinking the same thing.

"Jesus, look where you're walking!" The whole group is silent now.

I turn around to see it's Vanessa who walked into me. She stands in the opening of the restroom waiting for me to say something, with her lips pressed together and a frown on her face.

I see that Jason is one of the boys, waiting together with Dimelo, leaning against the wall. 

Of course, it is him.

He looks at me from head to toe. 

I turn to face the girl again. Who now also looks at me from head to toe but in a different way. God I'm so not in the mood for this.

"Funny, you were the one walking into me,'' I say to her and smile. ''So you should look where your, walking.''

She doesn't say anything back.

When I'm turning around I see Jason looking at me, It looks like he is about to say something to me but he doesn't.

I turn to walk away. Before I walk around the corner I hear Dimelo say:

"Uhhhh you deserved that." He laughss and then he says: ''Ey Jays, if I were you, I would step up my game."

I'm too far away to hear his response.

Step up his game? Where they still talking about me? And why was Jason looking like that? It seems that everyone, including him, is holding something back about me or him. Does fucking everyone know something I don't remember?

I ignore it, just as I ignore my friends acting weird, and Diaro ignoring me.

I see my friends stand up a bit further. They are talking seriously, Sylvana has a stern expression on her face as she talks to Jade who looks angry. Dani is biting her nails an Indira just stares at them while eating her bread like a squirrel, she is probably nervous about something.

While walking I feel that my shoelace is loose so bow down to tie it again. Okay, maybe not so smart to tie my shoes in the middle of the hall during the break.

Ashley and Mila stand in front of me when I get up. Ashley looks at me from head to toe with that arrogant look on her face.

Jesus what is the matter with people today. 

I finally got back to normal, is that so special.

She gets a mean smile on her face. "Cute," she looks at Mila who looks a bit uncomfortable.

"She is trying to look" good''

I frown at her. What up with her? 

Don't know why she has anything against me lately and I don't need to know, just ignore Cira.

She laughs when she is about to walk on.

"What is your problem?" I push my hand against her shoulder so that she doesn't walk away. Not hard, it's just to stop her. 

So far for letting it go.

She stands still again in front of me and crosses her arms.

"Oh, of course, you must have forgotten it? She says rolling her eyes and shaking her head.

Mila looks at her at "Ashley" she says in a soft tone trying to stop her friend from talking.

"If something really happened, I forgot yes. If it's such a big deal, just tell me.''

I sound mean now but if she doesn't say anything I will probably bag her to say something in a few seconds.

She rolls her eyes again "The problem is that YOU had to go after my boyfriend. And that wasn't enough, you set him against me. But hey I'm glad he realized that... "

"Ashley shut up, you talking nonsense." I hear Jade say, irritation thick in her voice. 

My girlfriends walked over here. 

What is she talking about? Her boyfriend?

"Nonsense? I'm not the one talking nonsense." Ashley turns to them, really angry now.

I look at Jade, who doesn't look back at me. It's not Jade who speaks up but Danielle.

"Listen he wasn't your boyfriend OK, he never was your boyfriend and he will probably never be your boyfriend, get over it," she spits the words at her. Meaner than necessary. 

Ashley looks pissed of like she is about to explode. Her eyes are on Dani but she keeps quiet. Her eyes then land on me and I see her expression change. Her shoulder relaxes and she exhales.

"You are all so messed up," she says before shaking her head and walking away. 

I'm stopping myself from going after her, asking her about what happened. I need to know why she is angry at me. I not the type of person to go after someone's boyfriend. 

I was gonna start over today, ignore every weird thing but I don't think It will work out that way.

Someone has to tell me the truth. 

My friends are all silent and look at me.

"Will, you ever tell me the truth?" They are silent. '' I really have to ...." Their eyes all shoot to the right. 

I look around and see, of course, Jason.

He is whispering something to Diaro while staring at me.

"Okay, can you at least tell me who he is and if I knew him? I apparently knew him because what else is Ashley talking about.'' 

They are silent and look at each other. 

I stare at Jade and raise an eyebrow. If someone is gonna talk she will say it. 

"You had to show him around the school, that's it," she says and looks away.

"Yes, and Ashley saw that so you know how that went." Says Danielle. 

I nod, but I know that isn't just it. Why would it take them a month to tell me just that?

I really don't want to be with them now so I turn around and walk to my locker.

Okay so I knew Jason and everyone knows it. Diaro is also acting weird and I hear him talking to Jason. 

I need to ask him.