Hello my lovelies! It's been a while right? I had a severe writer's block. Also some family issues. I hope you all forgive me and enjoy the chapter
Song for the chapter: Run To You- Lea Michele
So enjoy the chapter!

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What Millie said to me two days ago, struck a chord in my mind. What if what she said was true? What if it really is all in y head?

No, I can't move on. I don't deserve to. How can I after what I did to Kris?

*ding dong*

I sluggishly went to open the door of my Apartment. I checked what time it was. It's just 10 am! And Millie told me she won't be able to come because of some personal issues. I opened the door to see the least expected person standing there.

"Hey, can I come in?" Annie asked me in a slow hushed tone. I have not seen her since our last fight, that was right 1 week after Kris's funeral.

" Yeah, sure." I answered in a monotone voice, not sure how to respond to her. Annie was Kris's best friend. Though she is a bitch, their relation was envied by many. Even I wondered, once in a while, how are they able to maintain their bond despite being the literal opposite personalities?

Annie slowly made her way in my apartment, and went to sit on the sofa. She grimaced a little when she saw the condition of the TV den. I mean, my apartment was presentable up until 48 hours ago. That was so because Millie always cleaned up after my mess.

"So... what's up?" Really Jake? That's all you could come up with to start a conversation? 

"Jake, you need to stop." Annie said looking straight in my eyes. It's now that I noticed. Her usual happy persona was replaced with an exhausted one. She looked..... done.

"Ann, if you're here to talk about her, please leave." I know it's wrong, but I am still not over her.

"JAKE WILSON! How long do you think it has been? It has been fucking 5 months for Christ's sake! You are not the only one who lost someone important in your life!" Annie was now on the verge of tears. She looked exhausted, she looked afraid. Afraid to loose someone, Again.

"I know Annie, I know what I am doing is wrong! But do you think it's easy? I loved her! I wanted to live my entire life with her! And now she's gone. Why do you think? Because I was not able to man up and save her!" I was crying. Once again, reminded of her death, I couldn't hold it in.

"It was the truck driver Jake! Not you! How long are you going to fool yourself and keep telling that it was all your fault!"

"Annie, we all know I could've saved her! She would've been alive if I-"

"If I what? If I what, huh? Jumped in front of her? pulled her? Jake you both had a minimal 2 meter's distance between each other! You couldn't have done ANYTHING!" Annie was panting after yelling at me.

"Ann, we fought." I said, softly. So soft, that i bet she strained to hear my words.

Her eyes widened in shock,"What do you mean?"

"Exactly 15 minutes before her accident, we had a fight. It was so immature if I think back. All because I go jealous over her manager being close to her. That small argument turned into a fight, and I left her. She was running behind me, calling my name. But I did not give a glance to her. If I had just looked back, If I had just spared a glance, her last words wouldn't have been ' I'm sorry, but please live on' IT IS MY FUCKING FAULT!" I was crying again.

"J-Jake, I'm sorry.." Annie said, now tears streaming down her face. 

I knew she'll say this. I knew everyone will say this. This was the sole reason why I had kept it hidden for such a long time. I quickly wiped my tears, took my cap and walked out of my apartment. 

ANNIE'S POV

What should I do now? I messed up big time. I immediately called James. 

"Hey hon, what's u-"

"James, I messed up big time." I couldn't control and started sobbing.

"Hey babe, shhh, calm down first. Now tell me what's wrong?" James sounded worried.

"I came over at Jake's place, as I could no longer withstand his behavior. But I said some hurtful words causing him to re-live the events happened back then, now he has left me in his house alone and I have no idea what-so-ever where he has gone..." I continued to sob over the call.

"Okay hon, first of all, calm down. Relax, and stop worrying, I'll call Millie and she'll be able to handle the situation."

"But isn't she at the doc-"

"She said she'll be finished by 12, and its 12:45 right now. I'll call her, and babe, stop stressing yourself out." He said in a soothing tone. I was able to stable my breathing.

I looked at the digital watch over his TV. I hope everything goes out well. I sighed and my eyes started to water again. I'm sorry Kris, I'm not strong enough to keep everything the way you wanted it to be. I just know to mess things up. I'm sorry...

JAKE'S POV

It was the first time I told someone what truly happened that night. I felt slightly relieved but at the same time, all those memories started to haunt me again. 

Too deep in my thoughts, I didn't realize where I had arrived. It was the same intersection. The same  place where I saw her for the last time. The place where I lost her. All the memories came back flooding like a tsunami. My head was aching. I kept hearing her voice, her giggles, her whimpers, her laugh, her last words.

I lost all the power in my body and fell down. I wanted to end this pain. I wanted to get back with her, but surprisingly, I saw Millie's smiling face, her laugh, her shiny blonde hair that reminded me of the sunset that we watched together.

Funny. Why am I thinking of her? Why is she the person I am reminded of? Am I...... No, this cannot happen. It has not even been 6 months since Kris left me. 

"Jake!" I heard someone call out my name. I saw in her direction. It was Millie. She was running in my direction. Again, she had worn a turtle neck sweater and some jeans. Again, she looked gorgeous.

"Please excuse, Move please!" She made her way towards me. I was not sure how to react. Her eyes were filled with un-shed tears. Her nose was all red. Cute.

"Hey." I said to her with a weak smile. She was crying.

"SOME ONE PLEASE CALL THE AMBULANCE! YOU, THERE IN THAT UGLY RED JACKET! CALL THE AMBULANCE!" I chuckled at her perspective, and the boy whom she referred was also dumbfounded but called 911 non-the-less.

"What do you think you are doing!" Millie shouted at me, tears streaming down her face. The only energy I had was to smile at her, and my felt my consciousness fade as I heard the ambulance arrive.

But before I drifted into the pit of darkness, I could faintly hear what Millie said.

"Reason no 3: Whenever you fall, you will always have someone running towards you to hold you hold you up, you dumbfuck."

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So here's chapter 4! Hope you all enjoyed!
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