P a r k J i m i n P O V .

"Here," Sara flinches with my voice as I hold the cup of warm tea in front of her. I sigh softly, sitting next to her and keep the cup on the table, bringing her in my embrace.

I stay quiet. Honestly, I don't know what to say to make her feel better. So I do what I know calms her down, pull her in a hug and peck her her shoulder while my hand rubs her back. She sighs softly, wrapping her arms around me and shifts onto my lap, resting her head on my shoulder.

"I'm not leaving." I assure her with a brief smile. She smiles back, her eyes filling with tears instantly and leans to kiss my cheek.

"I love you." Her voice whispers, quivering against my skin.

"I love you more." I close my eyes, "You don't have to worry, okay? I'm here."

She nods and wipes her tears, "I hate how you can't be my boyfriend even if I want to. Y'know I... I feel like locking you in my room and just stay in bed with you, so nobody will be able to steal you from me. But then, I remember how we are. Both possesive and jealous types..."

My eyes lower on their own as I listen to these words leaving her mouth for the first time in the three years of us dating and breaking up again and again, because we just can't move on. Something happens every time and we end up arguing more, fighting more when we're dating, when I call her mine and when she calls me hers. It's beautiful but it's too painful.

"I don't know how... It's not like we didn't try right? We dated, you loved me and I loved you too. I tried so hard Jimin, to let you live the way you want, to love you the way you truly deserve to be loved."

I shake my head, cupping her face, "It's not just your fault. I did things too, and we both know it. I didn't want to lose you either way, whether we date or not, whether I'm yours or not. That's the only reason, Sara, I said we should stop this toxic relationship and just continue living like normal friends do."

"But this is not how normal friends are..." She cries, "Why? I just ask for one... just one person to stay Jimin. I'm so tired now... I can't even stay with you because I can't love you enough, I don't go home, I don't have friends, and even Jungkook... he left me too. What did I do wrong, Jimin?"

"You have me, baby, always." I whisper as she sobs on my shoulder. It's weird how we tried working it out at least three times, but somehow it always ends with our over possessiveness messing up our relationship to point where we can't stand each other when we're dating and can't stay away from each other after breaking up.

Seeing Jungkook today triggered Sara even more, I don't understand why he's here after so long when she was finally learning to live without him. I blame Jungkook too, we wouldn't have gotten so messed up with each other if he was here. Then Sara would've had a support and probably would've moved on without me, instead of getting herself tangled between our toxicity.

I glance at Sara as she's quiet now, not crying and not say anything. Her hand moves to mine, lacing our fingers together, she mumbles, "Can we try one... one last time? I'll be the girlfriend you want, I'll love you with everything I have, Jimin... just one last chance?"

"Sara," I sigh, looking at her with tears my eyes as well, "this is not healthy. I don't wanna hurt you all over again. Let's not do this and please don't blame yourself for what happened."

She releases a breath, blinking her tears away as she stares at me, "Not even a little bit? You know I love right?"

"I know," I lone tear drops from my eye as I speak, "Maybe I'm not the person, you're supposed to love, because I can't love you back wi-"

"You do," She sobs again, holding the collar of shirt as she sits straight, resting her forehead against mine, "You do, you're the only one who does, Jimin. I don't know what I'm gonna if you ever... ever leave me too. Please, I'll do anything you say, let's not give up."

"I'm not giving up." I assure her, cupping her face, "How can I give up on the person I love the most? I'll be here by your side always, like you've had me all this time, but I'm not the one you should be crying for and begging to stay. Yes I love you, but I hurted you a lot of times too. And this, Sara, is what I'm saying is not okay."

She breaks into another sob, hugging me tightly, "I hate this!" She groans, making me cry too, "I hate everything so much!"

"Shh" I rub her back, "You'll be okay."

"I don't wanna be okay," She muffles in the crook of my neck, trembling with every breath that she takes, "I'm done. I don't-"

"Don't say that," I wipe my tears, "Jungkook is back, I'm sure he's gonna make sure that... you're doing fine."

"No, not him."

"Not me either, Sara." I sigh.

"L-Listen," She tries again, "don't date me, but stay here. Stay with me, hold me, kiss me, love me, just everything..."

I blink a few times, glancing down as I nod slowly, "When I said I was addicted to you, I wasn't joking. I probably didn't realise it any sooner, but I can't even go a day without you, Sara. They say I'm a sex addict, that's why I keep going back to you. Maybe I am, I don't know, but I swear I never used you for that. I just happen to need you for my functioning. We're both obsessed with each other, that's the reason we can't seem to stay away."

"What?" She frowns, "But we fight a lot, I tell you to get lost and never come back and you say you hate me. Then, how?"

"We notice the compulsive behaviour when we're together. I can't stand you with anyone else, and same is with you. When you love each other a lot, but let the ego, anger, jealousy... come in between, both the people suffer Sara. That's why I'm saying, don't date me again. It gets too much to bear."

She lowers her head on my shoulder, silent tears running down her cheeks. I hug her tightly, wiping my own and kiss the side of her head, "Don't cry, I told you this because you need to understand that at some point you have to let me go. Staying with me and forcing our relationship ahead will just keep hurting you."

"Are you happy?" Sara asks me in a hushed voice.

"No," I shake my head.

"Why is he back? Did you hear how he was saying my name? I couldn't help but think of all the times he said he would stay even if nobody else does, he would be there for me and what not." She sighs and I can't help but stare at her, the pain and uneasiness in her voice comes out clear to my ears.

How did Jungkook bring himself to leave this girl? I tried so many times but couldn't turn away from her.

"He's even living here... that boy, his brother he said they're living here. I don't wanna see him, at least for now. I missed him too, obviously, but I think I have the right to be mad at him right? He lied to me before leaving, never answered my calls and texts, just out of the blue he disappeared from my life. Is it fair?"

I take a moment before shaking my head, "No..."

"Now he's back like he didn't ever leave, like... like it's okay to walk in and out of someone's life that easily. Jimin, is it fair?"

"No..." I cup her face, kissing her lips. She kisses back after a second, slowly and tenderly as if she's scared to hurt me. I pull away and stare into her eyes, "It's not fair for anyone to treat you special today and like you don't exist the next day."

"He did that," Another tear rolls down her cheek which I wipe gently with my thumb.

"He'll pay for hurting you." I say, pulling her closer, "No one, Sara, has the right to hurt you."

"No, Jimin, we hurt the people we love. Look at us, we've hurted each other so many times. I've cried nights long in your arms, you've wanted to hold me longer when you couldn't pull yourself together."

"We were both trying because we both were at fault. What Jungkook did, is different than what we have."

Sara nods at my words, "But Don't fight with him. I'll talk to him once I'm ready, which is not now."

"I would've punched his face the next time we cross paths if you didn't say this." I say, earning a soft chuckle from her.

"Don't tell him all this okay? He must've had a hard time too."

"I don't care."

"I do," Sara says, scrunching her face as she pecks my lips. "Why am I like this?"

"Because you're too good. We don't deserve you."

"You deserve better."

"I don't know, you're just perfect. But since we're not working out, let's not talk about it."

"Avoiding the problem feels like it's not even there sometimes."

True;

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