5 hours ago

Jungkook's P.O.V

" what are you dressed up for? Aren't you meeting nayeon at 5p.m ? "

She was wearing a black streetwear sweatpants with black loose tshirt, showing no skin but still looking hot as always. I don't intend to be nosy but she was leaving 3 hours before the specified time.

" I have something to check before meeting her " she replied shortly

" I'll give you a ride I'm going there too " I snatched my keys quickly and followed her outside.

" I didn't say you can come " she stopped and looked at me sternly but passed by her ignoring her.

" you're not tugging along with me like a kid " she spitted out louder this time her brows knotted.

" can't you just shut the fuck up and sit your fucking ass in the damn passenger seat " I bursted I had enough of her nagging but I think I took it so far and I only noticed that after I saw her jaw dropping. I wasn't planning to take back my words anyway so I got inside my car and waited her.

She stepped toward me and kicked the door giving me the most unexpected reaction, again opening the door and giving it another kick almost tearing it out before sitting herself beside me and slamming the door like a mad man.

" what the fuck? " I blurted out glaring at her but she just looked ahead ignoring me and later pulling roughly the belt as if it was stuck which wasn't the case but that girl had short temper.

Because of her rage she failed to fasten the belt, I wanted to offer some help but she rudely slapped my hand away. I was supposed to get angry at her for her rude attitude, that's how normaly I would react in similar situations and even throwing hands if it's coming from a guy, but surprisingly I snorted- the whole scene was kinda funny and surprisingly her rudeness was cute, for me at least.

I think I love everything about her,
Even her flaws.

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I stopped in front of the building where she was planning to meet nayeon. The road which started with fighting ended with her vibing to the music, this girl is really something else.

When she wanted to open the door I held her hand and put a necklace on her tiny wrist. Her eyes widened when she saw her necklace again, I picked it up after she threw it on the rooftop that day I know how much it means for her.

" yeah the GPS is still there keep it there for now, I knew you'll need the key that's why I didn't get rid of it and I couldn't leave it on the ground that day. Please don't get hurt " I explained although she wasn't asking and she didn't bother to respond either.

I stayed there watching till she disappeared inside the building before driving to my next direction.

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" I want to see doctor choi " I adressed the front desk person.

" do you have an appointment sir? "

" no " I mumbled

" sorry you should get an appointment first sir "

" can you tell her I'm jeon jungkook please "

The receptionist stared at me for awhile before grabbing the phone's handset.

I wasn't planning to go there again, and by there I mean the therapy clinic which jimin used to go to.

Yeah I knew that he used to see a therapist but I wasn't aware of his agony, how stupid of me, I supposed it was just another place he picked to spend money at- being the rich spoiled son he was throwing money carelessly right and left, I thought for him paying to get someone to listen to his daily routine isn't a big deal. I was fooled with the smile he was wearing 7/24h, we were supposed to share our secrets too so I thought I knew everything however it turned out that what he showed me was nothing but the top of an iceberg.

He once cried while talking about y/n, with his hands shaking he told me that he feels guilty because he keeps losing his temper when he sees her around boys but when I asked him if he hurts her he denied shaking his head aggressively.

I wonder if it was the only lie he told me.

If only I knew about his obsession I might have interfered to help.

If only I knew about his depression I might have listened to him and kept an eye on him.

A long list of "if onlys" but if only it wasn't too late.

I stepped inside the room for the 2nd time this week, this time praying that I won't be late to help again.

" I told you I won't tell you anything mr. jeon that's the privacy of our patients and I don't care if you are his best friend it's a rule we follow religiously in our clinic "

I cleared my throat and sat on the chair facing her desk " I'm not here for jimin, you have lost that one patient "

Her eyes widened, " what do you mean? "

" jimin is dead. please I can't come here again so give me your time I don't want to lose the last precious person in my life "

She didn't respond so I took it as a chance to start telling her the whole story our little squad went through, starting from the days our biggest concern was to win a dance competition and arriving to the darkness not missing any detail but making it all centered on y/n she's the reason why I was there in the first place. Yesterday I came to this clinic for jimin, however they refused to listen to me bragging about their privacy and rules so now I'm here again but for y/n.

I tried to bring her the closest possible to y/n's personality, telling all the things I noticed and how suddenly her personality changed completely from the fragile sweet girl to a strong emotionless girl. Ms choi was doing great in listening not interrupting me or losing focus as expected from a therapist.

When I stopped she typed something on her computer and took a moment before facing me again with intertwined fingers on the desk.

" CIPA congenital insensitivity to pain with anhidrosis it's the inability to feel pain and temperature, that's how I diagonized it but I'm not sure anymore. This disorder is either inherited which is not in this case since you claim that she totally changed and you said ' like if she became stronger ' but no for me she didn't become stronger she's still the same with the same strength but new inabilities, I think her brain is damaged and she needs both physical and mental help " she took a deep breath before continuing " You say she doesn't fear anything not even death and she doesn't feel pain, I don't know how much pain she went through in her life but there is only 2 possibilities : 1- she's experimenting a really bad depression because of all the severe pain she had it is possible that she started to disassociate from her own body. 2- she probably hit her head forcefully to something which cause the damage. But those are all probabilities I can be wrong after all I have to see her in person and hear from her "

I listened carefully to every word she said I was too shocked to interrupt or ask anything, everything she said is new for me I have never heard about these cases and I'm not the best at psychically explaining people's behaviors.

" she can be healed and come back to what she used to be? " I mumbled the only question I had in mind.

" I don't want to be pessimiste but the chance is so small unfortunately but still again it depends on the person I have to meet her make sure to bring her next time I can't do much now "

I nodded and stood up " ok thank you "

" wait " she called once I turned my back to her ready to leave, " you told me that jimin is dead... "

I nodded slowly " he suicided "

" what makes me sad the most is that I was seeing it coming but I couldn't help him back then, no words were enough to get him out from the dark side I wish if I could reach for you and tell you to keep an eye on him but now I beg you to do it for that girl, she doesn't sound mentally stable and based of what you told me she kinda reminds me of him "

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I ran downstairs and toward the main door of the clinic, my thoughts running faster than my legs making me imagine all kind situations and none of them augur well.

I bumped roughly to someone in the exit of the clinic I turned around to bow and apologize but in the process my eyes widened when I saw that I actually bumped to a policeman. I hesitantly bowed then turned quickly so I won't give him enough time to analyse my face and maybe remembering me. I furrowed my brows and breathed heavly as I walked away. Few fast steps and I stopped in my track when I heard a stern " wait "

Wrinkles formed on my forehead immediately, I knew that I fucked up and I was mentally getting ready to run away.

" you dropped your wallet " the policeman said as he bended to grab my wallet from the ground.

I sighed and faked a smile saying thank you. What I didn't predict was that he might see my id card and that exactly what happened. I snatched my wallet from his grasp and ran the fastest I could as the policeman was confused and looked like if he was trying to remember where he heard that name before. The moment he remembered he started running after me and yelling but that was too late I was already out of his reach and he was kinda slow too but I didn't want to take it carelessly and risk getting caught that's why I kept running fast and left my car there y/n's loft wasn't that far anyway.

Y/n's P.O.V

The moment I stepped inside the loft the memory got revived. I shook my head trying to get out of my sight the image of jimin laying lifeless on the bed, I wished if I could erease that memory forever. my heart was crying all over again but not my eyes. my hands started to shake vigorously.

The loft was calm which made me feel sad. I missed the time we were laughing, talking playing around. We all changed like if a decade has passed but it's only 2 weeks.

I grabbed my phone and called the only contact I have beside jungkook

" I don't think I can do it " I cried out the moment I heard a low 'hey' on the other side.

" get it together y/n all is set you can't back off now "

" what if all we are doing is wrong ? I don't want to lose her "

" you lost her already, the day she thought about stealing your man "

" but that's not what I meant by losing her, I guess we have different definitions for that "

The line fell silent

" wait y/n- " the voice averted when the knocking sound engulfed the loft

" I'll call you later " I interrupted and hang up before rushing to the door.

I opened the door and her flirting expression turned to shock.

" oh y/n ! " she stuttered then stepped toward me and hugged me tight " where have you been we missed you "

Is that a part of her act or I'm suspecting the wrong person.

" we were worried when you didn't answer our calls " nayeon said as she walked inside the loft looking around maybe she still expect to see jungkook, well she was elegantly dressed and put alot of makeup for him. " what are you doing here ? I mean it's dangerous for you the police are looking for you "

I closed the door and slowly trailed behind her.

" were you expecting someone else? " I asked innocently

" no... I'm glad you're here " she smiled.

" where are your keys? " she seemed taken aback by my question.

" I probably forgot it at my place " she replied.

" but we were always taking the keys wherever we go. You knocked that day too. You lost it ? " I crossed my arms under my chest as I remembered the day of the incident.

" are you suspecting me? " she glared at me

" it was you who told the police I was dating jimin, right? "

" what are you talking about? " she played the innocent but I didn't buy it.

" nayeon you can't lie to me, I can tell when you are lying I've been with you for about 20 years "

" you are so weird I take my leave " She rolled her eyes and stepped toward the door

" it was you who stabbed jimin " I yelled, she stopped immediately and turned around to face me her pupils shaking.

" what? " she breathed out

" you are the one who organised the scene and directed a scenario where I'm a girl who killed her boyfriend to date his friend " I always believe my intuition, this time it tells me that I was right.

She chuckled looking at me in disbelief

" what do I get from this? Why would I inset myself in a crime when I don't have something in return? I thought you were smarter than that "

" ah you asked me where I have been all this time, in jungkook's place " I smirked.

She stared at me without saying anything, she's good at controling her expression.

" he showed me your texts nayeon, got it? Should I recite what happened that day? Listen to this story and tell me what you think of it " I walked back and forth as I said " the 6th july, we planned to have a day together you came earlier and you found jimin dead. He suicided the night before you were afraid that me and jungkook will become a couple since he told you that he's gonna wait till the day we can be together. As you promised, you had to do something to stop that because bitch you only thought about losing your crush when a dead guy was in front of you. You cleared everything and make it look like if I killed him using to your advantage the fact that we left together that night and the cameras showed that I left the loft alone. All that to send me to jail and make jungkook despise me. How is it now? Do you still think I'am dumb? " I smirked " c'mon nayeon we know so well how good you are at blocking cctv "

She chuckled sarcastically again but this time I could see that she was nervous.

" but you are dumb nayeon, you forgot to throw away the last proof " I reached for my pocket and pulled the letter. Her eyes widened.

" hmm I guess it has three fingerprints, jimin's mine and yours "

She tried to snatch it away but I was fast enough to pull away and put the letter back on my back pocket.

" I was right " I smiled in victory

" yes I did y/n what can you do about it? Hmm? Why you didn't just shut up and rot in jail ? " her voice echoed in the room

" I wished I was wrong nayeon, I can't believe you did that to me we are frie-" she cut me off yelling " we are not, we were never friends. That word disgust me when it comes from a whore who was hanging out with us just to look cool and enjoy to be called apart of the pretty girls squad. You never considered me as a friend y'all neglected me and were busy enjoying yourselves at parties without giving a fuck about me, I was always left behind but you won't notice that because you are their favorite they didn't even complain about being investigated because of something they haven't done as long as it's for you, they even still defend you and already cut contact with me "

My heart shuttered to pieces, that's what she thinks of me
That's how I made her feel

" I truly love you all, I really do nayeon "

" stop lying. We were always ganging together when someone hurts one of you, you even risked your life to take revenge for lisa but when I was bullied why you didn't move a finger ? You promised me to give them a lesson but the topic was forgotten in seconds " she spitted out

She was right, but it wasn't intentionally

" why you didn't tell me that you love jungkook if you are ready to go to this limit for him ? "

" what you would have done if I told you ? Giving up on him ? "

" no I wouldn't give up on him also I won't stop you from loving him, I will just accept whatever his choice would be because he's not a toy "

" playing the innocent I see " she laughed and walked toward the door

" I called the police " I said.

She rushed toward me exploding
" what did you say? " she pushed me roughly I almost fell on my back

" I'm sending you where you should be " I replied.

" I still have some sympathy for you don't make me lose it and give me the letter " she gritted her teeth as her eyes were digging holes in my skin.

" I won't nayeon, you have to pay for what you have done "

the police sirens went off I was relieved meanwhile she started panicking

" you can't ruin my life like that " she walked back and forth talking to herself " I won't let you have him after ruining my life "

My eyes widened when she grabbed a knife from the kitchen

" n-nayeon " I backed away

" you left me no choice y/n you should have stayed quiet when I gently asked you "

I dodged her when she ran toward me. But she quickly pinned me on the wall
" I love you y/n why are you making me do all this to you " she started sobbing and thrusted the knife toward my heart but I grabbed her wrist fighting back

" nayeon please don't do this, you are my friend " I stammered my eyes wattering " please pay for your deeds and let's start from all over again I know that's not my friend, that's not nayeon I have known since kindergarten "

" you turned me to who I am now y/n, you can't always win you can't always take everything you want " she mumbled tears running down her cheeks like a waterfall.

She kept pushing the knife toward me no matter how much I pushed her away, I was so shocked and heartbroken that I lost strength my hands were just shaking uncontrolably.

" fuck, I can't kill you !! I didn't want to do this but since you're claiming that we are friends we have to go down together" she yelled as she grabbed over my hand which was holding hers and guided them to thrust the knife to her belly stabbing herself using my hands.