Among millions of population, and in the middle of nowhere out of town why I'm inside taehyung's grandparents house. The world isn't small so why that's happening to me?

Our eyes locked for few seconds but it felt like hours and the image of him all naked just popped out in my mind to make me more uncomfortable.

He looks fine like always with leather jacket and wavy hair. I glimpsed at jungkook to see his reaction but he was just staring at him blankly and then when it hit me- what if he brings up the topic now ? What will jungkook think of me after he finds out what I have done.

" I told you to not let strangers inside your house " taehyung cut the eye contact with me and started scolding his grandparents. The granny pinched his arm in response " be respectful toward my guests "

" grandma ! " taehyung growled.

" it's ok ma'am he's right you shouldn't trust anyone inside " jungkook broke in to stop them from arguing.

" exactly, now follow me I'll give gas and you leave " taehyung said glaring at jungkook.

" hey " the granny warned him to watch his mouth but he ignored her and headed outside the house to his car.

" let's go y/n " jungkook called me and bid goodbyes to the couple then went to his car.

" I'm really sorry, he's usually sweet I don't know what's wrong with him today I think something happened at work " the granny apologized, I shook my head but she carried on grabbed my hand with both hands patting them " that was rude of him but please forgive him he has been through a lot of hardship "

The irony

She's asking me to forgive him for turning him to what he is today.

What if you knew that it's me who started your grandson's unpleasant life?

Taehyung is just one of the many whom I ruined their life

I pulled my hand away from her grip and hugged her.

I followed jungkook but bumped to taehyung in the main door I looked over his shoulder checking the distance between jungkook and us and if he can hear us then I whispered " can we talk? "

" just leave " he looked away as he tried to walk past me but I blocked his way spreading my arm.

" I'm sorry ok " I whispered yelled tilting my head to lock eyes with him but I failed.

He pushed my arm roughly, I lost my balance but stood up steadly in an instant

" stop making it harder on me and just leave already " he said coldly and walked upstairs.

I sulked and walked to jungkook

" what took you so long ? "

I sighed then smiled " we can go now "

" that guy looks familiar, I don't know where I have seen him before "

jungkook mumbled as he was checking the mirrors getting ready to move.

A weight on my chest vanished, thanks god he doesn't remember him. He saw taehyung only once and only for a minute or less plus the club was dark so it's pretty understandable that he can't remember him.

" cmon if you saw someone that handsome I'm sure you won't forget him you are obviously mistaking him to someone else "

" you don't pay attention to the others faces when you are handsome yourself " he chuckled at his own confidence.

" touché "

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The ride was quiet after that none of us said a word, not until my stomach growled breaking the silence and made jungkook chuckle.

" you should hold in more I don't have any cach "

" I know a place where we can eat for free " I said and he stared at me suspiciously.

I typed the address and eyed him to find that he was still giving me the same stares

" just go " I ordered rolling my eyes.

We stopped in front of my cousin aka the snake, she eyed us both giving me a glare but the moment her eyes met jungkook's her stares softened and drew a bitchy smile on her face.

" I bet you are my lovely cousin's friend " she started flirting looking him up and down while biting her bottom lip, she will take that attitude with her to the coffin.

" I bet your name would look good engraved on a rock " I broke in before the naive man beside me start a conversation with her. Soobin first looked at me puzzled but her eyes widened once she realized what I was implying.

" burgers is it? " she gulped.

" now we are talking " I smiled and dragged jungkook to the table.

" you should be nice to her she's giving us food for free "

" are you like this with every girl ? " I crossed my arms under my chest.

" what do you mean? "

" emm let me find a word that's less mean ... oh a simp "

" being nice is not equal a simp, but I'm not expecting from you to understand this "

" are you trying to say that I'm rude ? " I frowned at the man who was glaring at me coldly like if he's picking a fight with me. He nodded in a slow agressive way.

" sounds great with me " a laugh replaced the frown I had, how stupid of him to think that he can hurt me.

" sometimes I have this urge of punching you on the face "

I faked a shocked expression " what about the other times ? " I asked.

" you wouldn't want to hear it " he smiled when my cousin put the food on our table and he thanked her.

" I want to hear it " I said once she left, he probably has thought of stabbing me when I annoy him.

He stared me up and down before whispering " I want to fuck you so hard till you go back to your sense "

My jaw dropped and I'm not lying anymore my heart exploded

" you didn't just say that in front of my hamburger " I tried to cover up how frustrated his words made me.

" well you wanted to hear it " he shrugged " I didn't even say all what I have in mind "

" enough. I don't want to hear more "

" are you blushing? " he leaned to get a better sight of my face.

" no I'm eating " I said after taking a bite of my burger and he laughed before starting to eat too.

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Words clear infront of me I read them fluently but I frowned when I couldn't understand a shit because of the guy sitting across me tapping his foot against the floor while staring at me as a problem he wanted to solve. He has been watching me like that for an hour ever since he came back from outside, not to mention that he didn't tell me where did he go and I was worried the whole time that he might get caught.

I couldn't focus on the story I was reading so I threw my phone beside me and glared at him " what? Is there horns growing up on my head or my face is turning to an alien ? "

His restless form soon disappeared as he leaned his back on the couch, his eyes not leaving mine in the process " can you stop avoiding the topic like if nothing happened we have to think things through "

" what do you mean? "

" we don't have time let's sort this out, jimin was obsessed with you so when he felt that he can never get you after you fought he suicided the story was supposed to end there but apparently someone found him and tried to make it look like if someone committed a crime that person must have known about your relationship with jimin and knew that you were both in the loft that night "

" what you tryna say? " I furrowed my brows because I knew where that conversation was leading.

" who was in the party ? and who has the keys ? " he gave another hint

" let my friends out of this " I death glared him

" ok I won't point my finger at one specific person but there is someone who stabbed jimin and planned the whole scene " he patiently explained what I already know but the unclear intent behind the crime was making me either believe that I killed him when I was drunk than believing that someone randomly did it to a guy who was a legit harmless angel. Yes jimin was an angel and a gentleman with everyone except me.

" what they get from that? " I hesitantly asked.

He rolled his eyes " who's suffering from this? " he pointed his finger at me. " you. Now think who wants you to suffer "

I can't think of anyone. I was a troublemaker and a pain in the ass for so many people, I got in serious fights too but nothing too serious to turn to grudges I'm not a heroine in a drama whom everyone wants to drag down and destroy.

" cctv shows that no one other than me went to the loft that day " I blurted out when that one evidence which was deadly against me jogged my memory.

" I went to the police station and asked to watch the cctv too, since then I had one question. are your neighbors all jobless? "

I stared at him confused with his random question.

" the party was on sunday, the day of the incident was monday, but when I watched the recorded video of the hallway and the lift no one left to work, no one showed up actually "

I looked at him dumbfounded.

" the cameras were blocked for hours, that person knows how to control them and made them stop in a photo till he finished " he explained and I could only think about one person.

" nayeon " I mumbled in a low tone.

His eyes widened when he heard that name.

" she did that before " I continued. I remembered the day we brought taehyung to the loft. Her mission was blocking the cameras since she's a great hacker, same for lisa she learned some from nayeon but she wasn't as good and I know for a fact that she's not the one who did that. It's not like if I don't trust nayeon too.. I felt guilty after saying her name

" I think you have to see this " jungkook bit his lips as he looked at his phone and then he handed it to me.

I glanced at him first before looking down at his phone

It was a conversation between the two, I didn't know that jungkook and nayeon were close enough to exchange phone numbers.

My heart fluttered when I read the part where he confessed his love for me but her response caught me off guard.

" you will never be hers and I'm ready to do anything to stop that from happening. She doesn't deserve you "
I clenched my hand when I remembered catching her sending the " I love you " message but she lied saying that she's texting someone she met on internet and most likely she wrote those harsh words about me while we were having dinner together and laughing like the good friends I used to think we are.

I typed her number, I made sure to make jungkook's number private before calling her.

" what are you doing ? " jungkook asked when I stood up and walked few steps away from him.

" hello? " I heard her voice in the other line.

So it's really her phone number...

I hang up.

" jungkook you gonna call her and tell her what I say "

" what do you want me to say ? "

" don't ask me just call her and repeat after me "

He hesitated so I snatched the phone and called her again but this time not hiding his number. She picked up in seconds like if she has been waiting all her life for this call

" hey jungkook " her tone changed in a way that makes me want to just cancel the plan and yell at her

" hi " he responded hesitantly while staring at me.

" it's been awhile are you still angry because of what I said "

Now it's my turn to tell him what to say

" no, you were right all this time " I whispered and he rolled his eyes before repeating after me

" I'm sorry for your loss jimin didn't deserve that I'm still shocked that my friend turned out to be that kind of person "

I had an urge of punching the table beside me but I controled my anger well.

" can we meet I want to talk with you about this " I whispered but he whispered back " no I'm not meeting this bitch "

" please just do as I say trust me " I whispered yelled

" is there someone beside you? " she asked

" no I'm outside you probably heard some stranger "

" oh ok. I miss you "

" go go " I whispered cheered and he closed his eyes before blurting out " let's meet then I need someone to talk to you know I only had jimin and now I'm lonely "

I gave him a thumb up he was doing better than what I expected

" you are not alone you have me beside you jungkook remember that. Send me the address "

" tomorrow in the loft " I whispered and he repeated although he knew that's not a good idea

" why there out of all places I don't have the keys "

We stared at each other in realisation

" don't worry I'll borrow it from lisa just be there in the evening " I mouthed and he was repeating after me with a frown not agreeing to whatever this plan is leading to

" ok see you take care of yourself "

" you too "

I hang up quickly and handed jungkook his phone.

" thank you, you won't meet her let the rest for me "

He grabbed my arm staring deeply at my eyes.

" don't go " he said with pleading eyes.

" police will find me sooner or later, I don't want to go to jail for something I haven't done "

" we can show them the messages and they investigate- " I cut him off " no jungkook the messages and my words are not enough I need a real evidence. I promised to prove that I'm worth your trust before dying "

" I believe you now so don't go. She might hurt you, if she's the one who caused that scene she for sure wants to get rid of you "

" that's my last chance " I said. I grabbed his hand and pulled it away from my arm " I'll be fine don't worry she's my friend "

Now that I know that he loves me I can see the love clearly in his eyes when he's staring at me

Was I blind all the time ?

I smiled to wash his worries out

But was it real love ? Does he truly love me? If yes then why he didn't fight for me? Why he didn't confess his true feelings and face the consequence ?
Did he care about jimin's feelings that much?

He prefered his friend over me,
And now that his friend is gone I see that he moved on quickly.
So when I will go it will be even easier for him.

That's a relief

He bit his lips feeling awkward because of my eyes who were fixed on him for a moment, he wondered what's going inside my head.

I walked to the kitchen leaving him behind in the living room, my throat suddenly felt dry and my body was craving for water.

I gulped the water in one breath

" you didn't say anything about what you saw on the messages " once the glass met the counter jungkook spoke from behind made me flinch because I thought I was alone.

" about what exactly? I think we finished talking about that topic " I played it dumb although I grasped what he was refering to.

" y-you read that... uhh.. screw it, I love you y/n "

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“ if it's true that we all have 4 lives, please let me love you in the other 3 but not in this life because you deserve better than my miserable self in this one “