I woke up with a water splash hit me like a slap. I shot my eyes open and I saw the shadow of a guy standing in front of me. It was dark I couldn't see his face clearly, I crowled backward away from him.

" you have been unconscious for 2hours I thought you died- "

This voice ... sounds so familiar

Jungkook?

" jungkook help me free my hands someone kidnapped me-" he interrupted me by continuing " you can't die like that, I'll make you beg to be killed instead " he said leaning froward and then when I saw his face.
He was so cold toward me, so cold and scary like I have never seen him before.

" jungkook- " he grabbed my jaw roughly " don't you dare to say my name again "

Tears streamed down my eyes and I started to laugh right after, I was so done with everything happening in my life which used to be less than normal to boring.

" you said you'll make me beg to be killed ? But I already want to be killed. please kill me jungkook " I emphisized his name with a smile.

My smile faded away and I gulped when I suddenly felt the sharpeness of a knife against my neck

" but I ruined the life of many so far I don't want to ruin yours too " I said in a serious tone which I bet sounded scary and creepy.

" are you taking back your words ? "

" no, I want to die but I don't want to stay a burden to you after my death " I mumbled calmly

" you already are " he growled making me jolt, " you think I will forget that you killed my best friend? No, he is a brother of mine he's everything I had how could you do that to us. Why you killed him? " he grabbed my hair throwing my head backward as he kept yelling in my face " why ? I thought you're going to explain and deny all the accusations against you. why are you so quiet? "

" I have nothing to say "

He slapped me hard and walked toward the door to leave but before he could go I mumbled

" I have nothing to say, no one is beside me no one believes my words. I explained everything in the police station but I guess I lost credibility. All the proofs are against me everyone says that I killed him, maybe they are right. Maybe I killed him "

He slammed the door but I was grateful that he has at least stopped and listened- he gave me time to talk and didn't interrupt me whenever I open my mouth, I got used to that by then.

The room was dark and my hands handcuffed behind my back. I couldn't move from my spot, I hated darkness especially when it comes to places I've never seen.

I closed my eyes trying to imagine that I was in my room but in vain I was breathing heavily.

At that moment I regretted being stubborn, I wished if I had a chance to turn back time so I would beg him to give me time to explain.

I haven't eaten anything the last 2days can be added to the list of why I was living the worst days of my life.

But one more thing

Jungkook hates me, I thought.

Tears slipped out of my closed eyes. I drained my energy with crying and I dozed off.

~

I opened my eyes when the door cracked. I squinted my eyes because of the light coming from the outside I couldn't devine what time it was but I knew I've been sleeping for more than 12 hours. I still couldn't see the room but his shadow approached me.

He grabbed my arm and pulled me roughly to stand up. My legs were weak but I followed as he dragged me out of the dark room. His house wasn't that bad, it was cozy and pretty.

Now that I can see his face, I know how much he hates and despise me.

He took off my handcuffs and once we reached the living room he pushed me, I tripped and fell on the floor.

" you better say everything you know right now before I lose my patience " he hissed putting his hands on hips

" I said I have nothing to say " I replied running my hand through my hair.

" I'm not repeating myself y/n, I'm giving you the last chance either you convince me or you'll see my other side believe me it's not good to get to my bad side " he yelled and sat on the sofa facing me.

I hugged my knees on the ground breathing heavily. I had a serious debate inside deciding whether I should tell him or not. He didn't rush me and just sat there watching me with anticipation, his eyes burning on my skin.

I cleared my throat and looked him in the eyes " first of all you have to know that jimin didn't have a crush on me "
he looked at me confused

" it was obsession not a pure love. I don't think he has ever opened up to you about that but he tried to rape me once "

" are you making up stories to give excuse for killing him? "

" NO " I yelled cutting him off " why you asked me to explain if you won't believe me? That not something I can make up because you witnessed that "

" what? " he huffed in surprise.

" remember the girl from the bathroom ? "

" how do you know about that ? " he asked refusing to believe.

" exactly no one knows what happened there that day except you, the school manager who didn't believe you after he found the bathroom empty, the rapist and the girl who's me. You saved me that day "

" jimin .. won't do something like that " I could see his eyes wattering but he managed to keep his stern facial expression

I showed him my arm and pointed at every scar telling its story " when I walked home with baekhyun, when I helped cleaning your wounds at the practice room which I doubt you remember since I was just a stranger offering help for you, when I danced with you. He hurt me every time he saw me close to a guy so I avoided them but I failed to do the same with you " I said the last sentence in barely audible tone.

" I'm speechless, why you didn't report him or tell me at least maybe I could have helped him to change " he pulled up his hair in frustration

" I hate to admit it but I was scared, I couldn't even tell my friends he threatened me even in my dreams. And by the way, I still have the messages we shared if you are still not believing me " my hands were shaking when everthing displayed before my eyes as I was telling jungkook.

" I hate him, I despise him, but I can't kill him I will never do that " a tear escaped my eye but I wiped it

" then how do you explain all the proofs that are against you? " with his hand on his chin leaning on his knee he stared at me with all focus and honestly to me he was scarier than the policemen.

" fate " I took a deep breath and continued, " it happened that he's someone I hate, he died in my loft, I'm the last one he met and the first one to see him dead. even I started to believe that I killed him " I chuckled I was still in denial.

" you realise that you are not normal " he was surprised that I laugh in this kind of situations.

" tell me how you would act if you were in my shoes jungkook. I've just graduated from one of the top universities with great grades and got admitted in a big company but everything's gonna get ruined. I was dreaming high just few days ago but in one night I became a suspect and soon going to jail because I can't defend myself. Tell me jungkook, teach me how to be strong " I was annoyed because no one understood how I felt.

" what happened that night ? " he asked sternly.

I hesitated but ended up telling him half the truth. I told him that we had a little argument after he forced kissed me but I didn't tell him the reason why we had an argument and he didn't ask the question automatically thinking that we fought because of the kiss.

" it can be suicide " he exclaimed

" no he was stabbed on the back " I clenched my eyes when I remembered the horrific scene

" who has interest from killing him? " he wondered

" beside me... no one "

" is there anyone in particular you suspect? Maybe someone who hates you or hold grudges against you? "

" well it's easy to ask me who loves me because except my 3 friends no one likes me, I've been in countless fights "

" who has the keys except you and your friends? "

" only us have the keys " I replied showing him the friendship bracelet I have around my wrist with a small key covered with a colorful case dangling from the bracelet as a deco, we all agreed to keep our keys there with us wherever we go.

" that means the killer is one of you "

" I trust my girls they can't even kill insects "

" ah by the way are you in bad terms with nayeon? " he said as if he remembered something

" ofcourse no, why? "

" we have been texting for awhile and that's what I felt like, weird "

" let me see the messages "

" just forget it I might be wrong " he stuttered

" show me the messages you shared " I repeated

" I deleted them accidently " he lied and it was obvious but I had no energy to brag with him.

He stood up abruptly and walked toward me. I felt small sitting on the ground as he towered me. He gave me his hand and when I grabbed it he helped me to stand up.

" let me help you and find out who's the killer together "

" you believed me? You believe that I'm innocent " my eyes glistened in hope and happiness

" no not 100%, but I decided to give you a chance I'll decide later. If you are innocent work harder to prove it. don't betray my trust y/n or else I'll turn your life to hell " his warning made me shiver, his gaze is terrifying when he's angry.

" go eat something before you sleep you can use the first room in the hallway " he said and left to his bedroom.

I still love you jungkook

No matter what you do

No matter what you think of me

I still want you.