Yet another one that is a little more general of it, but I'm impressed how it has already gone around 2 months since I first created this book that is all about Touko Kirigaya, a Bang Dream character that ended up being more special to me than anything before.

Admittedly, when I first came around doing my first book where I inserted myself in an isekai scenario, I were afraid that people would think it as too stupid and it's just too much self indulgence.

Heck, any time I imagine myself with Touko, that's self indulgence, but sometimes I just rather want to share my feelings of her and the scenarios my ever so imagination filled mind has to offer.

There is a ton of scenarios I imagine myself in where I am with Touko, it's kinda overwhelming maybe even, but I just love her a lot.

Maybe me being this extra attached to Touko has to do with me having autism, as most of us that has a neurodivergent disorder tend to think a little differently and have some stuff we hyperfixate as shit ton, at least in my experience as an autistic person.

I didn't even know for quite sometime that I had autism, even if the signs were there since I was just a small child. Me being slow was just blamed on that I were distracted by whatever, not on the fact that I had a disorder.

Once I got to know about the fact that I have autism, a lot sort of just cleared up to me; Like, why I still like and hyperfixate on things that usually people consider is for kids to get excited over, and why I tended to be so slow of me, even if I have a mind filled to the brim with imagination.

I felt so out of place in middle school during all this time, didn't help that the guys always made fun of me in one way or another over things I did not even understand. Perhaps why I often just have been more friends with girls, they feel much, much easier to talk with, and don't judge you, again, at least from my experience.

Is it bad that I talk about such a personal thing here? Maybe, but it still relates to why I have soon enough nowadays arrived at the point of my life that I truly find a source of happiness to me.

Touko Kirigaya is a major source of happiness to me, I indeed get happy over her. I do not care if it's strange or stupid, because with Touko, I actually can be positive for once.

Maybe you wouldn't understand just how much idiotic suicide jokes I've done just because I really just didn't find the motivation for much in life. Touko turned my life upside down, for the better, and I am so damn happy she did.

I myself never fully understood before why people around me when I first joined Twitter always had that one character they always loved, no matter what new stuff arrived etc.

But post-Morfonica, I finally get it now. I fully get it, with how your heart beats for that one character you consider more than just waifu/husbando.

I still say waifu and wife about Touko when talking about her on my Twitter accounts and in general when someone brings her up.

But I see her as so much more to me, she is my beloved treasure, and I do not know how life would've been without her.

Touko is the first and only character ever that has made me feel all this love and joy I feel for her even now, all the way since Morfonica first came to be.

She is irreplaceable to me, and I will keep on loving her no matter what.

I am not a perfect person, and my life isn't perfect either, but Touko Kirigaya exists, so my life feels amazing of it due to her.

Well, hope you guys will be ready for more were I write stuff about her and also let my imagination take the steering to do more stories were I am with Touko.

Thank you all for letting me happy with Touko Kirigaya.

We all have our dull days, but with you, none of my days ever get dull of them. I love you, my beloved guitarist, Touko Kirigaya.