As usual, something new in mind appears that becomes overwhelming.

I don't want to think that I want more attention, but I realize that is unfortunately the truth.

It's the worst feeling of thinking you have no attention on you, because you shouldn't crave attention ever.

Yet here I am, feeling out of it with this intrusive thought that I do not want, but have for some reason anyway.

The people I have encountered that basically lives off wanting to get constant attention have been some of the worst to talk to, and I do not want to be like them, ever.

But with this thought emerging, I maybe aren't too different from those sort of people.

I guess I also feel this because my beloved Touko has a lot of attention to her due to her social medias. But even then, she does all that for fun, and while the attention she gets from it, it's not something she craves by any means.

She does what an mini Internet celebrity would do, and I don't blame her for that.

"Steeephy, there you are! I am done with the latest live outfits and took some photos of them to hype up my followers for our next live-"

But as she comes up to me, she notices at once something is wrong. She have gotten really good at noticing things about me.

"Oh, hey Touko. Don't worry, I am sure-"

"No, tell me. Ya know I am not giving up on asking you what's wrong." She replies as she sits down next to me and holds onto my arm. "So, what's up?"

"In short, an intrusive thought that I want more attention, when I actually don't need it. It's complicated and all to do with that I feel so outside all sorts of circles, even if I am good friends with a fair amount, I think."

"Oh dear, I see..."

"Yeah, and it's such a stark contrast to how you get a lot of attention, but you just have fun with it all in the end and don't crave it by any means."

"Heh, that is true~! While being in the spotlight is fun, attention is never life or death by any means." She tells me as she stands up and takes out her phone. "While I have almost a million followers, I just use social media because it's fun sharing and the spotlight is awesome! But in the end, it's nothing I need 24/7."

She puts the phone back in her pocket and sits down on my lap while facing me, slightly catching me off-guard with this sudden action. "I can say for sure though that you always have my most attention out of anything ever. People whom cares about you I am sure has their attention to you at times and don't forget about you by any means~!"

"Oh Touko, what would I do without you..."

"You still would've been the same good ol' Stephy, but my life would've not been the same without you being my boyfriend, hehe..."

We soon hug each other as I snuggle up against her, which makes her giggle and hug me even tighter.

"Hope that helps a little at least to get off those sorta thoughts. I know you aren't someone who craves attention at every second, we all have those dumb thoughts about ourselves at times, even me." Touko continues as she pats my head, which makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

And she is right, about it all. So I should go on no matter what, because I have Touko and, even if it might not feel like it at times, my friends by my side.

"Right, no more sitting around. Time to continue doing various stuff!"

"Including me~?"

"T-Touko..!"

"Haha, kidding, kidding~! Let's continue watching Clone Wars, I really liked where we have come so far!"

"Yeah, sure thing, heh." I reply to her as we decide to do just that. It's always nice having attention, but it isn't needed the whole time, not when I have Touko, my beloved Touko.