I am just now writing this, and chapter thirteen part one was written when I was in middle school (I'm in high school now) so the writing will be a little bit better in this part :)

Once as much of the jello I can get off me is off me, I read the clue. It says: "Even though things didn't go well with her father, look to find the beings who look like your daughter." What?! I don't have any kids! I haven't even done "the deed" if you know what I mean. I think. Didn't go well with the father, OH! I know! He's talking about Brittany, my raccoon who I think of as a daughter. Me and Duncan adopted her together but I got full custody of her when we broke up. She didn't like Duncan anyways. My best friend Tommy is watching Brittany for me. I miss her lots. Anyways, I think the clue is telling me to look for a habitat full of raccoons. I know from watching Total Drama Action that Beth's raccoon from the episode "Top Dog" brought her to a cave full of raccoons. So I search the forest until I find the cave. When I go inside it as just as it was in Top Dog; the raccoons are very civilized. I see my clue and say goodbye to the raccoons before leaving. The clue says "I'll never forget you!" I start running as fast as I can to the Dock Of Shame, where I yelled "I'll never forget you!" to Duncan. I was going away on the boat and he was waving me off, oh good times. I climb on to the Boat Of Losers, which is parked on the dock and find the wooden carving of my head from the episode of TDI where Geoff got eliminated. It has CD carved into it, which Duncan carved on during the episode. That was really sweet of him. I wonder what happened to all that sweetness during World Tour. But enough about that, I grab the head, which has a sticky note on it. The sticky note says: "Congratulations, you've completed the challenge! I run as fast as I can to the beach and give the head to Chris.

"Wow, you sure did that fast. To bad it wasn't fast enough! Gwen got here first, which means she has invincibility," Chris says.

"UUUUUGH!" I scream. Sucks enough not to have invincibility, the fact that Gwen beat me makes it worse! Gwen has a smirk on her lips, but I know just how to wipe it off.

"I've come up with a new rule about what will keep me from telling you and Trent's little secret, Gwen," I say, and now I'm the one smirking. Gwen's face drops. She sighs angrily.

"What is it?"

"You and Trent aren't allowed to win invincibility."

"What?! I knew you were cruel but that's just a whole other level of evilness! That basically confirms our eliminations; your going to make an alliance and then get rid of us one at a time!"

"Tragic."

"Fine then. Tell everyone about me and Trent. I'm not missing out on a million dollars. I've made it this far and I won't let you ruin it for me," Gwen says. Oh shoot. I think I may have gone to far. Now I won't be able to blackmail them anymore! But I still have my super big alliance, so I still have a really good chance to win.

"Fine then. But I'm just going to warn you, this is war, and your going to lose!" Great, now I'm in two wars! One against the Geoff and DJ and Duncan and one against whoever Gwen is voting with. I doubt she doesn't have an alliance, her, Trent and Cody are all friends so I'm sure they've formed one. At least the other two alliances only have three people in them. My alliance has five. Soon Sadie shows up.

"Did you get here first? She asks me. I huff a breath of anger.

"No. She did," I say, pointing at Gwen who has a big annoying smile on her face.

"At least you got second. I mean, like, it sucks that you didn't get invincibility, but second is good for your, like, pride," Sadie says. I know she's trying to be nice and I should just agree with her to make her feel good, but my mothers words pound in my head until I can't take it and have to says them aloud.

"Second means nothing. If your not first, you failed. You lost," I blurt out. I remember when I was six and I got second in the first grade spelling bee. I was so excited! Our teacher did it for fun and to try and get us interested in spelling bees so we would get good at spelling. Most of the words were three or four letters, it wasn't meant to be taken seriously. But my mom always has and probably always will take everything seriously. She told me what I just said to Sadie after the Spelling Bee. My dad nodded his head in agreement. I was so ashamed. From that day on, there was no more having fun during Spellings Bees. I took them seriously, studied for hours when I was only a third grader. Enough about that though. Sadie looks taken aback for a second, then returns to her normal happy self.

"I'm not surprised that you would say that," Sadie giggles. What does that mean? I want to say. But instead I just laugh it off. Next to arrive is Katie, then Trent. They all come around the same time range. After a while waiting and listening to Sadie and Katie go on and on about things they've done together back home, a few more people finally arrive. First Duncan, then Bridgette followed by Geoff. Me, Katie, Sadie and Bridgette glare at our opponents. They glare back.

"Me, Sadie and Katie got here before you, Duncan," I say with a smug look on my face.

"Only because I helped you!"

"What?! You got your clue off my back so I got mine off yours! How is that you helping me?"

"I could've ran away and hid so you couldn't get the clue, then you wouldn't be able to move on. Gosh, I should have done that, now that we're against each other. You know, since you wouldn't let me be in an alliance with you."

"Well I already beat you, so suck it up! Of course I wouldn't let you be in an alliance with me, your a jerk!"

"I don't get you Courtney! Just yesterday we were doing fine and today you hate me again? What I did in World Tour was wrong and you have the right to be upset, but at least don't lead me on to thinking we're all good then hate me again the very next day!"

"Dudes, dudes, this is a personal thing you two need to figure out. It's super awkward for the rest of us," says Geoff.

"Geoff is right. Lets talk later," says Duncan.

"No, lets just drop the topic," I say; I don't want to talk about it because I know that he's right, and I can't stand being in the wrong. I already feel bad enough about myself.

"No, we're not dropping the topic! I'm tired of being in a fight with you! Courtney, I am so sorry, and I really really..." his voice gets quieter, "I really love you." I stand there in surprise. He said that earlier in this season, but this time it sounded more genuine. My face softens.

"I'm sorry too," I mutter. I really am. I don't know what's up with me. It's like I can't stand that I want him to be with me so I push him away from me. During our argument, DJ arrived. I was caught up in the intensity of my feelings that I didn't even notice. He looks confused. I see Geoff whisper something to DJ. I can tell he's trying to be discreet but I still notice. He's probably telling him that he'll tell him what happened later.

"Dang that was confusing!" Cody says as he hands Chris a canoe paddle. His last clue must have lead him to the paddle, probably based off the time Gwen hit him in the crotch with it. I quietly giggle and point that out to Sadie, Katie and Bridgette, who awkwardly laugh. They are probably still tripped out by what happened between me and Duncan. I wonder if he's gonna try to talk to me later. Maybe it is best if we talk. Everyone sits there awkwardly. The silence is weird; Katie and Sadie always seem to have something pointless and stupid to go on and on about. We're all till waiting on Eva. Everyone else has arrived already. Most of us take a seat. I make sure to avoid eye contact with Duncan so the awkwardness doesn't get any worse. Katie is sitting really close to me, and after glancing at my blank expression a few times she puts her arm around me and starts rubbing my back. That's really sweet and thoughtful of her. I lean my head onto her shoulder and she gives me a reassuring squeeze, one that's seems it's as if to say everything is gonna be okay. Minutes after minutes go by and I start wondering what's taking Eva so long.

"Yo, I think imma go check on my girl Eva. She sure is taking a while," DJ says. Great minds think alike!

"No, your not allowing to interfere with people who are still doing the challenge," Chris says.

"Aww, man!" DJ says. Eventually, Eva shows up. She stomps over to Chris. After seeing everyone, she starts cursing under her breath about how stupid the challenge was and how mad she was to be last.

"Aww, it's okay Eva! First place is all that matters anyways, to get invincibility.

"Yeah well I still shouldn't have gotten last. Who got the stupid invincibility anyways?" Eva asks.

"Gwen." I say, a clear disgust in my voice.

"Oh, and speaking of Gwen, don't you have something to announce?" I say. Gwen's content face drops to a concerned one.

"Oh, um, yeah, well, first I need to talk to... the other person involved in my announcement."

"Either you say it now or I'll say it now," I demand. Gwen worriedly looks at Trent, who gives her a 'what the heck is going on' look.

"Five, four, three, two," I count.

"Ugh, okay! Me and Trent are back together!" Gwen exclaims.

"What?! Why didn't you tell me? I'm your closest friend here!" Cody says angrily.

"Gwen, why didn't you ask me before telling everyone? Maybe I wasn't ready for our relationship to be public yet!" Trent says, intensity in his words.

"Trent, I am so sorry. It was Courtney's fault!"

"Well you two must have done some discussing behind my back because from what I know the secret would be kept if we voted for who she wanted next!"

"Who cares why your secret was leaked, I wanna know why I wasn't in on it! I've done so much for you Gwen!" Cody yells.

"I'm sorry Cody! We didn't tell anyone. It wasn't just you being excluded from a secret, Leshawna didn't know either!" Gwen frantically tells Cody.

"I can't believe you, going behind my back like that Gwen!" Trent says, ignoring Cody.

"Can you please try to actually understand the situation? We would both lose our chance to the million if I didn't tell them! She was blackmailing me!"

"She was blackmailing both of us, and I know for a fact that there was no part about you telling everyone our secret just now!"

"You weren't there when she- ugh! Explain, Courtney!" Gwen orders.

"I'm not getting you out of your problems," I ruthlessly tell her.

"I hate you!" Gwen yells, then storms off. Cody stomps off in another direction, and Trent angrily speed walks towards the boys cabin.

"Courtney, you have a lot of explaining to do," Bridgette says.

"Long story short, I saw Gwen and Trent kissing and blackmailed them into voting for whoever I told them to on their team. That's why Leshawna, one of the strongest players, is gone. Your welcome. Anyways, after I got second place in today's challenge, Gwen was being all smirky about beating me. So I taught her a lesson by not allowing either of them to get invincibility or I would tell everyone about their secret little romance. Anyways, she refused my deal and here we are."

"Dude. You are... awesome! Way to go, breaking up Cody, Trent and Gwen's alliance we all know that they had like that!"

"Thank you. See boys? The girls alliance plays hard," I say, then me and the girls walk over to our cabin. Bridgette suggests we decide who to vote out, so we all sit in a circle in the middle of the cabin.

"I think we should vote for Gwen, since she's probably out to get Courtney now," says Sadie. Wow, how... intelligent of her. I should have more faith in her.

"That's a good idea, but now that Gwen, Trent and Cody's alliance is done for the only other alliance is the ex-killer bass boys. If we get rid of one of them it will make them less powerful," Bridgette strategizes.

"That's a good idea! We also don't want any of us to go home, so we need to think about we is gonna be voting for who. Gwen is probably voting for me, Cody is probably voting for Gwen or Trent, I have no idea who Trent is voting for and I have no idea who the ex bass boys are voting for," I tell the girls.

"The guys alliance will most likely target us since we're their worst competition. Geoff won't want to vote for me, DJ won't want to vote for Eva and Duncan needs time to patch things up with Courtney so he won't let them vote for her. That leaves Sadie and Katie."

"No! We can't be separated and we don't want to go home! Katie says, panicking.

"Don't worry, sister. We won't let either of you get eliminated," I say, and I'm surprised by how much ease my kindness seems to give Sadie and Katie. Maybe I need to think more about being kind.

"So say the guys alliance votes for Sadie, Cody votes for I dunno, Gwen and Gwen votes for Courtney. That means that if we vote for Gwen, she'll have six votes, and Sadie will only have three. Even if for some reason Trent or someone votes for Sadie, we'd still over power their votes," Bridgette explains.

"Wait! Oh my gosh. We are SUCH idiots!" I exclaim and then start laughing hysterically.

"Huh? Why?" Eva asks, a smile tugging at her lips due to the sight of my crazy laughing.

"We can't vote for Gwen. She has invincibility," I laugh.

"Awww, man! We are idiots! Awesome idiots, though," says Bridgette. Everyone giggles.

"New strategy, we're voting for Duncan. No one likes him and it will weaken the guys alliance. If that's okay with you, Courtney?" questions Eva.

"Oh yeah, that's totally fine. I'm so confused about him, I think we're gonna talk it out tonight. But we're not going to have a relationship, and if we do it will be a friendship, anyways, I don't need him here. I agree to voting for him. You girls good with that?"

"Yup," say the girls.

"I wonder when dinner is, I'm hungry," states Sadie.

"Me t-" Eva starts, but is interrupted by Duncan barging into our cabin.

"You could have knocked!" Eva says, glaring.

"Sorry. Wanna come talk Courtney?" Duncan asks.

"Uh, okay. See you girls at dinner," I say before leaving the cabin with Duncan.

"Wanna go sit on the dock?"

"Sure, wherever you want," I say. As we silently walk to the dock, the birds, our footsteps and the sound of the wind fills my ears. I've made so many torturous memories on this island that I never realized that it does hold that special sound that outside does; the sound of nature. It's a sound I've never quite appreciated before, but right now it feels nice to take it all in. We get down to the dock and sit on the end. We sit in silence. I move my feet around in the cold water and look out on the dim horizon. The coldness of the water doesn't bother me, it's actually kind of nice. There is a warm breeze blowing and my hair blows across my face. I brush it off and look up at the sky. The sun is setting beautifully. It's still shiny but not blinding, and it's a clear sky. The sky has a slight pinkness to it and all of the sudden I'm all up in my feelings. I wrap my arms around Duncan and lean my head on his shoulder. He looks at me and smiles, and I see that there is a tear running down his face. I continue to look at him, a slight smile at my lips. He wipes his tear away and puts an arm around me.

"This is so perfect. The sunset, the water on our feet, the perfect temperature of the air, and you right here with me," Duncan says, reading my mind.

"It is. It really is."

"I think that mother nature is trying to give us a good setting for a hard conversation," he says. I nod my head. I let go of Duncan, let go of that perfect moment with him and me and nature at its best, his arm sliding off me as I do so. Duncan takes a deep breath.

"So, I, uh, I knew that this conversation was important and that we needed to have it, but I didn't really plan on anything to say. I just wanted it to flow naturally," Duncan says. I look down at the water. This conversation does need to happen, he's right. There are six words that I've longed to ask Duncan since the second Tyler revealed the truth. I need to know the answer, and this is the perfect time to ask.

"Why did you cheat on me?" I look up at Duncan and say. My eyes have been dry this whole time, but my feelings hit me hard. It was so hard not to know the answer to that question for so long, and knowing that I'm about to get the response to the question that kept me up crying in bed so many nights pushes me over the edge. Tears rapidly spill from my eyes and I release a high pitched pained sound then start silently crying my shoulders shaking. I don't wipe the tears from my eyes. I allow them to fall down my cheeks and onto the dock that I once stood on yelling "I'll never forget you," not knowing that soon I would wish I could just forget. Duncan takes a deep breath. He is getting even more emotional than he was a few seconds ago. When he speaks his voice hints that he is on the verge of crying.

"It's kind of a long answer," he mutters quietly. I sniffle, turning my crying into a series of quick rushed, gasp-like breaths.

"I want to hear it," I say.

"Okay," Duncan says, pulling himself together.

"During the time I was gone during World Tour, I was thinking about you. Unfortunately, I wasn't thinking about how much I missed you. I was thinking about how mad I was at you. I was also thinking about Gwen, and how she accepted me for who I was. The thoughts that were going through my head right then were how you made a list of things I need to change about myself! You made a list of rules I needed to follow if I wanted to be your boyfriend! You didn't accept me for who I was, you were trying to shape me into the guy you wanted me to be. What I wasn't thinking about then was the good times we had together. Like during the break between Action and World Tour when you went camping with my family and we slept in the tent together, and you would wake up super early and just have to wait outside for everyone else to wake up. That trip was probably our best week together. We were both super nice and respectful to each other, and we had so much fun! That was the you I fell in love with. Not the girl who would act like I wasn't good enough for her, yell at me and just be all around disrespectful. Back to World Tour, that night when you and Gwen took me back to the plane, I was so happy to see Gwen! Unfortunately, I wasn't happy to see you. I wasn't thinking of the good times, I was thinking about the lists and how you wanted to change me and the times when you were just straight up disrespectful to me. Then we got to the plane and you started yelling at me and I was so mad, I was so done with you, to be honest. I should have just broken up with you, but... the truth is, the truth is terrible and will go down in my history as one of the sh*ttiest things I've ever done. I cheated on you on purpose. I did it because I wanted to hurt you the way you hurt me. I was happy for the rest of that season, happy with Gwen and happy to be hurting you. It's so sick and awful. But that's the truth. I'm so sorry." We sit in silence. The pain I feel in my heart is so severe that I want to just numb my feelings. Hearing everything he said was so painful. It was like my feelings were being stabbed with a knife. My breathing grows quicker. I feel like crying but the tears won't come out.

"I'm sorry," he says again. I take quick deep breaths and put my head in my hands, then take it out, then talk quick and frantically.

"I, I knew that you had a good time seeing me in pain, I saw how much fun it was for you. That's why it's so hard to hear it from your mouth. It brings me back to World Tour. It brings me back to the whirlwind of bad emotions, and just everything," I say.

"I'm sorry. I really want to be a better person. When I was sitting in prison after All Stars, I was thinking. I was thinking about everyone I hurt and all my regrets and suddenly I got the stomach turning feeling and started crying. The dude I was sharing my cell with told me that I was having 'the moment'. I asked him through my tears what that was and he said it was the moment that almost all the prisoners had where they realized how badly they messed up. The thing was, I wasn't even feeling bad about why I got arrested. I didn't care about McLean's stupid mansion cabin thingy, what I had realized was about how badly I messed up with other people. Ever since then, I've felt the regret I should have had the second I kissed Gwen. I really do regret it, Courtney. I wish I could take it all back. I love you, and again, I am so sorry," Duncan says, his voice full of compassion, emotion and realness. I look at him, my eyes swollen and my spirit full of many different emotions.

"Thank you for the apology. It really means a lot. I've been waiting for so long."

"Yeah, it was definitely overdue. Sorry about that, too."

"Thanks."

"So, what do you think will happen to our relationship, moving forward?" Duncan asks.

"I think we can be friends. I don't think you understand how much pain you put me through. I was literally broken down and felt so lost and heartbroken. I cried so many times and cried internally even more. I put up a persona for the TV so I could keep my pride, but I was in agony. It was terrible. Sorry, I'm going off on a rant. I just needed you to know that it wasn't something that I simply moved on from," I say. Duncan starts crying.

"That's so terrible. I'm so sorry." He says, now gushing tears. I start sobbing. This moment is excruciatingly despairing but I'm glad that we're having it. I'm glad to see that he cares this much, that knowing that he caused me so much pain causes him pain. Once we are both able to gather ourselves, I put my hand out towards him.

"Friends?" I ask.

"Friends," he says, but instead of shaking my hand he gives me a big hug. I hug him back and don't let go for a long time. He doesn't pull away. I'm still feeling a flurry of bad emotions, but now there are good ones mixed in. I think back to when we first sat down and I noticed nature and felt its spirit and realize that now I am feeling Duncan's spirit. He isn't a bad person. I know he's not. He did a terrible thing but as of right now, feeling his body against mine is giving me positive energy and feelings. When we finally let go of each other, we're both smiling. I finally feel closure. We walk back to the cabins in silence and it isn't till I wave goodbye to him and walk the final steps to the cabin door that I realize that I have a terrible headache from all my crying. I hold my head and take a deep breath. I'll just have to deal with it. I walk into the cabin and all the girls jump up and wrap me in a huge group hug.

"Tell us, like, everything!" Katie says.

"Okay, can I have a sip of water first?" I ask, a playful tone to my voice.

"Of course, like, take all the time you need!" Katie says.

"One quick question, do you need me to go beat the crap out of him?" Eva asks.

"No," I giggle.

"Okay. But let me know if you ever need me to pound someone for you!" Eva says.

"Don't worry, you'll be the first person I'll talk to if I ever need someone's butt to get beaten!" I laugh. I sit down on my bunk and drink a sip of water. My headache is still there but I don't have any ibuprofen so I try to just forget about it. Then Chris's annoying voice comes through the loud speakers.

"All campers please report to the campfire!" I groan.

"I guess I'll tell you guys everything after," I say.

"UGH, okay," Sadie says.

I sit between Bridgette and Katie at the campfire. I felt bad voting for Duncan after we had that amazing heart to heart conversation, but I that's what the girls alliance agreed on and I wasn't about to betray them. Chris goes through all his blah blah blah about the elimination ceremony, then starts handing out marshmallows.

"The first marshmallow goes to... Cody. Next one goes to Trent, next three to Geoff, DJ and Katie."

All the safe people smile, but some still look concerned for their fellow alliance members. I'm happy for Katie but I'm also concerned for my own safety.

"Duncan, your on the chopping block because everyone thinks your a jerk. Eva, Bridgette, Courtney and Sadie, I guess you should've kept your alliance a secret because now everyone in it is a target in order to weaken your pact. Trent, Cody is mad at you and Gwen and Gwen has invincibility sooooo, I think it's obvious who he voted for." Cody glares at Trent, who rolls his eyes and crosses his arms like a kid in elementary school.

"The next marshmallow goes to Trent." Trent pumps his fist up and down and now Cody crosses his arms. Gwen just looks distressed. I kinda feel bad for her, I know how much stress sucks.

"Sadie, Eva and Bridgette, your safe." Chris tosses the girls marshmallows. I give them thumbs up, but they all look worried about me. I'm super stressed. This can't be the end! I'm getting so close with the girls, not to mention that we have a powerhouse alliance going on!

"Duncan and Courtney, your the last two. Lucky for you, you both still have a chance because this is a tiebreaker!"

"Last time there was a tiebreaker, I got shoved out of a plane window without even being given a chance!" I say, giving Chris the finger.

"Hey, put your finger down! That's rude! Anyways, this time, you do get a chance to do the tiebreaker."

"Geez, the forces of the universe are really against us, huh Court?" Duncan asks with a playful smile.

"Yeah, well, you voted for me," I say (I know because I know that Cody voted for Trent so the guys alliance must have voted for me, along with Gwen and Trent.)

"You voted for me too," he shoots back.

"I did," I smirk.

"EWWW enough of your gross teenage flirting!" Chris says.

"We are not flirting! We're just friends joking around." I say.

"Whatever. On to the tiebreaker! Now, this is something we've never done before but since there were five votes for Courtney and five votes for Duncan and Cody was the only one who didn't vote for either, I'm going to let Cody decide. NO ONE IS ALLOWED TO TALK. No trying to convince him to vote for either one of them, or I'll send you packing!" I honestly don't know what to think. I have no idea who Cody will vote for, but it sucks that my elimination or safety is in his hands rather than mine.

"Wow, it feels nice to have so much power. This is awesome dude! I think I'll give the last one to

*SUSPENSE*

Courtney! She's the only one I can trust to tell the truth around here."

"YES!" I yell. I thank Cody as all my alliance members cheer.

"Just like we said earlier, this is a war you won't win, Ex Killer Bass boys," Eva says. Geoff and DJ look defeated and embarrassed. They exchange goodbyes with Duncan. Then I think of something. I bolt away and rush to the cabin, grabbing the item from my bag and running back as fast as possible. Duncan is already out to sea by the time I arrive.

"Duncan, wait! Here's your skull back! Think of it as a sign of friendship!" I yell, then throw him the skull he threw me when I was leaving.

"I'LL NEVER FORGET YOU!" He yells.

"I'm sending you an air hug!" I yell back, then hug the air and blow. I watch the boat fade away. I feel happy and content. It's a good feeling. Bittersweet, but good.

When I get back to the cabin, I tell the girls all about me and Duncan's conversation, and about my feelings. Their so sweet and supportive. I'm glad and lucky to have them.

Who will be out next? Will I actually get invincibility next challenge? Will Eva and DJ kiss? Find out next time on Total. Drama. Island 2.0!

Authors note: I know that a lot of people will be upset that Duncan got eliminated, which is totally understandable. I just wanna let everyone know that although this story has romance in it, it's not a romance story. It's more about Courtney and her thoughts and feelings and the game. Thanks for reading! Hope you enjoyed!