Jungkook's POV-

I don't think Namjoon or myself have stopped smiling since we got here, and that was almost two hours ago.

I failed to realize just how long the drive here was until we got in the car and the driver started on the journey out of town.

At first it was a little awkward, but as soon as Namjoon started talking about his memories of all the nights we would star gaze in Busan we easily fell into a comfortable conversation. We weren't quite talking as casually as we used to but it definitely felt comfortable.

Mr Lee had been the one that suggested that I come to the observatory tonight to see the meteor shower. He and his wife were here to watch it as well so they let us in when we arrived but they weren't here for too long before they left Namjoon and I alone.

After they left we started to take turns pointing out constellations and then telling each other about them. There were a few he knew about that I didn't and a few I knew about that he didn't.

It was really nostalgic to get to see him so impressed with my knowledge. It gave me a sense of accomplishment and pride that I had long forgotten the feeling of having. I was always so excited when he was proud of me.
He was my idol, and in many ways he still is.

Thankfully, he didn't really talk about Jin unless I asked him questions about him directly or he would be telling a story and he would accidentally let his name slip. If he did this he would apologize immediately after and I would have to assure him multiple times that it was okay.

It was just so nice and very spontaneous to spend this night with him but it worked out perfect.

During our reminiscing about the past he tried to remind me of the song I used to sing often and when I didn't quite remember what he was talking about he proceeded to sing it to me himself.

Please don't see
Just a boy caught up in
dreams and fantasies
Please see me
Reaching out for someone I can't see
Take my hand
Let's see where we wake up tomorrow

My eyes lit up as I started to recall the song. He continued to sing to me and I was able to join in.

We sang the whole song together at the top of our lungs and when it was over we laughed about how terrible he sounded, even though I would sing any song with him any day and not get tired of his singing. He doesn't sound bad when he takes it seriously. His voice is just so, him.

Later he got me talking about Yoongi and I'm sure we talked for way longer and a lot more in depth than he had anticipated about him, but I appreciated having someone to really listen to me and give me sound advice about how to communicate with him effectively. After all he has known Yoongi far longer than I have.

Then the conversations naturally drifted to him giving examples on communication with his own relationships (or rather his relationship with Jin specifically but he was being subtle about it.)

He was very careful to not go into too much detail, I'm sure to keep me from being uncomfortable, and even was consciously avoiding Jin's name until I just came out and started asking about him.

I know our last talk started out good, much like how it's been tonight, before it went wrong. I don't want to spoil anything but I felt like I needed to talk about him with Namjoon before I tried to talk to him.

One of the biggest things I learned from my Hyung was to try to see situations from all perspectives, so that is what I want to do.

"I know when we spoke before you didn't know about what happened between he and I. Not all of it at least."

He nods slowly. " That's right. I didn't know all of it."

"Did to talk to him about it later?"

"I did. That same night actually. I left the company just a few minutes after you left my studio to find him."

I nod along with him before I meet his eyes again and ask, "Was he upset that I told you?"

He purses his lips as looks up as he thinks. "He was but I don't think he was upset at you. He was upset that I found out in general."

He returns his eyes to meet mine as he continued. "I don't think he wanted to tell me. I don't even think he ever had any intention of telling me the whole story. He was so worried I would see him differently, and in that moment I did. I was so upset and hurt that I even moved some of my things back into my place and didn't speak to him."

I chuckle. "And here you are giving me advice on communication."

"I know, it was very hypocritical of me and I could have reacted differently, but I just couldn't quite wrap my head around the situation. I kept picturing in my head what it would have looked like.

"Him standing above you while you sat on his bed staring up at him, mortified at the whole series of events, while he is yelling at you and saying those terrible things. You were only fourteen. You didn't know what you wanted, but you were trying to figure it out. And he told you that what you were trying to figure out was unnatural for you to even want to explore."

He gulps as he starts to blink back tears. "I couldn't understand why he came unhinged like that. I still don't fully understand..."

"I think it's like you said before about when the two of you spoke at first and started eating lunch together. He was just as confused as I was. It was an outburst of epic proportions, but I don't think he meant it. He was caught off guard."

"He didn't! I swear he didn't and that's exactly right. He cares about you so much and he cared about you then too. I am not defending what he said because I refuse to condone what was said, but I know he didn't mean it."

I've been observing him very closely through our whole conversation. He has been visibly calm during the whole conversation, but talking about my talk with Jin has really upset him.

I can't help but feel grateful for that because he cares about me. It upsets him because Jin hurt me. This is the reaction I thought I would get that day when we spoke before and that's why it caught me so off guard when he did seem to defend what was said.

"I know it is late, but do you think we can see him?"

He turns his head quickly in my direction from where it was tilted as he looked at the stars. "You- You want to see him?"

I nod. "I'd like to. I don't want to lose anymore friends. Do you think he would come here if we told him where to go? Or we can go back-"

"No, I'm sure he would be happy to come up here." He says as he scrambles to get his phone out of his pocket to call Jin.

...

When Jin arrived the awkwardness returned.

He shifted uncomfortably in the chair he was on. His eyes kept darting around the room as he looked pretty much everywhere but at me. He was extremely uncomfortable but I was surprisingly calm. I think I really am just ready to move past all of this.

"Jin?" I say while raising my voice just enough to break threw his panicked daze.

He jumps a little when he hears my voice and still instead of looking at me he looks down at his lap.

"I'm going to tell you the same thing I told Namjoon. I don't hate you." I say as I begin to feel a lump form in my throat. I try to gulp it down as I continue.

"I did for a long time, but I came to realize that I wasn't looking at things from your perspective. You were just as confused about your feelings as I was. I would imagine I would be shocked too if in the middle of my state of denial when I was younger, a boy would have kissed me.

"Granted I don't think I would said what you did, but I would have been upset. I apologize for not trying to see things from your perspective sooner in our situation."

He finally raises his head and brings his eyes to mine. We have very limited light in the space, but I am still able to see that he is crying.

"You are apologizing to me?" He asks looking very shocked.

I nod.

He continues to stare at me as his lip begins to quiver just before he breaks into sobs. Namjoon is seated next to him and he begins to rub Jin's back while he continues to cry.

I sit for a few minutes longer and let him get his emotions out but when he starts to seem like he's calming down I stand up from my chair before moving to kneel in front of him and rest my hand lightly on his shoulder.

When he feels my hands he takes it in his to hold it as he raises his head to look at me.
The regret and sadness in his expression strikes my heart.

"I didn't mean anything I said. Even if I was confused with my own feelings, I shouldn't have projected the things I would say to myself onto you. That wasn't fair and I would take it all back in a second if I could."

I look at him in complete surprise. "You used to say all of that to yourself?"

He nods sadly. "I was so lost and I would not accept what I was feeling. I didn't want to be different. I sought out an internship away from my hometown so I could hopefully distract myself and get rid of these thoughts and feelings, and then you came along.

"You were so sweet, just as you are to this day, and genuine. We became close so quickly and I will admit I selfishly liked the attention you gave me. I should have spoken with you when I could tell you started to like me and flirt with me. I should have explained my inner struggle but I hadn't even fully admitted to myself that I was struggling.

"Nonetheless, I had the thought more than once to tell you or even end my friendship with you, but I didn't want to. I liked the attention and I liked talking to you about my pictures. No one else really cared to listen to what I had to say and be interested in my pictures except you and Tae."

"I think I understand now Hyung. I'm sorry it took me so long to talk to you both." I say as I look at both of them. "But I'm ready to move past this I think. Are you willing to do that as well?"

They both nod in agreement.

"I want nothing more." Jin sniffles.

"Is there anything else that needs to be said?" I ask.

Jin speaks up again, "Just that we care a lot about you. And that we missed you so much."

I lean forward so I can wrap my arms around Jin as Namjoon brings his arms around us both.

I'm ready to bring these two back into my life. I don't want to lose anymore friends.

Now I just need to fix things with Tae.