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My heart hurt... so much.

When people talk about heart break, I never understood it until this moment and god damn did it hurt so much.

It literally felt like it was being torn in two. It felt like I was going to bring everything in my stomach up as I stared at the sight in front of me.

When his eyes locked onto mine I felt numb. The pain was almost unbearable and although I wasn't exactly sobbing, yet, I felt tears fall down my face.

Barbara glanced back to me, unfazed, not even covering her fat ugly self up. Max turned to her in shock before glancing to the clock... had he been...

Everything had been silent until now.

"Why..?" It was the first thing that left my lips, "Max, why?"

"Hollie" He pushed himself up and I felt vomit everywhere. Seeing him naked now after touching that other woman, made him so ugly. I honestly thought I was going to pass out.

"Hollie, baby, you're pale, you need to sit"

"Don't" I backed off, slapping his hand away, "Do not touch me or call me baby!"

"Hollie, let me explain"

"Explain why you're in bed with Jabba the hut? Also known as my boss who makes my life hell! I told you how much I hate her, how she treats me!" I was screaming now and he watched me with panic filled eyes.

When I saw the bored, almost smug look on Barbara's face I lost it.

"YOU FAT COW! YOU- EVERYONE HATES YOU, USELESS SLAG! NO ONE IN WORK LIKES YOU" I charged at her, diving onto the bed. I began ripping at her hair and her skin, the screams coming from her made me happy.

I only got a few scratches in before Max managed to pull me off of her.

I turned to him, slapping his cheek, "I told you not to touch me!"

"Hollie, please calm down. Let me explain"

"Get out" I glared at him.

"What?"

"Get out" I balled my hands into fists, "Both of you, get out"

"Hollie, please"

"Say my name again and I will kill you. Now get the hell out"

"Okay, okay. We'll talk later, baby and-"

"GET OUT MAX! BOTH OF YOU NOW, GET THE HELL OUT OF MY HOME!"

"You're fired" A now dressed Barbara snarled.

I glared at both of them, but caught the pain In <ax's eyes as he mouth 'I'm so sorry, I love you'. That didn't help. That only made everything a whole lot worse.

I kept a straight face while secretly inside I was dying. It felt like an eternity for them to leave the apartment. I sat down, shutting my eyes tight and the moment I heard the door click a loud sob broke from my throat.

My phone rang and I barely made out the name through the tears.

Zac...

I hung up, bringing my knees up to my chest. My throat was already sore as I continued to sob.

Before Max and I got together, I told him of my trust issues. How I never trusted guys, he promised he wasn't like them. He promised he would never cheat and I had believed him, I had given him my heart.

My phone rang again and once more I picked the red button. I was not in a state to talk... to anyone but myself.

"why? Why me?!" I couldn't stop crying. I was head over heels for this man and he decided to break my heart. It seemed like I was over-reacting but I had never been hurt like this before. Apart from when my bunny died...

That only made me feel worse.

My phone began buzzing again and I picked it up, throwing it at the wall as hard as I could.

"Shut up! Shut up!" I snapped, glaring at the remaining pieces of the phone.

It was never even durable.

I lay back against the wall, allowing myself to cry loudly like a child would. It had been years since I had actually cried like this and it felt good to get it out.

I picked up the closest thing near me, the remote, and smashed that against the wall too, "Screw you, Max. I hate you" I screamed, the tears weren't stopping anytime soon.

I loved him.

Why did I still love him? Even now, when he had hurt me like that.

I hated him.

I had seen a future with him and of all people to cheat with, it was Barbara. Why BARBARA?!

Not only had I lost the love of my life, I had lost one of my jobs.

"Why?" I continued to sob, the question was repeating itself over and over. Why did he cheat? I tried to do everything to please him. I cut out my best friend, Zac.

I forgave him whenever he did wrong, I didn't complain when he came home drunk without warning. What did I do wrong? Was it because I rejected him last night?

My eyes flashed up to the door when it knocked. My nostrils flared as I pushed myself from the floor. I was ready, I was ready to use my fist and punch the daylights out of him.

Don't resort to violence.

I stood still, refusing to answer it until the knocks came faster and harder. So hard that I thought the door would break down.

I grinded my teeth together, I hadn't wanted Max to see me cry but I couldn't help it. I pulled the door open aggressively before pausing when my eyes landed on the person.

I tried shut the door quickly but he had already wedged his foot between the door so I couldn't.

"Take your foot away, Zac"

"Hollie? What's wrong?"

I tried to force the door shut again, but he pushed it open with ease and stood in. His eyes fell to the smashed phone and remote on the ground, "What happened?"

His usual calm collected state was gone and his voice shook when I didn't answer, "Where's Max?"

My lip quivered when he spoke his name and his brow furrowed, "Did he.." He quickly caught on.

He stormed past me, toward my bedroom, not saying anything else. He was back in a few seconds, a disgusted look on his face as he held up the packet of a condom. It was open, so he knew what that meant.

"Did he...?"

"Did he what, Zac?"

"He could have done a lot of things to make you cry like this, Hollie, I'm going to assume it was cheating"

I bit my lip, holding back a sob that tried to escape.

"And you walked in on it"

I nodded my head, tears streaming down my cheek. He immediately pulled me into a tight hug, "I'll kill him"

"Please don't"

"Do you know her?"

I lost it at that question.

"Who?"

"Barbara"

I felt him tense up, "Your boss?"

"Ex-boss, she fired me when I called her names. I wouldn't have gone back anyway. It's so humiliating"

"I'll kill them both"

"Please go away" I pushed him off me, "Please leave me alone and don't do anything. I just want to be alone for now"

"No"

"I'm telling you to get out, Zac, I'm not asking!"

"I'm telling you no"

I felt my nostrils flare and my teeth grind together, "Get out! Get the hell out of my home, Isaac! I don't want to see you, I don't want to hear you say 'I told you so'. I just want to be left alone so get out before I call the cops" I didn't even know what I was shouting, all I knew was I was mad. Even though this wasn't his fault.

"Sit down"

"No! Get out"

"Sit the f-ck down Hollie! Now!" My eyes grew wide at his tone and for some reason I listened. I made my way to the couch and sat down slowly. Zac pulled out his phone and glanced down to it before walking over to me. He planted down beside me but didn't touch me.

"Please"

My eyes flickered up to him, "Please what?"

"Please let me kill him"

"No"

"Why?"

"You'll go to jail"

"That's what you're worried about?" He chuckled, "Me going to jail and not Max dying?"

"That too, I guess"

"You're hurting bad, I want to make it better"

"You can't"

"Wait here"

"Where else would I go?" I grumbled, wiping my eyes but tears kept coming even when I wasn't sobbing. He stood up and walked to a different room. I wasn't sure where because I barely gave him a glance.

I looked beside me at the empty space.

I was going to be alone now. That didn't feel good. Max was gone and I was going to be alone forever. How could I ever trust again?

I barely felt the tears anymore, feeling almost numb

Barbara.

Of all people! Every time I thought of it, it just made me mad.

I couldn't stop all the questions. Why did he cheat? Where did I go wrong? All that stuff.

Zac's footsteps re-appeared and in an instant he was sat next to me again. I glanced over to him, "What did you do?"

"Nothing, yet"

"Yet? Zac..."

"Do you trust me?"

"At this moment, I'm having a lot of trust issues" I pointed out and he nodded his head in understanding.

"Sorry, sweetheart"

"It's fine, you don't know how it feels. You're usually the heart breaker" I joked, forcing a smile on my face.

"I've had my heart broken before"

"Are you just saying that to make me feel better?"

"No"

I looked up to him, "Why didn't you tell me before, Isaac? I could have been there for you"

"You couldn't have"

"I could have"

"Hols, chill. It was a while ago"

"I'm mad you didn't tell me"

"You got to chill girl"

I narrowed my eyes, "Don't call me girl"

"How about baby girl?"

"Yes, because Max will love y-" I paused in the middle of my sentence. I was so used to scolding Zac when he tried to flirt with me because of Max. Was that why he did it? Was it because he found out int he past, Zac and I had spent one night together.

Would he really do it over something like that?

"Sorry for crossing the line" Zac frowned, "I'm trying to get you to stop crying but I'm making it worse"

"It's okay" I swallowed the lump that had formed in my throat before raising my eyes to make contact with his own, "Tell me about your heart break"

"Why?"

"So I can relate and not feel alone right now"

"So you want to remind me of my pain to benefit you?"

"Basically"

"Good friend" He chuckled, "I don't know what to say"

"Who was she?"

He shook her head, "You don't know her"

"I know most of your friends" I frowned before my jaw dropped, "Was it a work colleague?"

"No"

"Did she cheat?"

"No"

"Was she horrible?"

"Not at all"

"How did she hurt you?"

"I don't think she realized she did. It was partially my fault too"

"You hurt her"

"No" His phone buzzed in his hand and his eyes dropped to the text. He studied his phone for a moment before a small smile grew on his face.

"What is it?" I tried to look over to his phone but his screen was too dark to see.

"Barbara" He chuckled and my heart hurt. Did he need to say her name like that?

"You're talking... to her?"

"No. I contacted someone about her"

"Uh... what's going on?"

"She's fired" He glanced down to me and wrapped an arm around my shoulder, "Bad recommendations will be given to every local job she applies for so you never have to worry about seeing her again"

Only Isaac...