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Rima Rhythms, 20 years old..

I used to turn away mocking the Good news of Salvation, The word of God, The world of God.. The Heavens...

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Some says that Heaven and Hell exists.. Yes, indeed...

I used to live the way I was until one day, I came seeing myself lying from drinking the cyanide, full of stabs, a blood of myself from suiciding.. Had not repented from hating this world... Not even forgiving people nor preaching the word of God through the Lord Jesus Christ...

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He used to call me a lot of times, making to turn all things back to where I was innocent, thought it was good, it would be all good as I grew up came to realize I was wrong..

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Reality is a bluff.. Reality is almost close to the world of hell... Sometimes I wonder why Satan's sending his imps and demons to seduce weak creatures like me, weak Faith to God, weaklings, negative thoughts came bluffing God's creations... Satan might be once good... What if He also felt these doings?

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Reality has discriminations... I could see how the reality treats God's people... But with innocence and deceptions, it's so easy to get lost your Trust to God once you have that everything...

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And once you feel you are like God, you are starting to get competitive with a Pride... Good applauds of audiences to be heard... It is good to be god, to get fame, to be a savior also... But we knew it would turn wrong... I knew it was wrong... So I repent? But no way...

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If People in these times are showing no interest for knowing the kinds of me then it's turn to pay back for thinking that God would deny me getting into the kingdom of Heaven... He would hate me also... He has no interest for knowing me... He would kick me out of His life...

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I once served God, having those good lives... But double minded had came to the top of it, serving Satan and God for many times... For I hate people treating unfair... thoughts... unfair.... God.... unfair.... Satan.... your world might be good...? I felt comfortable with that way.... Why not Jesus came to understand me? to comfort me? Was I not repented? Repenting if.... for what?! Were He? God? showing interest for His people, for only those of His people... Wasn't that called discrimination too?

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I knew He came to my life... I just didn't care... not even want to hear... I was comfortable with Satan... Satan understood me.... Was I wrong??

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I fell into the tunnel... For almost seven minutes before greatly had a bad impact falling to the pit.... I was inside the coffin... Knocking and kickin' it out to open... I was suffering for not breathing.... Yes, I couldn't breathe...

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The small marching devils were at the top of my coffin, marching on it, laughing... Those were holding a pointed sphere, were about to torture me by stabbing my soul... Sold by Satan...

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I cried in fear... as they opened the coffin, I kicked it to make me out and climb to the pit...

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But the demon who has a brown colored, hairy, pushed me down forcefully as an odor smell coming from him, from everywhere.. almost making me sick and yell for God's mercy... But I did know, this, to where I was destined... I was too late.... I could not repent on Earth... I am already dead...

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As I found myself lying.... Being tormented with a fire... I was in a pit... Skeleton from flesh skins burnt, falling together with a fire, tormenting, I was being tormented... Then suddenly worms started to get in my bones... Yes, I was a soul, sold by Satan... But here in Hell, My senses doubled... I could feel, smell, touch, hear, taste the whips of Evil, the Hell... The tormenting, the tormented... Worst smell... Nauseous... Nasty... Sick!!

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As I came to my senses... Words about to feel... About to say....

"Le...... let me..... let me....ou....t",

"Every soul, asking for that.. They wanted to out but THIS IS FOR ETERNITY!! Feel sorry for yourself!! You let yourself to be stubborn!! Go!! SCREAM!!! HURT!!! TASTE THE EVIL!!! That Satan is your god!!!", The Devil said stabbing me back and forth... I could not explain his torturings but it made me sick! Made me sick that it was so hurting as you could imagine... hundred times... Billion times more than that... I was so afraid!!! But I could still think! THINK!!!

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"It's time to exchange positions with the demons to give you another curse of evil...", The devil had stopped from stabbing and called another demon to exchange the torturings...

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As he walked away... I cried... moaned... had begged for a help... It was so hurting.... pained.... Satan? Why are you doing these? I served you with all my heart.... Is this the way how you save me?

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I found myself crying... "Satan.... I wanna know...", I looked up...

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As Jesus looked under the pit, to where I was trying to get up but worms were making me suffer most of the time... Crawling in... I could feel it... I was so afraid! And Jesus, yes, It was Jesus with someone, above.. They happened to pass by...

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This someone... Someone who's Holy... Someone who deserves to get listed, written in the Book of Life... Someone who knows Him best... Someone who will Preach with no mocking blasphemy... Someone who'll spread the Word without being hypocrite...

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I could see Jesus' face.... A sorrow, a grief... Sadness.... Together with this woman, the someone who will Preach the Word of God truly... Pitied me... Sorrowful.... Sadness... Their eyes.... Their eyes were telling me Peace, be still... "If I could help you"... Their eyes told me how hardly wish to get me out of here but We all knew... Too late...

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"My Lord... I studied the Word of God, the Word of You... And I judged people who did not welcome You in their hearts... But I am one of them... I turned to be so judgemental and hypocrite... I turned to show partiality among these people... I am nothing but a doubt... Nothing but to fake You... Indeed, I studied Your words... I just studied it... I did not repent... I had been proud for so many years that Heaven would be mine... I claimed, I pretended I was all Yours . I treated them unfair as of how they were showing no interest of me... I thought they deserved those! But I also came falling here used by Satan... I am also here, in hell... I had no repent .. But I love you now... Lord... I love You now oh God... My Lord... Let me talk to you a few more time... I Love You....",

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I cried in so much pain, but I could not feel my eyes, not even feeling how it out some tears in front of them... I was looking up and trying to reach Jesus' hands... But I failed... nothing to climb up, I slipped a lot of times... Being tormented again... Repeatedly hurting... Repeating... Repeating...

"I called you a lot of times but you used to reject me... I called you... But you did not hear me... You pretended not hearing the God's call... There was a time but you did not repent... You had served Satan and God... You turned away completely from me... There are no more opportunities left... You are too late.... too late...",

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He responded all my thoughts... He's been feeling, showing so much sorrow... I know how much He wants to help me but this judgement is set! I could not take back for my body has been dead! No more... No more opportunities... I knew why He could not help... I understood Him....

"Lord... My Lord... I do not ask you anymore to let me out of here... But I want to hold your hand.. Just give me a few time! A few time to hold it! I want You even if it's too late! I love You Lord... I love you..", I responded with a tears running down my both cheeks...

"I have been so much afraid for the past few years... I called myself a brave but I was a liar... I tried to be independent but I couldn't even depend myself... I committed suicide because that was the only way to see You... Lord...", I continued...

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Jesus together with the woman tried to offer their hands as I reached it finally and held both of it... I knew it was my chance, time to climb up but hell is hell... Jesus is Jesus... Lying is lying.. They will know everything...

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I smiled to both of them with all my heart... This would be the last time seeing them...

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Jesus did not feel disgust... For it made me happy He cared so much... I want to hug Him, Hold Him... I Love Him...

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I knew some of souls like me began to cursing blasphemy after hearing Jesus said it was too late! But I knew everything... I don't want to curse blasphemy because I was the one who had done wrong... I made my decisions... I made that decisions on Earth....

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I smiled instead... And let go of His hands, their hands... and fell impactly again... Surrounding with the worms... Being tormented... My time with Him was so limited... I could not talk to Him any longer... That must be the very greatest chance that happened in my life...

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Jesus stood up weeping... As He held His child's hand and continued to the Hell's belly... I was left here... No... I didn't curse Him! I will Preach Him more!! I will laugh..

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"Why are you laughing?!!", The demon finally came about to torture me again.. Holding a blade and a poison... A drink... with a poison... Demon lifted up my chin, even if I was so bony, I could feel how it hurts . Doubled times... Billion times senses.... He poured the poison inside my mouth and made me vomit and feel sick to feel death, that I was dying a lot of times.... I cried... yelled.... And cursed the Demon in front of me, torturing me... He slashed my eyes and I could feel it bleeding... I could not see clearly.... But I only laughed and began to tease the Demon with my jokes from Earth...

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"How hardly wish my breads were here..", I stated drawing the abs at the Demons stomach...

"GONE!!!!", He stabbed me again and this time... Throwing the biggest Snake to tie me till I can't breathe...

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I laughed again.... Undefined reasons, why am I feeling joyful...

"H...ha....haha.. H...hey.... Why are you so ugly?", I teased... Trying to touch Demon's cheeks...

He did not answer and pushed me down again and torment... torment .... I cried.... Moaned..... yelled...Screamed...

He put on cuffs behind me, my hands with a cuffs behind me.. Chain on my feet, then kicked me with the visions of teleportation into jail, a cell, worst scary feeling of being a prisoner from the sinners stage...

"H...heh...heh... Come on? Is that it?", I teased... Pains surrounding over my dead body but I really didn't care, I was too late, and taking those for another ride of jokes might be good...

"FUCK! You once being seduced watching bed scenes when you were at 13...!!! Now someone devilish will go fuck you!!!",

"Yes... I had been tempted with that... As a child with an innocence hiding at the corner, watching my mom and dad, watching porno... The imps whispering my ear... They said: 'watch it, for you are not gonna filled with innocence, come, the reality,get matured to it, it's normal' just like that...", I said...

"How come you have a guts to respond with that condition?!", He yelled slashing my neck.... stabbing my heart.... Pouring poison all over again... Then torment.... torment.... Getting me in a coffin and being tied up with a snakes... Torment.... Couldn't breathe... feared... I cried.... But no... I was too late!!!

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I laughed continuously and began to tell something that made him quiet...

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"Do you not feel being loved?",

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The demon just looked at me, wondered . ..

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"Go take me to Satan... :) Call your imps and devils to guide me..."

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Author's Note

(This is according to my visions from the future.... Some of ideas are taken from the story "Heaven and Hell Testimony, Angelica Zambrano"... And from "Divine Revelation of Hell by Mary K Baxter")

(I'm telling you once again... Those stories were both true... But this one (which is fiction) is not true.... I just happened to get some ideas once I fall into the hell....)

But I am not selling my soul to Satan.... Like you... I also asked The Lord to come in my life... I am always afraid of modern times.... But... Like you again.... There's still time to repent so we don't get too late!

We will both let the Lord come enter in our lives!

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And sooner... If ever I fall into hell... I will ask Satan... I will make sure I will talk to him...

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Hell is eternity... Always scaring me... I'm not an anti-Christ... Is there anyway at least we could do? Does Satan has no heart anymore? What if.... What if.... The world with God and Satan just start all over again... Forgiving at everything...? Right? Peace.... What if.... Peace.... Pleading, know how impossible but I want Peace both together with Satan and God.... I want us with the Peace... And all souls living together... And all people on Earth.... Peace, Just in Peace...