Yoongi and Jimin cook separate meals that night.

Ever since Jimin's been watching his calories he likes to know exactly what's in the food eat eats.

"What are you making?" Yoongi asks.

Jimin shrugs not really answering.

"Alright. Well. I'm gonna go call my mom back." Yoongi says putting his dish in the sink.

Jimin's meal is well under 500 calories which the nutritionist told him not to do.

At least he's eating it right?

So what if he's had less than 800 calories today.

Jimin sits on the couch alone forcing himself to eat.

Everything inside of him is telling him to just dump it down the garbage disposal while Yoongi is in the room.

But he just sits there nibbling and pushing his food around.

He feels fat. And greedy.

He doesn't deserve this.

Why is he ruining everything they'd worked so hard for.

Jimin wipes the silent tears from his face and stands from the couch heading to the kitchen.

Yoongi walks into the kitchen and just like that his plans go to hell.

"Hey." Jimin says.

"Hey. Um that was my mom." Yoongi says.

"Yeah. I know." Jimin says setting his bowl down.

"She asked if we could come to hers next week. Dad's out of town and she's by herself." Yoongi says.

"Okay." Jimin says.

"Really?" Yoongi asks.

"If that's what you want." Jimin says.

"It's up to you." Yoongi says.

"Fine. It's fine." Jimin says.

Yoongi doesn't think much of it as Jimin dumps the rest of his food.

"I gotta go tell my mom we're coming then." Yoongi says.

"Alright." Jimin says washing his dish.

Yoongi is genuinely excited to go see his mom for the first time in a while.

Jimin could stand being around people for a few days.

Jimin leaves his dish on the counter heading to his room.

"Yeah. I mean. You can just. Don't ask to many questions." Jimin overhears Yoongi talking on the phone.

"Nothing's wrong. Just. When you see him don't say anything." Yoongi says.

What does he mean? What would she say if she saw Jimin?

"Mom. Just trust me. Please." Yoongi says. "I don't want you hurting him."

Jimin feels embarrassed. Why does Yoongi feel the need to warn his parents not to hurt him.

What does he think of him?

He's ashamed of him. That's it. He's ashamed of you and he doesn't want you making a scene and embarrassing him.

Jimin's heart sinks as he goes to his room closing and locking the door.

Jimin pulls his sleeves down as he lays down.

He's always freezing and he can never seem to get warm.

"Jimin?" Yoongi calls through the house.

Jimin closes his eyes and tries to force himself to sleep.

"Jimin?" Yoongi asks knocking on the door.

Jimin doesn't answer as a few unwanted tears fall.

"Jiminie are you okay?" Yoongi asks trying to open the door.

Jimin cries silently. Why does he always do this?

Why is he always crying?

"What happened?" Yoongi asks as he hears Jimin's soft cries. "Jimin what happened?"

Yoongi was getting really worried now.

"Open the door Jimin. Now." Yoongi said sternly.

"I just want to be by myself." Jimin says his voice breaking horribly.

"Did I do something wrong?" Yoongi asks.

Jimin doesn't answer.

Yoongi sighs waiting a few seconds before retreating to his room.

How did he always manage to fuck everything up without trying?

***

Hey babies...that was weird I'm sorry.