"I can see how much you care for Yoongi and I know you don't want to hurt him." Namjoon asks.

  "Of course I don't want to hurt him." Jimin says.

  "What are you willing to do or what changes are you willing to make to be sure you don't hurt Yoongi?" Namjoon asks resting the top of his pen on his bottom lip.

Jimin sighs his head already throbbing. "I have a feeling you're going to tell me."

  "Well first you're going to get out of this mind set that you're  going to ignore every suggestion I have for you and disregard anything I tell you to do." Namjoon says his voice suddenly very strict.

  "Okay." Jimin says with a shrug.

  "And second." Namjoon says sitting up and leaning forward. "You're going to lose this attitude of yours."

  "I don't-"

  "I'm here to help you Jimin. I'm not against you in this. I'm not your enemy. I'm trying help you help yourself."

  "I understand that." Jimin says. "And I really appreciate it."

  "I'll ask you again. What changes are you willing to make to be sure you don't hurt those you care about?"

  "Whatever changes I have to."

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  "You okay?" Yoongi calls as Jimin enters the flat.

  "I'm fine." Jimn calls back following Yoongi's voice to his room.

  "How'd everything go?" Yoongi asks shutting his laptop.

  "It went I guess." Jimin says sitting across from Yoongi.

  "Anything new?" Yoongi asks the smallest smile playing on his lips.

  "No." Jimin shrugs taking one of Yoongi's pillows and crossing his legs.

  "You're not upset are you?" Yoongi asks.

"No. Course not." Jimin says. "Why would I be?"

  "I just know it isn't something you wanted to." Yoongi says.

  "Doesn't matter." Jimin shrugs standing from the bed. "Help me make dinner?"

Jimin leaves the room before Yoongi answers already expecting him to follow.

When Yoongi does enter the kitchen Jimkn is on the phone with who he assumes is his mother.

  "Yeah." Jimin says rolling his eyes as he pulls down random pots and pans. "Mother I've told you a million times that we'd come next holiday. The next one."

Yoongi busies himself going behind Jimin and putting things away.

  "No." Jimin says. "No. But I'm sure he'd understand. He's understanding."

Jimin sighs as his mother speaks again on the other line.

  "You said you'd come last holiday then this one and now the next? Jimin are you avoiding me for some reason?"

  "I'm not avoiding you mother." Jimin mumbles snatching the refrigerator open.

Yoongi steps forward grabbing a few things before returning to the pot on the stove.

   "Then what is it? Is it Yoongi? Is he still convinced that I hate him?"

  "No. Yoongi doesn't think that you hate him mother I just don't want to come home for the holidays." Jimin says.

Yoongi turns to look at Jimin with a look in his eyes that Jimin reads perfectly.

  "But I haven't asked." Jimin sighs. "Maybe he'll want to come. But maybe he won't?"

  "Oh how perfect. I'll have everything planned out and we'll-"

  "Maybe he won't." Jimin repeats earning a glare from Yoongi. "But maybe he will."

  "We'll see you guys soon Jimin."

  "Bye mom." Jimin sighs. "Yeah. Love you too."

Jimin hangs up the phone looking at Yoongi with a hopeful expression.

  "What?" Yoongi asks.

  "Please don't make me go to my mom's for the holidays Yoongi." Jimin begs.

  "C'mon Jimin you've been putting her off for ages. How many more Christmas's will it be before you go home?"

  "How many more Christmas's until I'm dead?" Jimin asks.

  "Shut up. Christmas isn't in a while that gives you plenty of time to get over the fact that your going home for the holidays." Yoongi says.

  "What about your mom she'll be devastated if you don't go home." Jimin says. 

  "We go there all the time." Yoongi shrugs. "She'll be fine."

  "Fine." Jimin shrugs. "Torture me on the most wonderful day of the year."

Yoongi laughs making Jimin smile to himself.

  "I love you." Jimin smiles.

  "Yeah I know." Yoongi says turning to hide his flushed cheeks.

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  "Did you know there are two calories in one green bean?" Jimin ask picking at his food. "There's about twenty calories here."

  "So? Calories don't matter." Yoongi shrugs.

  "Namjoon told me that it's better for me to say what I'm think out loud instead of trying to sike myself out inside my head." Jimin explains. "That way I don't go crazy."

  "Is it working?" Yoongi asks.

  "No." Jimin shrugs putting a small bite of food into his mouth. "But it makes me a lot more comfortable."

  "That's great." Yoongi smiles.

  "I was also thinking Yoongi." Jimin says.

  "Yeah?"

  "I think you should get therapy too." Jimin says.

  "Where's this coming from?" Yoongi chuckles a bit.

  "I mean- I don't know." Jimin shrugs. "I just think it would help with what your going through."

  "What I'm going through?" Yoongi asks.

"Well yeah. I mean I know I'm partly responsible for it but I don't think it'd hurt to talk to someone about how you feel you know? Talk about things you can't talk about with me." Jimin says.

  "If I can't talk to you about it what makes you think I'd talk to a stranger about it?" Yoongi asks.

  "It was just a suggestion." Jimin shrugs looking back down at his plate.

  "Hey." Yoongi says making Jimin look back up at him. "If it's something you really want me to do I'll do it. Okay?"

  "I didn't mean to make you upset I just thought-"

  "Whos's upset? I'm not upset." Yoongi says.

Jimin smiles softly. "Thank you Yoongs."

  "No problem at all." Yoongi says. "Maybe it could help to talk out my feelings."

Jimin smiles fully at Yoongi. "I think it could."

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