Yoongi isn't home when Jimin wakes up in the morning.

Jimin tries calling but of course Yoongi left his phone.

Jimin paces the hallway slowly trying not to worry to much.

He didn't leave. He wouldn't leave me. Jimin thinks to himself. But it is in fact very likely that Yoongi has left and wants nothing more to do with him. It wouldn't be the first time in Jimin's life that someone has left him without a word. Its easier that way.

Jimin hears the front door open and his entire body flushes with relief.

  "Yoongi?" he says meeting him half way.

  "Expecting someone else?" Yoongi says sarcastically.

  "Where were you?" Jimin asks ignoring his snappy remark.

  "I went to the store. Or something." Yoongi lies.

  "Or something? Yoongi you're a terrible liar." Jimin says.

  "I just went for a walk." Yoongi says.

  "Okay. Why'd you lie?" Jimin asks.

  "I don't know." Yoongi shrugs guiltily. 

  "Oh. I was just worried is all. You usually tell me when your leaving." Jimin says adding "Or something."

Yoongi smiles a little giving Jimin a sarcastic laugh. "You're hilarious."

  "And your acting very sassy today." Jimin says rolling his eyes.

  "Just feeling in top of my sassiness today." Yoongi says.

  "But not on top of your vocabulary obviously. Sassiness isn't a word." Jimin says.

  "I say it." Yoongi shrugs.

  "It isn't in the dictionary." Jimin says.

  "While I would love to sit and argue about the dictionary at one in the afternoon I have better things to do." Yoongi says.

  "Like?" Jimin asks.

  "Sleep off my night." Yoongi says.

  "Understandable." Jimin says suddenly aware of the smile on his lips.

  "And what will your afternoon consist of?" Yoongi asks.

  "Reading the dictionary. Obviously."

Yoongi lets out a small laugh. "Enjoy that."

  "Yeah." Jimin says biting back his smile.

Yoongi laughs again before turning to go to his room.

He hears Jimin laugh lightly to himself and he smiles. Actually smiles.

His phone chimes with a text and he picks it up still smiling like a fool.

Taehyung: Hi Yoongi-hyung! Jungkook invited us and Yugyeom to his for a small get together. Its at seven. I understand if you guys can't make it.

Yoongi bites the inside of his lip reading the message again.

A small get together at Jungkook's at seven? Yoongi has missed a lot of time with his friends and he was really hoping Jimin would with him.

  "Jimin-ah?" Yoongi calls as he walks into the lounge.

  "Hm?" Jimin answers from the couch.

  "Taehyung texted me." Yoongi says.

  "That's nice?" Jimin says his voice laced with confusion.

  "No. Jungkook invited us to his for a small get together thing." Yoongi explains.

  "Oh. Alright." Jimin shutting his laptop.

  "Its tonight." Yoongi says.

  "Oh. Alright." Jimin says again. "That's fine."

  "You're coming?" Yoongi asks.

  "Um..mhm. Yeah." Jimin says.

  "Okay. I'll text Tae." Yoongi says happily.

  "Okay." Jimin replies happy to see Yoongi happy.

Yoongi skips back to his room- well not literally skipping -to text Taehyung back.

Jimin stands and starts pacing.

He hasn't seen his friends in ages.
What if they think he's too skinny as well? What if their scared of him? Is he disgusting enough to be feared? Of course he is.

And of course he'll have to eat. He can't bring attention to himself by denying any offers of food. Everyone already knows what's up with him anyways.

Jimin curses at himself quietly as his mind races with irrelevant thoughts.

  "I have to run out and buy something to wear." Yoongi says.

  "Why?" Jimin asks.

  "I don't have many long sleeved shirts." Yoongi says.

  "Oh." Jimin says looking down stupidly.

  "And the ones I do have are either black or grey." Yoongi says.

  "Grey's nice." Jimin says.

  "Its nice on you. Not so much me." Yoongi says. "Come with me?"

  "I'm not dressed." Jimin says.

  "Alright. I'll be quick." Yoongi says leaning down and placing a brief kiss to Jimin's forehead.

Jimin laughs awkwardly at the sweet gesture.

Yoongi leaves the apartment in a better mood than he left before.

Finally getting a chance to get out of the house and having actual plans.

***

Jimin stands in his room looking in his full body mirror.

His outfit consists of three plain black t-shirts and- of course -his grey long sleeve.

His jeans are baggy but he intentionally brought a larger size to make him look like he had more weight on him.

  "Jimin. We're going to be late." Yoongi calls through the door for the tenth time.

  "I look like a homeless man ran into a poodle and died." Jimin says pulling at his clothes.

  "I'm sure you look great." Yoongi says.

Jimin runs his fingers through his hair carelessly before going to open the door.

  "Maybe I should stay put." he says leaning against the door.

  "Maybe you should stop being so dramatic." Yoongi says. "You look great."

Jimin shakes his head with a sigh. "If you say so."

  "C'mon." Yoongi says giving Jimin his hand.

Jimin takes his hand biting back his smile. You see if moments like this could last forever Jimin and Yoongi would be the happiest people on the planet.

They leave the apartment -Yoongi sporting his new teal jumper.

The cab ride is silent but Jimin jitters the entire time.

  "Stop freaking out. Your freaking me out." Yoongi says as Jimin traces nervous pattern in the back of his hand.

  "Sorry." Jimin says releasing Yoongi's hand.

Jimin lets the disappointment go quickly as they arrive to Jungkook's.

They tip the cab driver before getting out and heading inside.

   "Tell me if you get to overwhelmed." Yoongi says.

  "I won't get overwhelmed." Jimin says his voice already shaking.

  "I'm serious Jimin. We can leave whenever we have to." Yoongi says. "Okay?"

  "Okay." Jimin says with a small shrug.

Yoongi hesitates slightly before he leans in and placing a soft meaningful kiss on Jimin's lips.

Jimin lets his eyes flutter shut and his shoulders relax for a moment as he's taken away by Yoongi's gentle touch.

Yoongi pulls away all to soon and shoots Jimin a smile that he tries his best to return before Yoongi knocks.

Jungkook opens the door with an enthusiastic smile. "Hey guys c'mon on in!"

Yoongi releases Jimin's hand once again as he hugs Jungkook, greeting him happily.

  "Jiminie!" Jungkook says before hugging Jimin tightly.

  "It never fails does it?" Jimin laughs as he's engulfed in Jungkook's embrace.

  "We're all just here in the lounge  chatting a bit." Jungkook says leading to the lounge.

  "Hey you guys made it!" Taehyung says. "Jackson canceled and God knows I didn't want to be stuck alone in a room with this one all night."

  "Crazy. I was thinking the same thing Tae." Jungkook says.

  "How've you been." Taehyung asks as he hugs Jimin.

  "I've been good." Jimin says letting him hug Yoongi.

The four of them sit down Yoongi touching Jimin's arm protectively as they sit.

  "Awe look just look at the two of you." Jungkook squeals.

  "Shut up." Jimin laughs.

Yoongi breaks into conversation with Jungkook and Taehyung and Jimin occasionally commenting or agreeing with something.

  "You okay?" Yoongi asks lowly whenever conversation isn't directed towards him.

  "I'm fine." Jimin says giving him a convincing smile.

An alarm goes of somewhere in the house and Jungkook stands announcing "Dinner is ready."

Yoongi feels Jimin's body tense as the words leave Jungkook's mouth.

  "And I've slaved over it all day so I'd be very devastated if you didn't eat it. Even if it tastes like shit." Jungkook says.

Everyone lets out a small laugh -Jimin's more nervous than anything-.

  "Do you need help with anything?" Yoongi asks politely.

  "No. The three of you just sit there. Look pretty." Jungkook says leaving the room.

Yoongi rubs Jimin's arm as Taehyung excuses himself to the bathroom.

  "I'm fine Yoongi." Jimin says even though he looks like he's seen a ghost.
 
  "We can leave-" Yoongi starts.

  "We're not leaving. I'm fine." Jimin says his voice monotone.

  "Jimin-" Yoongi starts but before he can finish Jungkook is coming in with a tray with four bowls balanced on it.

  "Oh don't tell me you slaved over the slow cooker all day Kookie." Taehyung jokes returning from the bathroom.

  "Hey. I'm sure Jungkook did slave. You know throwing a bunch of random shit into some broth is real labor." Jimin laughs Taehyung joining.

  "You all can starve for all I care." Jungkook says. "Yoongi-hyung and I will enjoy our random shit and broth. Won't we Yoongi?"

  "Depends on what the random shit is Jungkook." Yoongi says earning a laugh from Taehyung.

Jimin struggles to keep the smile on his face as Jungkook's comment seeps into him.

You deserve to starve Jimin.

Yoongi's hand on his back breaks Jimin out of his thoughts and he shoots him another halfhearted smile.

Jimin take his bowl staring at it only briefly trying to figure out how he was going to get pass this.

Everyone starts eating and talking and Jimin bites the inside of his mouth before picking up his spoon.

You can do it. Jimin thinks to himself. Do it for Yoongi.

Don't do it Jimin. It isn't worth it. Its not good for you.

Jimin huffs looking up to look at Yoongi who is smiling and laughing with his friends. Something Jimin could never do. He couldn't make Yoongi happy without making himself unhappy. But it wasn't about him. It was about Yoongi.

We're almost there Jimin. Don't fuck up now. C'mon. Discipline yourself.

Jimin takes a spoonful of the food. No known calories. No know anything. He just eats.

Oh. You've done it now.

Jimin eats half the bowl and he's full. Full.

A feeling Jimin hasn't felt in a long time. The feeling of complete wholeness. But with this wholeness comes guilt. And the guiltiness is something you can't escape.

I'm done playing nice Jimin. After all we've been through. Together. How dare you disrespect me.

Yoongi offers to help Jungkook take the dishes back and Jimin feels awkwardly incomplete without Yoongi by his side.

Taehyung sits on the couch across from him. 

Hope you feel nice and full. That just might be it for you. You useless piece of-

  "I'm so. Glad you guys came Jimin really." Taehyung says setting Jimin free from his own mind.

  "Same. We really needed this." Jimin says trying to keep his voice steady.

  "I wish you'd marry each other already." Taehyung blurts.

  "Um..O-okay?" Jimin stutters blushing lightly.

  "I'm serious. You guys are already in too deep. What's the wait?" he says.

  "This is awkward as hell." Jimin complains.

  "Someone had to address the topic." Taehyung says.

  "Address what topic?" Yoongi asks appearing from the kitchen shooting Jimin a nervous glance.

  "Taehyung wants us to get married." Jimin says enjoying the look on Yoongi's face.

  "How did this come up again?" Yoongi asks his face flushing.

  "How did what come up?" Jungkook asks appearing from where Yoongi came and taking his seat.

  "Jimin and Yoongi are getting married." Taehyung says.

  "Serious?!" Jungkook asks sitting up straighter.

  "No!" Jimin says his voice high pitched.

  "Oh. Fuck off Tae." Jungkook says sitting back.

   "But seriously. I mean hell I'll pay for the wedding." Taehyung says.

  "We're not getting married." Yoongi says.

  "You are. You just don't know it yet." Jungkook says with an exciting grin.

***

Thought I make a happy chapter. ;)

I also wanted to let you all know how perfect you are. BOY OR GIRL You are perfect. And if nobody loves you, you have to at least love yourself. No matter what stress society puts on us. We're beautiful. We all are beautiful. Especially you.