~few days later~

Since that day Y/N has been more distant from the real world, her head filled with all questions and doubts and regrets....but one question remained....

Should this affect her decision on the divorce?

He left and didn't come back but there were reasons for that....
but all those years that passed by it still exists... She cant help but realise that all the times that passed without each other somehow change them, people change.....

Feelings change...

Y/N and her mother sat at the couch.

"Be honest with me....Do you still love Jungkook?" She asks earning a sad look from y/n as she looks away and looks down at her lap with her hands curled in a fists distracting herself from crying.

"I love Jungkook....I know that...and I always will...he was my first love.
The first guy to ever make me feel like I was the only girl that mattered in his eyes and I know its so cliche right? But isn't that what love is? The most cliche thing ever.... But somehow he made our cliche love into the most extraordinary most amazing feeling that I have ever felt.
The feeling of his love made me feel safe, warmth, and secure...it felt like home in his arms".

She laughed sadly as she remembered all those bitter sweet memories that she cherished even through the times that he had hurt her, she made sure that these memories were her light. Her way out of the darkness that surrounds her.

"But....is it this feeling that I'm holding onto?.....I think....I have always found it difficult to divorce him because....it was that feeling that I held onto..... rather than him..... The things he made me feel...."

"So what is it that you mean?" She held her hand as they sat on the couch .

"Its time to let myself feel....feel something new...and stop longing to feel that same way again....."

Jungkook pov

"Its time to let myself feel....feel something new...and stop longing to feel that same way again....."

I stood at the door of the apartment and I over heard their whole conversation.. She wants to feel something new....she doesn't want that feeling I used to give her when we used to be together she wants something new....someone new....

I have failed to make you happy before....
Im not failing again....

If filling out those papers makes you happy.....

Then I'll do it....