Y/N pov

I sat here waiting at the bench of the park while hani and Joo-hyuk played by the swings. He always makes me rest and relax whenever we bring hani to the park because he tells me to use this time for myself and he'll mind her. I couldn't be more grateful for him, he came into our lives two years ago during hani's first birthday. Thinking about it now...he's the only father figure for her.....since he's gone..

Why am I even thinking about him? Its been 3 years! And I waited for him like idiot for 9 months...Even his parents don't know where he is...But I always had a feeling they did but Jungkook just won't let them....What's worse is....he's not the only one who disappeared...they all did...Taehyung, Jimin , Hoseok , Namjoon ,Yoongi and Jin.... They all left me...

The first few months Taehyung lend me his shoulder to cry on just like always...but as soon as I went into labour, I waited for all of them to at least be here when Jungkook couldn't...But even they abandoned me like I was a nobody.

It's not that I'm holding a grudge...Its just....I was hurt... I still am...

Hani and I moved back here to Korea when I finished College two years ago and this is where we met Joo-hyuk. He's been a great friend and an amazing Oppa to hani.
There comes a time when hani would ask for her Appa but I just keep telling her that....well he's up there...

I don't really know how to tell my own daughter that her father abandoned us the second he found out she was given to me.

Joo-hyuk is a friend....But he's already confessed to me his true feelings...But I keep telling him to wait... Jungkook and I are technically still married.... I filed for a divorce already but its taking long because they need his signature... or I could divorce him by publication...but that would mean I would have to put it in the newspapers or any publication and run it for 3 weeks and if there's no respond then the judge would have to grant it to me...

But Im in Korea and the last time I saw him was in America.
Ughh what to do?!?

"Hey..." Joo-hyuk sat beside me at the bench having hani in his arms and I see that she's starting to close her eyes.

"Hey.."

"What were you thinking about?"

I took out the two types paperwork for a divorce and showed it to him.

"Why do you have two?" He asks seeing the papers in my hand.

"This one requires his signature...which is the normal type of divorce..." I showed it to him.

"But...he's no where to be found for him to sign.."

"I know...thats why I also have this one....divorce by publication...but what are the chances he'll see and reply?....We're both half way across the world.." I looked down as I stared at the two paperworks on my lap.

Why is it so hard to divorce you JEON JUNGKOOK?!?

"How long have you have you had those?" He asks.

"Two weeks now probably...Im not sure...but its always in my bag..." He then just looks at me as if he was sad.

"What's wrong?"

"You've had those for two weeks now....why haven't you filled them in yourself?.....Are you hesitating?"

Am I hesitating?....
He's right I should have filled them in the second I got them... Am I still holding on?....

Am I ready to really Jungkook go?....
To officially live a life with no ties to him....